Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 38
NADIA I didn’t know how long I stayed in the shower. My heart was aching badly, and I just wanted the floor to swallow me
whole. I have never felt this pain before, not even when Riley left me at the cave. It was painful, but I had no expectations, and I
could still think clearly after that. But now I have no idea what to do next.
join telegram for latest update He was breaking my heart and I didn’t even know if he knew it.
He was so good at pretending he loved me, but it was still Andrea all along.
She should be happy with her fated mate already.
What was she doing here?
Was she trying to ruin what Riley and I have?
I don’t know anymore if I should keep fighting for Riley and pretend I didn’t see Andrea was here today.
Or should I stand my ground and risk losing him?
He would probably choose her.
I was still confused about what to do next as I made my way down the stairs.
Jenny sent a mind link advising that lunch was ready and they were all waiting for me.
I wanted to just stay hidden in our room, but I wanted to see Riley too.
I wanted to know if he would keep up with his lies or if he would finally tell me the things that I was not aware of.
I took a deep breath as I walked down the corridors leading me to the dining room.
I could hear them talking, but I couldn’t understand.
It was as if they were talking in a low voice.
It’s like they didn’t want anyone to know about their conversation.
And my gut was right.

The room fell silent the moment I stepped in, and everything about me being calm and just waiting for Riley to open his d**n
mouth went out the window.
These people were playing games with me.
“Now we can finally eat.
” Beta Dominic chuckled, but I didn’t even look at him.
I sat on the chair beside Riley, and everyone started to put food on their plates, but I was just staring at the variety of food in front
of me.
Riley started placing food on my plate, and I just let him do it without glancing at him.
My eyes focused on my plate as he filled it up.
“You looked tired.
Are you okay?
” His voice was laced with concern that I almost scoffed at him.
But instead, I remained silent.
“Nadia?
” He reached for my hand that was sitting on my thigh, and gently squeezed it.
“I’m going back upstairs.
” “You haven’t even eaten yet.
” “I don’t like the food.
” Forgive me, Goddess, I never complain about food.
I was always thankful for the food I was given, but these words just slipped out of my mouth.
“What do you want to eat?

I can have them prepare it for you.
” “Don’t bother them.
I’m okay.
” “I can fix it for you if you want.
” “No, I don’t want anything.
” “Is there something wrong?
”.
“Tell me, Riley.
Is there something wrong?
” My voice was slightly higher as I tilted my head to look at him, and I saw him swallow hard.
My eyes then darted to the other people around the table.
I saw Jenny drop her gaze to the plate while the males kept forking their food, but no one was eating.
“Tell me guys, is there something wrong?
Were you talking about something before I came in?
”.
Silence.
I pushed my chair back, creating a loud screeching sound, but I remained seated, letting out a sigh of desperation as I threw the
table napkin on the table.
“I should have expected no one would say anything.
Because it’s always been like that.
” “Nadia, calm down.

What’s going on?
” “Seriously, are we all just going to pretend that nothing happened today?
That Andrea wasn’t here?
” Riley wasn’t showing any emotions, but his eyes were locked with mine, and it was pissing me off, I stood up and was about to
walk away when Riley’s cold voice erupted into the air.
“Come back.
Let’s talk.
” “So now you want to talk?
Will I get a decent answer?
” I asked him, my brow hiking up.
He just let out a deep sigh.
“So let me start over again and ask you, so... what did you do today?
Anything special that happened?
” I asked him in a sarcastic, happy tone before my voice went cold and serious.
“Did you kiss her?
Were you f*g her while you were talking with me in your mind?
” “F**k, Nadia!
” His coiled fist hit the table, and I saw everything on top shake while I stopped myself from flinching.
“You could have felt it if I touched her.
I didn’t even go near her!
” “So now you’re admitting she was here?

Wasn’t it supposed to be something I should know?
” “Nadia...” “I’m not done talking yet.
But in all honesty, I shouldn’t expect less.
Because nobody was telling me anything in this house.
It’s probably because you all knew I was just a nobody, so it’s no wonder I’m treated this way!
” He stood up and took a step, his hand reaching for my arm, but I shoved it away.
“Nadia!
Calm down!
Can you at least let me explain?
” “Now you want to explain?
” “What happened to hearing me out before you made your judgment?
” My mind went into a rage and I couldn’t stop myself.
My hand rose to his face, giving him the hardest slap I had ever delivered in my life.
Pak!
I saw his jaw twitching, but my hand didn’t do anything to him.
His head didn’t even move.
“And what happened to us being a team?
I waited for you to say something or anything when I came home from Katya’s house, but you just played me for a fool.
I asked if anything special happened.
What did you say?

You said, nothing!
Nothing!
And now you’re expecting me to hear you out?
” “Nadia...” “Stop, I’m not done yet.
You listened to me!
” “Everyone out.
” His voice was cold as he ordered them to leave.
“No.
You stay!
All of you stay, so we can all say it all out in the open!
Because you, you and you!
“I pointed a finger at everyone around the table.
“You all played me for a fool!
You were all in on this game.
” I turned my head back to Riley, my finger pointing at his chest.
“Especially you!
I gave you my heart, but what is this for you, just a game?
I offered you a contract and was willing to be a good a Luna as you wanted, as long as you needed one, but you duped me and
said you f*g love me!
For what?
To get a free f**k?

” “Nadia!
” He ran his hand over his face.
He was keeping his eyes normal, but I could see Hunter wanting to come out.
“You could have asked for that even without saying you love me, and I would still give it to you!
Because I love you, but this is so unfair, making me believe you love me too, wrapping me around your fingers with your words
so you’ll have someone to call yours!
” My voice finally broke as soft s**s escaped my lips.
“Nadia... Please let me explain.
I will explain from the very beginning.
” “You’re just going to give me lies.
And I might just believe you again.
I hate you, Riley...” “Please don’t say that.
Baby, please don’t... Just give me a chance.
I will tell you everything.
” “No... I’m not going to believe anything you will say!
” I snapped at him, gritting my teeth as I wiped the tears off my face.
.
“Luna...” Beta Dominic stood up.
His eyes were showing too many emotions, but I tried to ignore them.
“Don’t you address me like that again until you know what that name entails.
” I saw his hands coil into tight fists before he continued.

“Nadia... The Alpha will tell you everything.
Everything.
If you doubt his words, ask me.
I will tell you what you should have known from the beginning, even if that means breaking a vow.
We will leave you two alone.
Just please let him explain and if you need me, just link me.
” He pushed his chair back and I saw him tap the Gamma’s shoulder before leaving the room.
Gamma Sebastian and Jenny stood up from their seats and started to walk away.
I ran after Jenny, grabbing her wrist so she would look back at me.
“Tell me, did you know too?
” I couldn’t help myself from crying.
I felt that her betrayal was another thing breaking my heart.
I thought females should stick together.
I thought she was on my side.
Jenny’s eyes were full of tears as she slowly turned around to face me before her hands raised and cupped my cheeks, her eyes
looking straight into mine.
“I’m sorry, Nadia.
I’m really sorry.
” She said, between her hiccups.
“Why?
Why?

I thought you liked me.
I thought we were friends.
Are you pretending too?
” “No.
No... I really like you do.
I really do... I’m sorry.
” Tears poured down her face, and I couldn’t stop my own tears from streaming down my cheeks.
“I know after this you will never trust me again but please... please know that everything I showed you, everything I told you was
my truth.
I know I should have been a better Gamma female and I failed you.
I’m sorry.
I’m really sorry.
” She placed her forehead against mine, and my broken heart just kept breaking.
I had no idea how I was still able to stand and hold my ground.
We were both crying when Gamma Sebastian approached us and took her away, leaving me alone with Riley, I felt Riley’s hand
on my waist, but I swatted it away as I moved fast towards the corridor.
I heard footsteps behind me, but I didn’t look back and instead walked faster to where the stairs were “Nadia, let’s talk.
I will answer all your questions.
Just give me a chance to explain.
” “Three weeks, Riley.
I was here for more than three weeks.

You could have explained it if you really wanted to.
” “I know, but I.
.
was.
.
afraid.
F**k!
I am worried you will leave me if you find out some things about me!
” He was stuttering, like he was running out of breath, but I kept walking toward the stairs.
“Yes, I will.
I’m done with your bullshit!
” “Nadia, please...” He walked ahead of me and blocked my way in the middle of the stairs.
“Just one more chance, I will explain to you.
From the beginning.
You can ask me anything.
And I will tell you why I was afraid that you would find out the bad things I did in the past.
” His grip on my wrist tightened, his eyes were pleading, and my heart was crushed at the pain I was seeing in them.
But were they real?
“What do you mean by bad things?
” RILEY.

“What do you mean by bad things?
” Her eyes narrowed as she stared back at me, and I felt my knees buckle.
I let go of my grip on her wrist and sat down on the stairs.
She was still standing, holding onto the handrail, but her eyes followed my movement.
“Sit here.
” I patted the space beside me.
“No.
” She said it with a solemn expression.
I let out a deep sigh.
I would have wanted to talk in a confined space, like my office or our bedroom, but I didn’t want to push my luck.
“Andrea was the only female that I let get close to me.
We grew up together.
And before I knew it, I was already becoming possessive of her, especially when Caspian came into the picture.
She was smitten by him.
” “Riley, I really don’t want to hear how much you loved her.
You’re just hurting me more.
I just want to know why she’s here and why you didn’t tell me?
” I closed my eyes for a while, clasping my hands together while my forearms were resting on my thighs as I looked at the space
in front of the stairs.
“Andrea never loved me.
And she never wanted to be with me.

She wanted Caspian from the beginning, even before they found out they were fated mates.
” “I’m not understanding anything.
Why was she with you then?
” “I forced her to be with me.
There was a blood pact that she could not get away from.
It was between our fathers, but I could have easily broken it, but I didn’t.
I was forcing her to be my Luna, using the blood pact as leverage.
” “Riley...” I palmed my face, not knowing how to explain more.
“That was the reason I didn’t want you to know.
I didn’t know she was coming today with Caspian.
And when I saw her, I was afraid if you saw her, you would find out what I did to her...” “Did you hurt her?
” “No.
At least not physically.
But emotionally, yes I did...” “Did you rape her?
” “No.
No.
I never even thought about it.
You were my first sexual encounter... I thought you knew that by now.
” “I don’t know if anything you showed me or told me was true...” “Nadia... Everything I showed you and said to you was true.
The only thing I withheld was that information.

I don’t want my past to remind you...” “Of Elliot?
Of how he was forcing himself to me?
” She scoffed with a laugh, and my breathing hitched.
Her reaction pained me more.
“And here I am, believing you were the one left behind.
That Andrea was the bad person here.
When, in fact...” And the thing I was afraid of was happening right now – her seeing me as a bad man, as a’ monster.
She stopped talking and turned on her heels.
I heard soft s**s escaping her lips as she walked up the stairs, leaving me on my own.
I wanted to follow her, and hug her, but I knew I was the one causing her that pain, and she probably didn’t want me around her.
She must be repulsed by me now.