The Unwanted Luna

"I will end you Ace, get this baby out of me!" and that would be me screaming at the top of my lungs.

Xavier got me to the hospital in record time and after the doctor checked me out, he confirmed what I already knew was happening, I was indeed in labor.

Xavier was shocked, I do not know why but this should be good practice for him for when he and the love of his love have kids.

I did not want him in the room with me for many reasons, the major one being this was a special moment and I did not want him to ruin it by throwing insults at me like he usually does.

Plus why would I want someone who hates me in the room with me as I give birth even if the baby is his?

I was vulnerable so what would prevent him from ripping out my heart once the baby was born? Denying me even the chance to see him or carry him.

But he didn't even fight me when I requested that, that just proves how much he does not care nor see me as his mate.

Most she wolves that I have heard of, their mates refused to leave them while they were in labor. They held their hands and encouraged them through it all till the end.

No one really prepares you for the pain of childbirth, the contractions are something else entirely.

Those practice classes that I went to were completely useless now that it was actually happening. I wish I had my mother here with me, or even Sophie but just like always I was alone in this room with a bunch of nurses and doctors who absolutely hate me. "Aaaaaarggh" I let out another shout while pushing as best as I could.

The doctor wanted me to get a caesarean because I was physically weak but I refused.

I was going to give birth to my son naturally even if I die in the process. I felt like I was being torn into two and I cussed Ace all the way to hell for purposely getting me pregnant and putting me through this.

I know you are probably wondering why I am complaining when I should, by now, be having a high tolerance for pain because of what I have been going through but the truth is I don't. Pain is pain no matter the form it comes in.

We have been at it for so long but nothing was happening and I was starting to lose the strength I had gathered from deep within. I wanted to be done with it and see my son.

"Just give me one more push, a big one this time" Doctor Mathews tells me.

I take a deep breath and give it a push, I feel a pop and then the sweetest sound fills the room.

My son was finally here. I could not help the tears that fell down my face.

"Here is your son Amelia, what is his name?" She hands him over to me once they are done cleaning him up and he is simply beautiful.

I may be biased because he is my son but he is the most beautiful baby I have seen.

"Tristan, his name is Tristan" that is the name I had picked all by myself because Xavier didn't want to get involved. He looked just like his father but had my green eyes.

"Hi my love, I am your mommy" I say and he just looks at me adorably.

My tears hit his cheek making him blink, I didn't even know I was crying. I go to tell him more but his face disappears and I start seeing dancing dots.

"I don't feel too well, someone please take Tristan" I say to no one in particular but I am thankful when I feel him being taken from my hands.

I feel a gush of liquid coming out of me just before everything goes blacks out.

*****

I am in complete darkness when I regain consciousness, just like last time there is no light and no life whatsoever.

I remember my baby and I feel a sense of loss because I didn't get to hold him for long but I hoped that he was okay despite what was happening to me.

The darkness fades and red eyes appear in front of me but this time instead of the shadowy form I was used to, an actual man was standing there, a really hot man for that matter, I couldn't take my eyes off him no matter how I tried. I didn't have to be told that this was the shadow I have been seeing, I just knew deep down that he was.

"We finally meet, face to face" he says, his voice deeper and richer than I am used to, not that I have heard his voice on a regular basis or anything like that.

"Who are you? And why do you keep appearing to me?" I ask him.

"You can call me Nolan, as for why I keep appearing to you, that is an answer for another day" he says, smiling at me and it is completely breathtaking. "Why can't you tell me now? What is going on? I don't understand" I ask and then start pacing because I am frustrated by everything that is happening. "Everything will soon make sense"

"What is with everyone telling me the same thing? first the moon goddess and now you. Can't you just give me a straight answer?" I ask, he goes to say something but he starts fading away.

"Wait! Don't go yet, I still have so much to ask" I say but he is already gone and then everything starts fading.

I can hear the sound of alarms blaring, making me open my eyes. I hear shouts and screams from the outside which makes me confused and scared.

I get out of the bed and leave the hospital room only to find pure chaos in the hallways. People rushing and crashing into each other in their rush.

The alarm continues blaring and it is then that I realize we are under attack.

Thinking of Tristan I rush to the nursery but it is completely empty, probably all babies were evacuated to keep them safe.

Our pack has never been attacked so whichever group of rogues decided to attack were really really stupid. I need to be near my son and I know just where they would be.

Despite being sore I run and burst through the doors of the hospital desperate to be near my son.

I wasn't prepared for what I would see when I got outside. Yes we were under attack but not by rogues but by the same creatures that killed my parents. For a moment I am completely frozen in terror as I saw them attacking my pack.

They were too strong, too fast and unpredictable. There was no way the pack could win against them because they were ruthless and nothing they warriors did seemed to have any impact on them.

I was broken out of my trance when I heard Bianca scream. Looking at the direction of the scream I saw her on the ground while one of the creatures was advancing on her.

I rushed towards her, I didn't know what I was going to do but I needed to help her either way. Despite our feud, she was still my sister and I would never let her get killed by the same creatures that killed our parents.

I had just reached her when the thing back handed her, making her release a scream before hitting a nearby tree and going unconscious just as the thing disappeared.

I was confused and about to go help Bianca when I was roughly pushed aside. I looked up to find Xavier staring at me with so much hate.

"I told you never to touch her! Is this your way of getting back at me?"

There is so much venom in his voice, his eyes keep flickering from grey to amber. I look down and I was bleeding between my legs.

I put my hands around myself trying to prevent my body from losing more blood. It is then that I realize that he thinks that I am the one that attacked Bianca.

"Xavier..." Bianca calls in a weak voice making us turn in her direction, her eyes close once again and within seconds he is by her side picking her up gently.

"For what you have done to her, I hate you...with everything I am" he tells me just as he passes me, as he carries my sister, probably taking her to the doctor leaving me there wounded and bleeding

I feel on my knees and cry.

I am done, completely done. Xavier will never love me nor accept me so the bond will keep on decaying and I can't have that. I needed to protect Tristan and this was the proof I needed to make a final decision.

I had to kill two birds with the same stone, both the creatures and the bond had to be dealt with. I knew exactly what needed to be done. With that I get up and slowly head towards the pack house.