Speak To Me

(Tilly)

"Now, that wasn't so bad, was it?" Rylan asked before plopping down on the couch beside me as I rested my head back and lifted my legs into his lap.

"Do you think they liked me? I mean..they weren't just being nice right?" I asked worriedly, making Rylan smile at me warmly.

"I think they loved you.." He whispered before grabbing my foot and began rubbing it.

I don't know when it happened exactly, but I started to feel so comfortable with Rylan that stuff like this just feels natural now.

I mean..we haven't exactly gone beyond kissing yet..there has been some heavy petting going on but that's about it..and truthfully..I thought we would've done more by now. I mean..I want to do more, but I don't exactly know how to tell him that. But the kissing has been a great distraction..especially with the drama I have been avoiding. Maybe I still haven't talked to my mom or sister yet..well..whatever they are. I don't even know how to address them anymore. "Gabriella is just as sweet as you said she would be...and funny too." I added, meaning it completely. Maybe Gabriella and I will end up being friends.

"She is pretty sweet..but do you want to know who is sweeter?" Rylan suddenly asked, making my stomach flip.

"Who?" I breathed the word, seeing that look in Rylan's eyes that seemed to turn my limbs into jelly.

"You."

Rylan held my legs up, his body turning as I sunk deeper into the couch and felt him start to crawl over me.

"You look so beautiful right now." He breathed, his arms caging me in as I lay beneath him.

"All night I have wanted to kiss those sweet lips..." He groaned as I couldn't help but swallow hard.

"Really?"

It was hard to believe sometimes that Rylan really felt this way about me..so when he says this stuff, I had to make double sure.

"Really.." He smirked, those green eyes searching my own as his blonde hair fell across his forehead..he was so handsome.

"Then kiss me." I found the courage to say, trying not to wriggle too much beneath him.

Without a single hesitation, Rylan pressed his lips to mine. The way they glided across my skin so delicately caused my eyelids to flutter closed as stars danced beneath them.

I could do this for hours...actually, we have done this for hours.

I felt Rylan's tongue skillfully slip out, teasing and rolling against my own as I let out a whimper. Every sound I made seemed to excite him even more as I felt something hard soon pressing against my lower stomach. This wasn't the first time I felt him like this..but I know when we get to this point, that's when he usually stops..I didn't want him to stop this time..

I lifted my hands, placing my palms flat against his torso as I heard a groan rumble from deep within his chest.

"Tilly..what are you doing to me.." He gasped, pressing against me deeper as I lifted my hips slightly, rubbing against his bulge and making him hiss.

"Rylan.. if..if you want to do more..we can." I rushed out, feeling him stiffen above me as he suddenly stopped.

Crap..I shouldn't have said anything..

"Tilly, it's getting late, we should probably get ready for bed." He blurted, causing my face to fall as I watched him push off of me and the couch.

Is it me? Am I doing something wrong? Or does he just not want to go that far?

"Come on, hop on my back, I will carry you to the bathroom." Rylan offered, his back facing me now as he towered above me. He always wants to give me piggy back rides..but I definitely wasn't feeling it right now. "It's okay, I can just walk."

I whispered, feeling deflated as Rylan peeked over his shoulder, looking down at me.

"Hey..what's wrong?" He asked worriedly.

I looked away, trying to build up the courage to say this as I wrung my hands together and took a deep breath.

"Do you..not want to have sex with me?" I asked honestly, my words causing Rylan's eyes to widen almost comically.

"Tilly.....Well..of course I do! I mean..I want to..but..god..I didn't expect you to say that." He muttered, his large hand rising before he began rubbing the back of his neck nervously.

"Listen..come here." Rylan whispered, taking the seat next to me as he suddenly grabbed my hands.

"You have been through a lot recently..and truthfully..there is still a lot more you have to go through once you decide to reach out to your family again..I just..I don't want to take advantage of you..considering you are experiencing a lot of emotions right now." He went on to explain..and I just frowned.

"But..I want to have sex with you."

"Fuck..maybe don't say it like that.." He grumbled before shifting slightly in his seat.

"How should I say it?" This was all new to me truthfully..the way I was raised..we didn't talk about sex. I mean, I knew the basics of how babies were made and stuff..but I was supposed to find out the rest after getting married.

I was very sheltered.

"How about we just call it being intimate..everytime you say the other word it does things to me." Rylan grumbled and I just looked at him in surprise.

"What things?"

Rylan then motioned down to his pants, drawing my attention to the large erection he now had as I stared at it in shock.

"These types of things.."

"Can I..touch it?" I blurted, feeling my body start to tingle suddenly.

"Touch it?! Did you just ask to touch it?.." Rylan cursed under his breath, before placing his hands over his face and letting out a groan.

"Don't be an ass Rylan..you can't do this shit."

I swear I heard him say as he suddenly reached over and grabbed a pillow, shoving it in his lap.

"Tilly..I want you to touch my cock more than I have ever wanted anything in this entire freaking world. But if you do...it's going to start something you aren't ready for yet." "But I feel like I'm ready. Im twenty years old Rylan..I'm not a child." I responded hastily.

Rylan just stared at me for a few seconds, his eyes searching mine carefully before he let out a long breath.

"I know your not Tilly.."

"Then please..let me see it..I want you Rylan." God, was I begging now? I hope I don't come across as too pathetic...

Rylan just sat there for a few minutes..and eventually I watched the pillow slide off.

I couldn't help but smile as I scooted closer to him on the couch eagerly.

"Just..if it's too much, you have to tell me okay?" Rylan added, causing confusion to fill me as I just nodded in agreement. Why would it be too much?

"Do you want me to help you?" Rylan asked, his voice turning husky as I shook my head no.

"No, I want to do it."

I reached over, my hands finding the button of Rylan's pants as he let out a few deep breathes before laying his head back and peered down at me with hooded eyes.

"You look so sexy right now." He added, making me smile as I bit my lip softly before reaching for his zipper.

I could tell he was bigger already..I mean..it seemed big just from the bulge size.

"Should you take your pants off?" I asked.

"If you want me to." He responded and I nodded yes. It seemed like it would make things easier right?

He helped me pull them down as his hands suddenly gripped my hips, plopping me into his lap as I was now straddling his thighs.

"I want to see your face when you do this." He stated in a husky tone.

Then the nerves started to rise..I swear my cheeks immediately engulfed into flames as he suddenly let out a chuckle.

"It's okay to be nervous angel, I am too." He whispered.

"You are?"

Rylan nodded in response.

"You are the only one who has ever made me feel this way..even before a fight my nerves were never this bad." He explained, reminding me that he used to box after high school. When he told me that, it made Rylan even sexier..but I'm glad he doesn't do it any longer. That's something I'm glad I won't see..I would be way too worried about him.

I shifted my hips, rubbing myself on top of Rylan slightly as I felt my teeth sink into my bottom lip.

Then I slid my hands up his thighs, causing Rylan to shiver as I saw that bulge suddenly twitch beneath his briefs.

Then I made my move, hesitantly pulled back the waistband of his underwear when his cock suddenly sprang out, surprising me.

I swear I almost jumped as Rylan shook with laughter beneath me.

"I didn't expect that." I admitted sheepishly, getting a freaking jump scare from his cock..jeez..

"It's okay, I'm just really hard right now..so it's eager to come out." Rylan teased. "Do you want to feel it?" He added, his voice growing deeper as I nodded my head yes.

"Give me your hand." He whispered, my eyes staying glued to this monster of a cock beneath me as I couldn't look away. I didn't realize there would be veins and everyhting..

I placed my hand in Rylan's, letting him guide me to the top as he slowly lowered it down.

"You're already making me leak all over myself." He mumbled, causing my stomach to flip as I felt the clear liquid slick beneath my finger tips.

"Is that..semen? Did you already cum?" God I probably sound like a freaking idiot..but I didn't know much about this stuff considering I wanted to save myself for my future husband. Rylan let out a shuddering breath.

"No, it's precum..it's kind of like how you get wet from being turned on."

"Oh." I was freaking mesmerized..my fingers began sliding along Rylan's tip, feeling the precum trail down as I started to trace the veins on the side of his cock. "Fuck..if you start doing that, I am going to cum." He said quickly, as I felt his cock twitch beneath my hand.

"Can I make you cum?" I looked up, seeing Rylan stiffen. His green gaze burned into mine as he just stared at me for a few seconds before he finally spoke.

"Is that what you want to do?" He asked huskily, making me nod now as I wrapped my fingers around his thick shaft.

"I really want to." I confessed, and then Rylan groaned, the look in his eyes growing hazy as he moved his hips, causing his cock to slide against my palm. "Just..keep moving it like that then." He choked out, and I began doing just that..