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pent with Siegren. The once ue to his busy schedule with the AS THE DAYS PASSED. Helga notices a significant decrease in the amount of th constant presence of her love seemed to be fading away, leaving her to wonder upcoming haunting festival and the impending arrival of I of Narva delegation, or it was purposely avoiding her after their encounter during the last full moon. But regardless of the reason, she couldn't deny how much she missed him, especially when there were nights when she lay awake in their bed, only to be disappointed when he never came. More often than not, she would find him asleep in his study or hear that he had taken up residence in a hotel when his duties outside the palace required it.
His absence was starting to make her feel lonely, but she understood that his responsibilities always took priority and there was nothing she could do about it
"Since when did I become greedy!" she whispered to herself, realizing that she had hoped to have Siegren by her side whenever she wanted. But now, she understood that it was too much to ask for. She slapped her own cheek as the thought out and oversee the preparations for the hunting festival." sunk in and then checked the time. "I should go towards She stood up from her chair, pushing it back with a creak and in a few days despite living under the same roof. As she approached the door to his study, hesitation crept over her and she paused before finally knocking, her trembling hand betraying her inner turmoil. "Come in." Siegren's voice, deep and soothing made Helga's heart t beat faster, feeling as s though it it was her first time hearing him, She hesitated for a moment before cautiously opening the door and entering inside. As soon as he saw her, his fingers twitched with the overwhelming desire to run towards her and hold her tightly, letting her know how much he missed her. But he held back, knowing that it would only make things harder for both of them. He had promised himself to keep a distance, to control his s desires, and red refrain from engaging in any sexual activities with her. It was- a difficult struggle, but his determination to not cause Helga any pain or harm overpowered his own desires. "What's the matter?" he asked after trying to push away the
reason for it. Or maybe there was; after all, she hadn't seen him in a to stretching her tired muscles before she made her way the Siegren's study, the hallway seeming to extend with each step she took. She couldn't help feeling nervous, even though there was no real
clenched her fists and took a deep breath his throat, his gaze shifting back to the documents in front of him. The way he avoided looking at her for more than a few seconds made her heartache. It was as if her presence no longer held any importance to him. She minds and hearts. As much as she wanted to deny it, this was the rative thoughts and emotions that threatened to consume her. From the beginning, their relationship had been for convenience purposes only, but the strong pull of the mating bond had clouded their
reality of their marriage. It was a tough pill to swallow, but Helga knew she needed to face reality and let go of any illusions she held about their relationship. "I don't have much work to do in my office, so I was thinking of heading to the central plaza to see the preparations for the hunting festival," she said, feeling as though their relationship had regressed to its initial stage again. Not only did she catch herself being formal with him again, but his distant demeanor also became increasingly apparent. "All right, just make sure sure to bring Lucian with you," Siegren said, refusing to look at her because he knew that the longer, he stared at her face, the more his resolve would weaken and his efforts the past few days would become pointless. "I understand," She nodded slowly before bowing politely. "I'll be I be taking my leave, thank you, Your Majesty." Siegren winced, the sound of Helga's voice like a sharp sting to his heart. It was how she used to address him before the mate bond existed between them. A wave of longing and regret washed over him as he clenched his fist, wanting nothing more than to pull her back I shower her with kisses and embraces to make up for all the time they had been apart. But he knew he couldn't, not yet
and
As soon as Helga left, he released a heavy breath and allowed his gaze to drift upwards towards the ceiling.
"Am I
ARE truly doing what's best for usar he wondered aloud, his doubts gnawing at him like a persistent itch. Avoiding her had felt like the easiest solution, but now he couldn't shake the feeling that it may have only made things worse.
OKAY?" The sudden, tone of Gamma Lucian's voice jolted Helga away from thoughts. Her gaze shifted Chapter n ved her cheeks as she realized she with him ever since they had left
from the window to her side where he sat. his expression conceled. Embarrassm had been lost in thought for several minutes, completely not engaging in any the palace she looked at him apologetically. With an apologetic expression, she ta ed to face him and forced a smile onto het lips. "Yeah, I'm all right," she said before letting out a deep sigh and looking at her hands that she was fiddling God knows how long. No matter how much the pushed herself, it was difficult for her to accept the sudden change in her relationship with Siegen. It felt like just yesterday when they were playfully talking about sparring and him teaching her how to use firearms. But there was something else too-something important that Slegren had been trying to tell her before they were interrupted by the butler. Something she still desperately wanted to hear. "I don't think you are though." Lucian stated matter-of-factly.
"Huh?" Helga's emerald eyes widened in surprise, her brows frowing as she looked at him with confusion. It was a rare occurrence for them to spend time together, as Helga was often in her study or enjoying her teatime with Portia, while Lucian was busy training the warriors. Yet, it seemed that even with their limited interactions, he could easily read her emotions. Her facade of composure shattered as a soft chuckle escaped her lips, signaling to him that she was not completely fine. She took a deep breath, trying to compose herself once again. "Right, I'm not." She conceded, realizing there was no point in continuing to deceive him. Lucian studied her closely. patiently waiting for her to confide in him about whatever was troubling her. They may not have had frequent interactions. but they were not complete strangers either. "I guess, the sudden shift in my relationship with the Alpha King was troubling me more than I initially gave it credit for."
"Is it because of his overwhelming responsibilities and duties?" The gamma posed the question because everyone in the royal pack was aware of Siegren's intense dedication to his duties. This was not news to them, as he had always been deeply committed to his role as Alpha of the royal pack and King of Verdentia. However, his obsessiveness had become a cause for concern among some members. Even David had expressed his worries to Lucian about Siegren's single-minded focus on work. Looking back, the beta had also mentioned something about the King's relationship with the queen, but at the time. Lucian's mind was so occupied with other matters that he had forgotten all about it.
"Yeah, but I understand it, though. It's just that I feel like he's using his busy schedule as an excuse to avoid me." Helga said, her lips curling into a bitter smile, "Even though I have an idea why he might be avoiding me, it doesn't change the fact that it feels unfair. We promised to communicate better, so why isn't he talking to me about it?"
"As husband and wife, shouldn't we share everything with each other? Our personal lives, our responsibilities, and our worries?" Helga's frustration was mounting as her thoughts tumbled out faster than she could process them. "I wasn't trying to confront him because I'm afraid I might get in the way of his work but maybe, I should just talk to him directly instead of overthinking things and creating awkward situations in our relationship."
"Just do it, I'm sure you won't get in the way of his work," Lucian said with a chuckle. Her sudden outburst surprised him, he found it refreshing to see how much she cared for the Alpha King. It was better than seeing her quietly sad. personality is complex; it's difficult to decipher what's going through his mind. But I can say with certainty that he does and thinks is for the benefit of someone else." "Siegren's
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"He has always been like that, even since we were young; he tends to put others' needs above his own, always trying to spare- them any discomfort or pain," Lucian's voice was gentle as spoke, hoping this insight would help Helga better understand the complexities of the Alpha King. A small smile then tugged at the corners of his mouth as he thought about his selfless and caring friend before he continued, "And when he feels that he may cause harm to someone, he will go out of his way to avoid them, thinking it is the best solution at the time." "David and I have already tried telling him that his mindset is foolish, and he needs to stop doing that, but I guess habit really does die hard, Lucian shook his head with a sigh, glancing over at Helga who was listening intently. He smiled warmly at her, giving her an encouraging nod. "You just need to confront him and set him straight. It will surely fix your relationship before it falls apart beyond repair, trust me."