Chapter 18 I am Sorry! I Love Him
"Blake, I'm sorry..."
"You didn't do anything wrong. I never regret what I have done for my beloved woman."
"Blake, you are excellent. You will find a better girl."
Blake let go of her. He stared at Jessie. A bad feeling sprang up in his heart immediately.
"Jessie, what do you want to say?"
"I..." Jessie was hesitating. She wanted to say something but stopped on a second thought. "I'm sorry. I'm married. Please forget
me..."
"Married? When did you get married? Why didn't I know?" Gripping Jessie's shoulder desperately, Blake glared at her
ferociously, and howled, "Jessie, why do you have to put up with that kind of life? Why do you have to listen to Darren? Why?
You're 22 years old already. Can't you live for yourself for once? He's a cripple and he's disfigured. Are you really going to live
with him for the rest of your life? Why! Why are you....."
It took him ten years to love her and wait for her. He had done a lot of things that he shouldn't have done. He just hoped that he
could be with her, but why did this happen!
He was not reconciled! Never!
In those years, he had tried his best to study laws he hated most. During the past ten years, he had stayed by her side silently.
He had endured his hatred towards Darren and stayed in Lin Group until he encroached the Lin Group....
He had made it, and he didn't believe that he couldn't get Jessie.
He clenched his fists, trembling with anger. All of a sudden, anger, jealousy and hatred rushed over his head and took all his
minds away.
He would never believe it! Never!
"Jessie, tell me! Did you marry him because of money? If you want money, I can give you anything you want. Besides the Lin
Group, I have Walming Group, Fortune Group..... I will try my best to give whatever you like and whatever you want. I will give
you whatever you want!"
"What?" Jessie was shocked. She could not believe what she had heard.
Both Walming Group and Fortune Group were the most influential enterprises in the city. As far as she knew, these two
companies were both family companies. They wouldn't let others get involved at all. But Blake said he owned them!
That was just too hard for Jessie to imagine. How many things had Blake done in those years?
The man in front of her was so horrible, she didn't know what's in his mind at all.
Although he said he loved her, what he had thought and done was only because of his strong possessiveness. The first choice
for Jessie would be leaving, no matter who he was and whether he loved her or not.
"Let me go! You hurt me... Blake, let go of me!" Frowning, Jessie tried to get rid of his grip on her shoulder. She still considered
him as her friend, and didn't want to completely break their friendship. Otherwise, she really wanted to kick him off.
Blake was so mad that he still held her shoulder tightly. Jessie could not bear the pain so she pushed him hard and shouted,
"Blake, that's enough! I won't be with you. You'd better give up. No matter whether Mark is disabled or disfigured, or even dead, I
am still his wife. This is reality. Don't bother about it anymore."
"Reality? What is reality? People can get divorced even if they get married. Why do you say that you can't be together with me?
As long as you divorce him, we..."
"I won't divorce him."
"Why? Nothing is impossible in the world." Blake still didn't want to give up. In his opinion, as long as he was determined, there
was nothing impossible.
"Because I love him!"
Jessie was so angry that she began to talk nonsense. As soon as she said that, she had the urge to kill herself. What had she
said?
She couldn't imagine that she had said the word 'love'. In her mind, there was no such a thing called love at all.
She even felt that love was a terrible thing.
She had seen through how Darren had treated Irene. He was so ruthless.
Love, in the long life, was actually a flash you could not catch at all. Even if people have not been separated, after years of
consumption, all the love would have already vanished.
In the end, the only thing left was what you had used to, not love.
Seeing that Blake stood still and stared at her in bewilderment, Jessie felt bitter in her heart.
However, she was never good at expressing her feelings, nor did she know how to face such a situation. Since she could not
give him what he wanted, it was better to let him give up as soon as possible.
Seeing that Jessie drove away after she said nothing but 'Forget me', Mark showed a satisfied smile, as for what he was
satisfied with, nobody but himself knew.
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It was already night when Jessie got home. When she found that her clothes were gone, she remembered that she had to move
to the main bedroom from today on.
She lowered her eyes, sighed helplessly, and walked to the next door.
The door of the main room was closed.
Just when Jessie wanted to open the door, she stopped. Although she had married into the Lan family, she knew very well that it
was not her home.
She knocked on the door. She didn't open the door until she heard his deep voice.
The room was in deep darkness. Only a dim light came out under the black crystal lamp at the head of the bed.
The silvery gray wallpapers, the black carpet, the black and white curtains, the black sofa... This was the first time for Jessie to
enter this room. She looked around. Although the decoration style was very elegant, she felt a piercing cold.
Jessie thought, people's hearts were cold enough. Why should she live in such a space which make her feel lonely?
"The pajamas are on the sofa."
Hearing the ghostly voice, Jessie shifted her eyes to the side of the bed, where Mark was half leaning on the head of the bed.
His wet black hair was naturally placed on his forehead, and his black robe was half open, revealing his strong and attractive
chest muscles.
While seeing this, Jessie felt a little dizzy. She had to admit that Mark was totally gorgeous.
If it wasn't...
She smiled bitterly and thought to herself, 'How could there be such a perfect man in the world?
If there was, it must be the God, but definitely not the human beings.'
Jessie said yes casually, picked up her pajamas on the sofa and walked into the bathroom.
An hour later, Jessie came out of the bathroom. Seeing that Mark had fallen asleep, she felt relieved secretly.
Although the two-meter bed was big enough for them to sleep separately, for Jessie, it was the first time she would sleep on the
same bed with a man, a man she didn't love at all.
At such a night, who could fall asleep? She opened the door and went out. She went straight to the terrace on the top floor.
Too many things had happened lately that she didn't even have the time to think about them. She felt like a storm was coming
towards her all of a sudden.
No matter how hard it was, Jessie still thought she could handle it. What hurt her most was the slap from Irene, which truly broke
her heart.
And that made her heart broken and painful.
No matter how many times Irene grabbed a knife and chased after her with a ferocious face before, saying she wanted to kill her.
At least, Jessie knew that she just took her as Ivy, not really going to kill her own daughter.
However, today, she slapped her hard when she was extremely sober.
It was much more painful than the pain when the whips were thrown on her body.
What upset her most was that her mother who gave birth to and raised her, didn't believe her! Her mother even believed that she
conspired with others to encroach the Lin Group and take revenge on Darren.
Jessie felt very aggrieved when she thought about what happened today. She couldn't hold back her tears anymore. She cried!