Thristy for us

Varnic

I ran through the woods to the house where I grew up as a child. It's silent, very silent, like they aren't there anymore. My feet go to the door and I hear a voice behind it; “You dare to come back home,” I heard Father through the door speaking to me.

“You were right father, they can't change,” I explained about our earlier conversation before this all started again. “I did tell you to die there or not in that kind of words, but are you already scared away?” He laughed at his question to me, and he knew I needed them to feed me.

“You know we are going to fight until they are all gone. I don't care what happened to you that night, but from now on we will not change into that monster again,” Father commanded like he did know what happened to me, that he did know what it was. He is holding also stuff from me, and I want after all these years to know what it is and what I am.

“Father, I promise I will not change, but can you tell me what and how I can change?” Father looked like I asked him too much, he looked so angry.

“It's a filthy animal, I never want to talk about that kind, I have dealt with it long ago.” My heart spins, he dealt with it, does that mean he is also a changeling?

“What do you mean, you dealt with it long ago, father?” I growl but wanted definitely something off his chest. “I killed that woman, that beast, and I had to take care of you all by myself. It's because you're mine. After all, if you weren't, you would be just as dead as she is.” Never I heard about my mother, I knew Brogh and Hollister had another mother, but this I never expected. Father who slept with a changeling or didn't know she was one.

He only kept me, because I am his child what a cruel thing to say, because he never treated me like his own child. I was the outstander, the nobody of his kids. We are with a lot more whom I don't know about, or they already died I don't know, dad didn't speak to us not much. Say rarely, that's why this shocks me to hear him speak and even forgive me.

He leads me inside where my whole family is eating and waiting for me to join, like Father already told them that I would be home for dinner.

“I will get you, brother, wait,” Brogh treated me, why I don't know, but I expected it to have something to do with Avery and the mark she gave him.

It's like a triangle with us as you can say, that all because of the spell the witch did to give her a second chance to kill even more than both of us.

“Brogh, why wouldn't you let it go, she is dangerous.” He laughs, not feeling the danger that she is. “You are just a scary dog, not worthy of our kind. If I could choose, I would have killed you,” Brogh says in his scratchy laugh. He is going to be a pain in the ass. I must look out with him if he doesn't get us in more trouble.

“Brogh eat and shut up!” Dad commands my brother what made him shut up. Dad is the only one of us that can make him shut up. Then you have two uncles of mine and some friends of dad who stay also in the house. We are like a pack always together just like the Tuborns are also always together.

When the eating was done, and I got to my room, Brogh was there again. “You can't hold her away from me, I desire her, I want her,” He says with a smile that even creeps me out. “It isn't love Brogh it is the marking that makes you feel these things,” I tried to let him see he was acting stupid. He isn't giving up when he comes after me in the room; “Don't you feel it, don't you feel her touch burn your skin or her lips that drive you mad?” Brogh asked, coming closer and closer to me. “Yes, I do feel it, but I can control it. You have to take control of it too, Brogh, because it will drive you mad.” I again try to make some sense into him, but he doesn't do anything as he continues; “I don't want to fight it, I just want to embrace it.” That was it before he was gone out of my room, and I got a feeling he was going to go to her soon.

This was something I was scared of when I noticed the mark on him, and indeed I had to be scared. He did try to come close before, but now I can only hold him in place to be here. That's also the reason I got away from her, because I could not protect her when I had not handled Brogh and from here I can try to stop him from doing stupid things.

When the sun starts to shine, I feel some weird feeling inside of me. Like, Avery is some kind of trouble.

I run through the woods without thinking about what this feeling is making me feel. Just only thinking I want to be with her. The woods are damped from the rainy night, and running isn't that easy. The sun is changing in a cloud of rain and water is streaming on me like I am in a bath.

Wet, and tired, I come to the house where I feel a whole other feeling inside of me. “No, that can't be true,” I said in a whisper, shaking my head. I got up the stairs, knowing what I would see wasn't something I wanted to see.

There she is lying in bed with my brother next to her, holding her. They are almost fully undressed, and I can see his fang marks on her neck.

There is a war inside of me bigger than myself. All of me is so angry that I can't hold myself.