Another Choice

(Noah)

It's has been a bit more than four months since Serena's death and Fynn is doing better. It's taking more time than what I thought but mom thinks it's normal after so many years under the influence of love potion. I still can't believe he did his own potion. How "in love" he has to be to not realized what he was doing? This is totally crazy. I would like to believe that I would have been stronger than the potion and that I would have been to fight the effect but deep down I know it's a lie.

How can someone not care about making other people suffered just to get revenge? Against someone who did nothing in your problem? I'm really grateful that only a few people know about Fynn's involvement in all that shit. If not, I will be too scared that someone tries to get revenger against him. And I would have to avenge him and it would be an endless circle of revenge.

Anton was the one who turned Serena into Lycan, as Anna-Lynn was against. My parents told me they made a deal that Anton will turn only men and Anna-Lynn only women. They were both too jealous and possessive to let the other one turn someone from the opposite sex. Anton broke the deal twice. Once for Serena's mother as Anna-Lynn wanted for Emmett to mark her and turned her. And the second time for Serena. Now he is feeling guilting because his bad choices almost ruined his family. Dad told me that for Serena he was feeling guilty for what's happened to her family so he felt as if he has to turn her. Apparently, Anna-Lynn forgave him fastest this than the first time, and Anton now refused to turn anyone.

I feel my wolf sighs in my mind.

"What do you have?" I ask him.

"I miss her. I need to see her soon." He replies speaking about Selina.

"I know me too. But we saw her yesterday. If we show up again today she will really think we are a stalker."

"We are a stalker!" He says annoyed by my stupidy so I prefer not to answer.

Of course, we are a stalker but she doesn't have to know it. And it's not socially correct to stalk someone so if we can avoid being marked like a stalker in addition to being an asshole it would be nice! But all these social circumstances are too complicated to understand for my wolf who just wants to follow his instincts. I decide to go trained to change my mind.

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Training didn't work too well as the only thing is my mind is Selina. Even while I was training she didn't leave my mind, not even for a second. So I decided to go check on her. And that was not a good idea! Why you may ask? Because she is partying and doing body-shot with some douchebags. And after 2 minutes of seeing that I'm already at my breaking point. I'm too focus on myself and "the show", I didn't realize how pissed my wolf is and he is taking over me.

"That's enough!" He yells at her.

She rolls her eyes: "What you are doing here Noah? Don't you see I'm busy!"

"We are leaving now! The fun ends now!" I reply, my wolf still in control.

We are taking her hands and start to walk out. One of douchebag tries to stop me but on look in my eyes and he retreats in fear. Smart choice little boy if you care for your life! Selina is protesting but she is still following me. Once we are outside, I teleport us to her house. The one she's sharing with Tom but he is not here. Good.

"What's wrong with you?" She yells once I let her go.

"What's wrong with me? Are you serious? What are you doing partying like that?"

"Enjoying myself!" She sasses.

"So what? You like whoring around now?" My wolf says jealous when we remember that douchebag licking her belly button.

"We should have killed him!" My wolf had in my mind.

"Agreed!" I reply.

"What did you just say? Are implying I'm a whore while I saw you for years strutted with hundreds of girls!" She says angrily.

"I was young and stupid! What is your excuse?"

"I'm looking for my mate."

"Really looking for a mate. It looks like you were looking more for a fuck toy. And you already have a mate, ME!"

"What do have to do for you to realize that I don't want you?!"

"Oh really, you don't want me!" I say walking toward her and taking her mouth with mine. She is surprised but after a few seconds, she is kissing me back. I can feel my wolf calming down, he is happy to finally tasting her and let me tell you she is sweet. When I try to deepen the kiss she stands back.

"You shouldn't have kissed me!" She says disapprovingly.

"You kissed me back. You can’t fight our bond." I tell her smirking.

"It's not I want. You're not what I want." She shakes her head.

“You want me to believe you will rather mate a douchebag you met at a frat party?”

“No, it’s not what I say. But I know it’s not you.” She replies so sure of herself. My wolf and I are both hurt by the seriousness in her voice.

“Did you feel anything when I kissed you?”

She sighs:” That doesn’t change the fact that I can’t trust you. As the Queen I will have enemies, I already have a quite actually and I need someone I can count one. Since I can remember you always proved to me that you aren’t that person.

Ouch! That’s painful to hear. The worst is she is right. What can I answer to that?

“What you want me to do?” I finally ask.

“Stop losing my time, our time. I want you to leave me alone. The sooner you understand we don’t have a future together, the better it will be for both of us.”

“Is really what you want? For me to leave you alone?” I ask.

“Yes, please!” She begs. She is pleading that's really what she wants.

“Fine, you win. Goodbye Selina!”

“It’s not a to game to wi-“

Before she can finish her sentence I teleport myself in my apartment. I don’t want her to see me cry. Once I’m in my room, I fall on the floor and I cry. For the first time in my life, my heart is broken and it’s so painful. It’s like someone just physically ripped my heart. I’m so hurt that it’s hard to breathe. I suddenly feel so alone.

“Budy, are you here?” I ask my wolf but he is too heartbroken too to answer. He shut me out like that I don’t feel his pain in addition to mine.

Suddenly I feel arms around me and mom’s comforting smell.

“I’m here peanut, you’re not alone.” She whispers in my ears. I hug her back and cry harder.

“It’s over. She doesn’t want me and she never will. She is my future what I am going to do with you. I’m so lost.” I tell her.

“I’m so sorry!” She says crying with me.

We stay sitting on my bedroom’s floor for a long time her whispering sweet nothing and me crying all the tears I have. When there no one left to cry and I fall asleep in mom’s arms.

When I wake up, I’m in my room in the packhouse. Mom should have brought me back while I was sleeping. It’s 10:00 pm and my last meal was at 12:30 pm but I’m not hungry. My mouth is dry though so I decided to go to the kitchen to drink some water. While a pass close to my parents’room, I hear them talk as they didn’t close their door.

“She just breaks my baby boy heart! How can you still defend her?” Mom says sounding not happy with dad.

“She is his true Soulmate, Sweetcheeks. There is no better match for him.” Dad replies not happy either.

“Maybe it’s time for him to find his other mate. You don’t know maybe he will happier with her far from the court and the duties that come with Selina.”

“We both know that’s not true! Maybe it’s hard now but they will end together. I know that because the first time I saw you I knew I would not be able to live without and I know it’s the same for them. You see how he was the last few months. I know she is feeling the same way, she is just hurt and scared.”

“She treated him like dirt!”

“He started it. He is the one who turned his back to her.”

“This is not a reason to broke his heart! I felt it you know how heartbroken he is. My heart is bleeding for him. Nobody can do that to my baby. I think I will cast a spell to find his other mate. He deserves someone who will treat him with respect and love!”

“Stay out of this Melinda. It’s his life and we don’t play with mates.”

“I just want him to be happy. And I will do anything for my boys' happiness! Anything no matter the cost.”

“Melinda!” My father growls.

He decided to make my presence known as I don’t want them to fight because of me.

“Hmm, mom I’m fine, I don’t need your help.” I tell entering their room.

“You’re not fine!” She contests.

“You’re right I’m not right now but I just need time. And another mate right now it’s the last I want or need.”

“You know we are here for you and we will support you always.” My father says.

“I know. I love you guys. Now I just want to focus on something else. I think I will work on helping Mother Earth by cleaning polluted sites.”