Heartless Angels

Chapter 50 Oakley

Chapter 50 – Oakley

After speaking with Trainer Ethan, I wasn’t exactly sure what to do. I mean, that was a lot of information that he just info

dumped on me. How do you respond to your mother’s ex-mate telling you to go be happy elsewhere?

I decide to take a long walk. I have a lot to think about.

Trainer Ethan gave me a lot of food for thought. But besides the obvious, there was something else important that this told me. Once you rejected your mate, they would never be yours again. Mom rejected Ethan and then went to Dad. If Ethan was her first mate, Dad was her second chance. With that information, it stood to reason that if I rejected Levi again, we’re done.

Good.

It also means that if I reject Ray, we’re done.

Not so good.

It hurt me to think that I could go on to do this thing that I was literally created to do, but at the expense of giving up the one that holds the other half of my soul. Because I do not believe that Levi was supposed to be my mate. I think that he was just put in that position because it was a means to an end. It got me to the Elite 10 trials. Ray is the other half of my soul. Ray is the

one that I’m supposed to be with.

Yes, I believe that I would make a worthy luna and I believe that I would be an effective and great lawmaker who could create change for the good in my own pack. I believe that I could find contentment if I go back to my old pack. Yes, I believe that

all of that part of the prophecy is true.

What I don’t believe is that I’ll be happy. What I don’t believe is that I’ll find love. Maybe something close to it. Maybe, eventually, I could work my way to forgiving Levi. Maybe I could forgive my family. But I would never trust them again. I would never believe them again when they told me that they love me. And I don’t know that I could bring myself to have pups with Levi. To be physically intimate with him, knowing the pain that the hands that were touching me had caused me. Knowing how many she wolves within the pack that I ruled he had been with, after he had found out that I was his mate.

No. That isn’t something that I believe that I could do.

Does that mean that my happiness is worth giving up the chance to change the lives of so many others?

I have to say, there are many wolves out there that are weak. It comes from us mating with other species. Humans. Fey. Vamps. Not our fault entirely. Your mate is who they are. You can’t change that. But it did make for some werewolves who had

weaker wolves. There were even those who were born human among us.

That prejudice that I suffered at the hands of my mate and my family was thrown at them as well. Did I have the right to say that just because I wouldn’t be happy that I wouldn’t help them? What kind of fighter for justice would that make me? Not a

great one in my opinion.

But, then again, I have only one life. Granted, it’s longer than that of most species, but it’s still only one. Shouldn’t I do what I

know is going to make me happy?

I had been fighting with myself so much that I didn’t know where I was until I walked directly into Cassie

“Whoa there, Oakley! Didn’t you hear me calling you? she says as she stabilizes me so that I don’t fall.

“Sorry, Cassie, I didn’t. I’ve got…a lot on my mind,” I say, worry creasing my brow. “How’s Jer ry?”

The Bes me a wide smile. “He woke up a little bit ago. The doctors are still keeping him heavily sedated, but they say that

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he’s healing well. He’s expected to make a full recovery”

An equally wide smile spreads across my l*ps as I wrap Cassie up in a huge hug. “I’m so happy! When are we allowed to go see him?

“Tomorros. They want him to sleep for a while longer, make sure his wolf has plenty of strength to heal him,” she says. Tve already called Mary. She was so relieved she cried on the phone.”

I look into her eyes. “How are things going there?”

Cassie waves her hand to deny me. “Nope. You first. You looked like the weight of the world was on your shoulders for a minute there. What’s going on?”

I close my eyes. “Where the hell do I start?”

She cups my cheek, making sure that I’m looking at her. “At the beginning of course.”

We walk to the far corner of the training yard, sitting under a large tree, it’s branches filtering the early evening sun into flickering patterns on our skin and the grass beneath us.

“Alright. Spill. What’s going on?” Cassie asks.

And so I tell her. All of it. The dream of my mother and how she revealed to me the Mother Goddess’s plan and the prophecy of what would happen to me if I chose Levi, my second chance mate, or stayed with the Elite 10. Finding out that Ray is my second chance mate, but that I still feel the effects of being near Levi, even though I have rejected him. All of my interactions with Trainers Sophia and Ethan. And the Alpha Council meeting that happened a few days ago, making me have to decide if I’m going to see my ex-mate or my father and brothers.

By the time I’m finished, she’s staring at me like I’ve grown not just a second head, but a third one as well.

“What the f uck, man?” she cries out. “How do you make a choice like

yout, “id

“See!” I cry

lament my situation,

“I don’t know what to do! And they’re going to expect an answer soon” My face falls in my hands and I

ur Mom say that you were the only one that could make those changes?” Cassie asks.

“Did your

“No, but I’m the best way to get it done. If I don’t do it, then it will take a long time before there is someone who is uniquely qualified enough to do it,” I say.

“Sh it Cassie says. “Not trying to hurt your feelings or anything, but what is so special about you that you can change the course of history like that?”

“The hell if I know, I say, giving a mirthless laugh. “Here I thought I was just a nerdy we

weak wolf and now I find out that the fate of all nerdy weak wolves or the good of the continent hangs in the balance on my decision right here and now.”

We sit in silence for a bit, staring at the ground before Cassie speaks again.

“Will you be happy if you go back to your old pack? If you leave behind Ray and everything that you’ve done here? All the people that you’ve met and the things you’ve accomplished? Not will you make a difference or could you find a purpose. But will you be truly happy?”

I think about it for a second before I shake my head. “No, I don’t think I would. I don’t want anything to do with my family anymore, knowing what they think of me deep down. And I would be able to be Levi’s luna in name and job only. I would never be able to be his mate.”

Sighing, I say. “I think all of us deserve to move on. Levi deserves to find happiness and a mate that will love him and

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provide him with pups. My family deserves to go and find happiness with mates and people that they truly feel are at their level

and they don’t harbor resentments against. And I deserve to figure out what’s going to make me happy.”

Cassie nods. “Then there’s your answer.”

Inod, standing up to go find Trainer Sophia and tell her my decision.

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