One Sided Love

Kate

Rachel was with me and she was holding my daughter...

She said 'what a precious little thing she is.... she is the most beautiful baby girl I have seen ... oh look at her rosy cheeks.."

I looked lovingly to her n said ' Rachel thank you so much for being there for me... I will never forget that..'

Rachel' kate don't you dare to say thank you.. im your friend n that's what friends do'

I very blessed to have Rachel as a friend ... my little girl started to cry.... its her feeding time... kate give her to me

I unbuttoned my front button n my hungry little princess attack on it..

Rachel laughed n said " opps some body is very hungry... what you gonna name her'

The moment I know im having a girl... many name came into my mind but the name I want to give her my daughter was after emily

I said ' Aria emily Robbins'

Rachel looked sympathetically to me n said...' kate its a very beautiful name.... naming your daughter after Emily is very great step even after knowing she was your husband first wife'

I replied' Emily was my friend my sister....so my daughter should be named after her... it was the name that came into my mind, all the time'

She looked' you r very kind n beautiful person inside n out... Alex is lucky to have you'

By Alex name I flinched... he still doesn't see her... but what I was expecting he was already so loud n clear that he has nothing to do with Aria... I wish god changed his heart towards my daughter Alex

Kate was sitting in the car n was holding the baby in sleeping bag.... I still doesn't see her face... although I can see how this little thing is restless n active ... she constantly shaking her legs n hands... her little fist is inside her mouth... n every then now she cry n then relax ..then cry then relax... Kate was already so tired n she keeps looking at me that I will mind n get angry with all this baby cry... n I feel shit to make her so uncomfortable... kate never said again to see the baby... may be it is good because im already in guilt I cannot take it anymore...

To make it less awkward I said to kate' hmm.. mom n dad are coming tonight... they feel bad they were not with you and I called your father... he dont have any idea that you called...I told him that Mona picked the phone... anyway He said he is coming directly to home since you are discharged... so he may come' Kate softly replied 'oh ok..'

Finally I reached home... when I was opening the door kate said with embarrassed face' Alex....actually I don't know in which way I left the house... it may not be that clean... im..

I stopped her ' kate plz ... I will give damn to whole house... all that matters is you are alright... I already feel like shit I wasn't with you when you needed me the most... (I picked her face) its me who should say sorry not you'

She smiled n said ok ... when I opened the door n let kate enter first... I realized the house look so cold like nothing happened in the last 24 hours... I remember when emma was borned whole house was covered with flowers balloons n welcome sign... I remember kate help me to do all the decorations... everyone try to make Emily feel like a queen on that day.... n now im standing in house where their is no celebration sign n no one to hug kate..... when I looked towards kate... I saw her face with sad expression like she was also thinking the same... Im no good like everyone I let her down from the very first day I met her.....

she looked n said ' Alex im going to feed her... then take a shower... I will make the lunch n dinner afterward'

I replied ' kate you will just relax n rest... I will take care of everything... now go emma will be in any time here'

By emma name she give me a bright smile... she said ' I missed emma so much...I can't wait to hold her' With that the baby start crying... kate start cooing her n said she will go to the nursery first...

I called the Mexican restaurant to order lunch... n decided to take a bath too.

After an hour I saw Kate was already dressed in loose sundress n freshly bath ... she was in the kitchen taking orange juice from the fridge..... I went to her n hold her from behind... she flinched a little but then she relax knowing it's me... she said ' Alex you scared me' I was kissing her neck 'who you thought it can be... you looked so edible n fucking beautiful ... all I want to do to take you to the room but damn I have to wait for 6 weeks...

She laughed ' me n beautiful... buddy I think you forger I still have those pregnancy fat... that make you run from me'

I replied Babe you are so wrong... you looked ravishing n you have not gain a lot of weight you looked more beautiful then ever'

I kissed her passionately ... but stop when images of Emily came during n after her pregnancy how much I loved her n kissed her like this when she become the mother of my child n one of the images was me n her standing in the kitchen and making out when all the guest were in the living room to see newborn emma... fuck I missed her ... I still feel im betraying emily

Kate looked confused but then her expression changed to sad one when she realized where I have gone.... because I have done this many time to her... she get out of my embrace and give me sad smile n said that she is going to nursery... I looked her in guilt The bell rang... since all the staff is on holidays... so I opened the door

It was kate father's who was holding sleeping emma n behind were some staff who were holding a lot of gifts.... look like some one is happy for kate baby... surprisingly kate father's has come with gifts to meet his granddaughter... I feel a little relieved for kate sake... may be she may not feel rejection from her father today... unlike me...

I greet him

He said ' Alex... im sorry for the delay but like I told you I took emma to Disneyland n she was so excited n happy there so extended my time there but when you called I come immediately... I never knew kate will go sooner to labor...

I replied' you came thats matter'..

I took emma from her in the mean time kate came... with a smile n said 'Daddy you came... how are you... n Emma my baby (-she kissed her head) she is tired I think'

I told her that im going to put her in bed... when I was coming to living room I heard

kate father's said...about the called Mona doesn't tell me because she forget... otherwise I might help you.... n secondly you weren't so clear why you called so just ignore it'

Like a normal n sane person will called at that time... of course kate was in need of them n mona knew that very much n she choosed to ignore....

Kate said ' Daddy you came thats matter... just forget about it... n looked at those gifts... I know you will make it some how... but your presence was more than welcome.... but still thank you for bringing these gifts for my daughter' Kate father's looked a little embarrassed n said 'Actually these gifts are for emma not for... I mean...for the baby.. these all belongs to emma.'

I can see how broken expression are of kate which makes me more sad n depressed for her... all this time she, though her father some how happy for her newborn daughter... God what she is growing through only she knows...

She said 'Of course... it was a surprised for everyone... but like I said your presence was more than welcome... do you like to see her.... she just looked Alex .( she nervously laughed) she is nothing like me... do you want to hold her... she is sleeping but she will wake any moment so you will get some time with her'

Kate was babbling like she want to convince her father that her daughter is nothing like her n may be he will loved his new born granddaughter

Her father uncomfortably said ' hmmm... I have to be at home... mona is not feeling well.... may be next time'

She looked so shattered n said ' daddy plz... for one second you don't even have to hold her... just her.... no one from her family has see her yet... plz'

He looked angry 'I told once that mona needs me.... n whose fault is that no one wants to see her Its your fault... you try to trap Alex so god has punished you for your sin... now I have to go'

I can't control myself n went to talk to Ryan but by the time he was out of the door.

Kate looked devastated......

I called her name but doesn't reply

I touch her shoulder she looked at me

N try to mask her hurt with a smile' oh Alex ! Daddy was busy so he can't stay longer... he brought these gifts for emma... let me collect them.. I wil.. will put it her room'

She bend to collect all those gifts but I stop her ' Kate stop! I heard it all... what your father said... it was hurtful'

She looked sadly n said 'Well this is the fate of me n my daughter to be unwanted everywhere... yeah it pains me a lot but sooner I accept it less it will become hurtful' With that she left the room.