Thristy for us

The funeral was the worst. My father is in the coffin put in our family's grave. An almost empty grave, filled with two of my close family.

Tears find their way out of my eyes to dry out before they can touch my cheek. I hate her, I hate Merina, how could she do this? Why is The Tormented OK, no one of them is harmed. I knew I had some bond with them, but why?

My sister is still in a coma, she is from the last time I saw her. Why they didn't tell me that they were so sick would be forever a question I will have.

Varnic takes my hand and stills my hunger and my hurt feelings just with his touch. I had thought he would be angry after he noticed he was back to the old monster, but he never told me anything about it.

If I wanted to even question it, he made me shut up by kissing me. Maybe he did see that our love is a better choice, I hope so.

I feel a strange feeling and when I look into the woods I see some eyes pointed at us. The father of Varnic is looking at us again, he is just enjoying my hurt. They had killed two of us. No, Merina killed my father and made my sister sick. When I start again thinking about her, I feel a cough coming up out of my throat. But again Varnic takes the pain away.

“You will have your revenge,” Whispered Varnic into my ear. His words are sincere, but I know it isn't going to happen. She isn't going to come back, I have a feeling, deep inside.

I look at the priest who says some words and disappears out of our cemeteries, going back to his church. Here I stand alone with my uncle and Varnic next to me. My uncle looked like he would kill Varnic in an instant as the priest was out of sight. “Avery, if he isn't gone on our property by night, I will kill him,” my uncle warned me and got away before I could return any words.

“Don't worry, he isn't going to do a thing,” I said to assure Varnic with words I can't promise him.

We go together to the house where I step inside feeling cold and empty. No one of my close family is here, only the tormented, who I have to care for. It is therapy for me, but still not enough to forget what happened to my father and sister. What if my sister also dies, because of something I did?

I have seen her body lying in that big bed, she looks pale, sickly, and skinny. She doesn't even look like my sister anymore. I have to do something about it, but I can't figure out what with all these troubles I have with this situation of Varnic in my house. Even the tormented ones feel bound in the house, which is a bigger task for me to have them away from them. Then every night search for food for the tormented ones and I to survive. We did survive on the last scraps in the freezer that are starting to go empty.

I have tried to go out at night but if I get close to a bounded one I lose him instead then to catching him. Nobody taught me to hunt them, so I have this all to figure out myself. Then the desire to bite Varnic I have to control also. Hunger is starting to take over me now I have to give almost crumbs to everyone.

“I have to beg my father for forgiveness,” Varnic said when we stood in front of my bedroom door. “He will never give it,” I say, scared that he is going to try. “Avery, both choices are bad, stay here your uncle or your family would hurt me. As the hunger starts to strike and go back to my father can also end in death, but I know then I would not be eaten,” Varnic says, turning his gaze from me. I felt hurt and angry; “How dare you think we would eat you, never I would eat you, remember that,” My voice was so hard that he stepped away from me. “Sorry Avery, I know it isn't in your control, that's why I want to leave, for you.”

A laugh that I could not control came out of my mouth. Now he comes with this type of excuse to just not to be with me. Hunger is taking over, that's why I am so agitated with him, and he knows it.

“Avery, I have also to feed and there I can with my type of monsters,” Varnic says again, stepping away from me.

It feels like he is breaking up with me, then instead wants to apologize to his family to be safe. “Varnic just tell me the truth,” I sigh, knowing him and his behavior. “It's nothing, Avery, I will handle it,” Varnic says and leaves the house like a whirlwind, he was gone.

I know it's something important he is hiding, and now he almost fled from me, which is of course enough to prove something is not right or happened to him.

My uncle did indeed come later to see if Varnic was back, but he wasn't, and I expected him not to be back soon. I could not keep secrets anymore for my uncle and had to admit that our food soon would be empty and that I needed to hunt. He was so happy I finally asked for some help from him, just like a year ago, we were back so close. “I will teach you everything, Avery, your father isn't here anymore and can't stop me from teaching you everything about our kind.” I was like a child that could go to the candy shop. This was all that I asked from my father and mother, some help, which I never got.

Now I think about it, they did everything and kept me away from them and our survival. That night I had a great night and a great catch, that's when it finally felt like everything was going to be ok. But it wasn't ok, Varnic did leave, and he was hiding something. I forget about all the problems that night, just the thrill of the hunt.