You will never get me back

10 days later. My waters broke “oh shit they are coming James” I shouted from the sofa. James came running down the stairs with the hospital bags that I had already packed. The girls were still in school and James arranged for Claire who I hated to pick them up and look after them until we could. James helped me to the car and we drove off. I was wheeled into the birthing centre.

“James are you not coming in with me” I asked whilst in so much pain. “I have got to get to work you will be fine” he responded. “My mother won’t be coming neither she’s helping Claire with the kids” he added before leaving. Of course she wouldn’t come I’m having another Latino disgrace why would she care. “Ma’am have you got a birthing partner with you” my midwife asked I screamed in pain that was a a painful contraction “ no my husbands and his family are busy and my family live in England” I responded with my eyes closed from all the pain. “ you are 8 cm dilated not long to go now hunny” my midwife said. I was so upset James and his family treated me and my kids like rotten fruit they were bullies. And James was a sheep he didn’t really care much about the girls he left it to me instead. I was a working mum but i began to not trust his family to look after my kids so I started doing less shifts so that I could be there for my kids. I regretted leaving my family in England they didn’t speak to me for a while now. I’m all alone in this world. I hated the life I had since I married James, he had changed so much I hated the father he was to our daughters he was practically a stranger to them. He was just rich and thought money could buy happiness. I was snapped out of it when I felt the pain again “omg I don’t think I can do this” I screamed “of course you can you’ve done it before” my midwife responded.

After three hours of screaming and pushing and saying that I couldn’t do it lol. They were finally here. My beautiful boys Justin and Jackson born 17th July 2009.