In My Desperate Time

I wish she can be pregnant. I wish we can have a baby.
But in the end, the reality let me down.
That night, she comes to my room. After a long time of questioning, she finally knows that she is not pregnant.
In the following days, Whitney comes between Jane and me more often.
I can also feel that Jane cares much about her identity.
I've already told her that Whitney has a mental problem, but in the end, Jane and I do not take a step closer.
On the contrary, she has become closer to Noah in the past few days.
I'm panicking.
It's as if she will leave me at any moment.
It isn't until Frank is thrown into jail because of drugs and intentional injuries that the emotions that I have been suppressing
explode out of control.
"Frances, let me go."
Let her go?
How is this possible?
I love her so much. How can I let her go?
Why is she so eager to leave me?
"Jane, say it again."
I stare at her and snap through gritted teeth.
"Frances, you know. Back then, I came to you because I had no choice. Now that Frank is in jail, we have no connection
anymore. A wrong thing should end sooner rather than later. I still have a long way to go, and we are not born from the same

world. I knew it very clearly, and I never mean to pester you. I know you've always been dissatisfied with me. It's time for me to
leave."
Every word is like a sharp blade stabbing into my heart.
In her opinion, is it just a mistake to be with me?
Or is it that she is in a hurry to go to someone else?
So, I try to threaten her with Noah. I don't expect that I will succeed.
But I'm not happy at all.
She compromises for Noah. Does it mean that she cares so much about him?
In the days that followed, when I have sex with her, I've never used condoms. However, she isn't pregnant.
For this reason, I go to the hospital to have a physical examination. The doctor tells me that there is no problem with my body.
That is a relief to me.
After that, I bump into Whitney several times when I stay with Jane.
My worries grow bigger.
Until that day when Whitney and Jane both fall into the river, I have no choice but to face a fact.
Whitney really knew.
Every day after that, I am so nervous that I even hire some people to secretly protect Jane, afraid that Whitney will do something
terrible to her.
At the same time, I also know that Noah and Jane seem to have reached the point of discussing marriage.
I play some tricks to make Noah retreat.
Meanwhile, Whitney tampers with the competition, so that Jane misses out on the championship.
I have a big quarrel with Whitney, and she curses that she will destroy Jane by whatever means.

It is truly terrifying for a woman to go crazy.
The photo of Jane and I kissing in the elevator is put on the front page news. In an instant, Jane becomes a mistress that
everyone hates and curses.
And worse than that, her parents have a car accident during the period.
Most suspiciously, it is my driver who hit her parents.
When I send for the driver, I'm told that he has gone abroad.
Jane loses her father. Although her parents have never loved and cared for her, she is a filial woman.
Such a blow is enough to make her collapse.
I believe that Whitney did this, but after questioning her a few times, she never admits it.
In the absence of evidence, I can't do anything to her. I can only ask my subordinates to continue the investigation.
At the same time, I resolutely ask Whitney for the divorce.
Jane's mother forces Jane to get her brother out of prison.
Jane has no choice but to beg me.
I don't think there's a better time for me to make my conditions.
"Jane, marry me."
However, from beginning to end, she never believes what I said.
I am wondering if she will believe me only if I dig out my heart and show it to her.
Because of her strong resistance, my wish of marrying her just goes up in smoke.
Moreover, I haven't divorced Whitney yet, and I can't give Jane a firm promise.
With Steven's help, Jane's title of "the mistress" finally drops.
But I don't like his help at all.

How can I be happy to hear that Jane is his woman?
In this depressed mood, there is something even worse.
Whitney moves in.
No matter what I say, I can't get her out of my house.
On the contrary, because of her, I can't be close to Jane in public. Meanwhile, Jane also rejects my request for intimacy.
At the very time, Whitney's word almost breaks me down.
She's pregnant.
We just did it once, but she is pregnant?
One day, I was too depressed, so I invited Lawrence out for a drink.
We all drank a lot that night.
In the end, we were both completely drunk.
Just as I was about to get drunk, I vaguely saw Jane coming this way.
She helped me to the hotel and took off my clothes.
I was surprised that she took the initiative, but I have to say, to sleep with her is a very happy thing for me.
I couldn't remember what happened after that.
When I woke up, I just saw Whitney lying beside me.
At that moment, everything went black in my life.
I've never had sex with Whitney before.
But now, since I was drunk, I slept with her.
How can I be worthy of Jane after such a terrible thing happened?

"Whitney, you can't tell anyone about this. Also, you must buy some pills and take them. Don't think you can conceive my child."
With that, I left, but I didn't expect that Whitney didn't follow my order and even conceived my child.
Jane and I have had sex many times, but she doesn't get pregnant, yet Whitney gets pregnant just after that night.
The fate is truly playing a big joke on me!
Old Mr. Louis plays a high value on the offspring. Now that Whitney is pregnant, he firmly rejects me from divorcing her.
Every day after that, when I face Jane, I feel incredibly guilty.
Perhaps she realizes my uneasiness, so she rejects me every time when I ask for an intimacy.
Moreover, I feel that she has something to hide from me, but I don't know what it is.
This day, I have to go on a business trip for two days. Early on the morning, Jane has prepared the breakfast.
After breakfast, Whitney tidies up my tie intimately.
I glance at Jane and find that she looks somewhat lonely.
Moreover, there is a trace of sadness that I do not understand.
After a long time, I keep thinking that if I had asked her that day, many things would have turned out differently.
I really do not expect that this business trip would cause us to be separated for more than half a year.
When I come back, she is no longer in my house.
Every time I call her, her phone is always off.
Whitney!
It must be Whitney who did it!
I am furious and go ask Whitney about Jane's whereabouts, but she insists that she has no idea.
Steven comes to me and gives me four million dollars, saying that it is from Jane.

I don't know where she got so much money, and I don't care where she got it.
I just want to know where she is.
Steven stares at me and shakes his head. "Frances, let her go. Didn't you see how painful her days with you were? It doesn't
matter if it's just that you can't go public with your relationship. More importantly, Whitney is such a crazy woman. She keeps
targeting her again and again. Jane might be killed at any time. If you really love her, then let her go. Don't torture her."
I knew it. When Jane stays by my side, she has never been happy.
However, how can I let her go?
I have loved her for ten years. How can I let her go?
I shake my head and reply to Steven, "I won't give up. Even if she doesn't love me, she will never fall in love with you. Steven,
stop wasting your time and tell me where she is."
"I won't tell you. With me here, you'll never find her."
With that, Steven leaves.
In the following days, I've been sending for her.
I've searched almost every country, and I've also sent people to secretly track Steven's whereabouts.
However, Jane seems to have disappeared from the world, and I haven't seen or heard from her.
I call her every day, but it is just a mechanical female voice that answers me.
"Sorry, the number you dialed is off. Please dial again later."
I can only text her every day, hoping that one day she will turn on the phone, see the texts, and return to me.
'Jane, where are you?'
'Jane, come back. I miss you.'
'Jane, even if you hide in the ends of the earth, I will find you.'

'Jane, I love you.'
The messages go one after another. Every day that she isn't around, I keep texting her.
However, this doesn't make me feel any better. On the contrary, I miss her even more.
Whitney stays at home all the time, her belly growing bigger and bigger day by day.
I don't like Whitney, but she's pregnant. After all, she has my child. I can't kick her out without caring about the child.
Afterwards, Whitney gives birth to a boy named Earl.
Actually, I want to name him after Jane.
However, I am afraid that my yearning appears to be so obvious that it will become a joke.
Whitney gets more and more irritable. She even doesn't like the boy that she gave birth to.
This, in fact, puzzles me a lot. After all, I don't see any maternal love from her.
After Earl was born, I explicitly file for divorce.
I don't care whether Whitney agrees or not. She even threatens me with her life, but I really can't stand to live this life anymore.
In this world, Jane is my only beloved woman.
She was, she is, and she will be.
Just when I think that I will never see Jane for the rest of my life, she suddenly shows up.
The moment I see her at the bar, I feel as if I'm in another world.
Standing in the crowd, we look at each other, but her gaze is filled with hatred.
Previously, although she didn't like me, at least she wouldn't look at me like this.
What exactly happened during this period? How did everything go to this point?
She even glares at me and curses me to die.

It is undoubtedly like a needle piercing my heart. But what I'm even more curious about is, why did her attitude change?
I knew Jane returned, and Whitney naturally knows it soon.
The day I divorce Whitney, she comes to Jane.
When I find that Whitney tries hurting Jane with sulfuric acid, I'm even more convinced that she should stay by my side so that I
can protect her well.
I ask Jane to marry me, and as expected, she refuses.
But I do not expect that in just one day, she changes her mind.
When I get her call, I'm in utter shock.
I don't know what changed her mind, but I'm afraid that she would go back on her word, so I take her straight to the Civil Affairs
Bureau.
When I come out and look at the marriage license in my hand, I feel I'm in a dream.
Jane's condition is that I should take back the custody of Earl.
In fact, I am very reluctant to part with Earl. He's a lovely child. Naturally, I come up with every way to get him back.
After Earl comes back, the smile on Jane's face deepens. Looking at the maternal love emanating from her body, I really want to
have our own child.
However, she seemed to be very resistant to this idea.
She refuses it, so I can't force her. I can only follow her wishes, afraid that she will leave me again.
I become extremely worried after I lost her once. I'm like a child holding a crystal ball, carefully protecting it, in case that it will fall.
Whitney is very unwilling to let me take Earl away. After that, she grabs a chance to frame Jane and almost gets her in jail.
I take advantage of my connections and resolve this trouble.
But I know it's just the beginning. After that, Whitney will definitely do a lot of things to deal with Jane.

To my surprise, Whitney takes the initiative to tell the truth that Earl is not my child in order to snatch him back.
Only then do I find that nothing happened between Whitney and me that night.
If it were any other man, he would be furious about the fact that he is cuckolded.
On the contrary, I am very happy.
At the very least, I never cheat on Jane.
At the very least, I am loyal to her from my body to heart.
However, since Earl is not my child, Whitney takes him away from me again.
Because of that, the smile on Jane's face suddenly fades, and she becomes despondent.
I can see that Earl and Jane are very fond of each other, and Jane likes children very much.
But why is she so unwilling to give birth to her own child?
Or is it that she just doesn't want to have a baby with me?
This conjecture frightens me a lot.
Afterwards, during a foreplay, I accidentally see a scar on her lower abdomen.
In that instant, I feel like being struck by thunder.
Although I have never seen a scar like this before, I know that it is a mark left after giving birth to a child by caesarean section.
It didn't exist before she left.
She disappeared for more than half a year.
So, does it prove that she has delivered a baby for another man?