Chapter 1: Moving
Lucia POV
"So you and mom are leaving? "Chrissy asked, sitting next to me on the couch.
I sighted, feeling bad to see her like this,"I guess we do, please came with us. "I begged her.
A sad emotion cross on her face, giving me a pain in the heart, "You know I can't, but I will join you guys soon. " she assured me. Rather tell me, how you doing?" She asked me.
"I can't exactly tell, but I'm just so angry with myself and with both my parents, for not telling me",i responded.
"They will, maybe one day, explain to you. Why after all this years and why they want to separate from each other. Give them time darling and be there for your mother."she told me taking my hands in hers.
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I smiled, looking at her, "thank you, I just wish you could come with us you know. I'm going to miss you", I told her.
"I'm going to miss you too, but please don't make it hard for me like it is already, you know I can't leave right now", she told me looking sad.
"I'm sorry, this is just so hard for me, to leave you all alone and all by yourself. You sure you going to be alright?" I asked smiling at her.
"Hard is dead", was all she responded back, taking me in her arms and hug me so tight. I want you guys to be happy, that's all. "she said and withdrawal her self from me.
"I don't wanna go, why is this happening now?" I asked feeling tears threaten to fall out as I hide my face in my hands.
"Lucia, your mother didn't asked for this, your father were the one asking for divorce and yes he was never home anyway and what did that put mom through huh? "she asked caressing my back.
"I know, but is just I'm leaving you and all our memories and other friends behind, and I just can't stop thinking why dad wanna have a divorce. I don't know if I can cope with all of this and now we leaving, for life",
"You will just make me cry and go and back your mother to change her mind, to leave you here with me ", she told me hugging me again. All things will work out, you just see."she told me.
"I would love that my friend, if you even going to make her change her mind. I don't think that will ever happen. I'm sorry, I just really don't wanna go, next year is our last school year and we going to be Farwel partners.
I heard her giggle making me look at her with furrowed brows, "You know I love you right? She asked me. I just nobbed my head confirming her that I know. So we both know that your mom and dad weren't happy in this marriage, but at least you still have both your parents and they love you unconditional, no matter the situation." She said with so much sadness in her voice almost making me cry.
I know this is really hard for her, since she doesn't have any parents, but we took her in as our own. She is not my friend but my sister, my everything and I basically can't without her. I know the main reasons, why she doesn't wanna come with us is because of the memories of her late parents. She still hold onto it and it break my heart to see her like this. I must say I'm going to miss her. She was and is always there for me and leaving her here is like saying goodbye to a dead person. We have been through a lot together and leaving her all behind wasn't something I think I can live with.
All the things we did, the memories our dreams. It's going to be hard to make new friends all over again. I know us leaving took a big toll on her, she just has a good way of not showing it. She's going to break down, the moment we left the jard and she's not going to show us off, but I think it Is better if she just stays home. I don't think I can see her crying like that. I felt some eyes burning holes in me as I look towards her.
"You fine my sweetie", she asked me looking concern. "yes I will be", I respond.
"Come on Lucia, you act like we never going to see each other again, I'm going to visit you and maybe stay there for every. I just need to sort out a few things here, come on girl, you act like a baby now." she said laughing at me.
"Like a baby, oh no I don't", I yell throwing the pillow of the couch at her making her laugh more.
"Yes you are, because you sulking like a baby who wants to drink from her mother." she told me making me throw another pillow at her.
"I wonder who you going to bother again and calling a sulking baby." I told her, beating her with the pillow, but she just couldn't stop laughing a laughing which can make a person feel bad.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry", she told me when she saw I'm not stopping from beating her with the pillow while I just smile.
"I didn't hear you", I tease her.
"I said I'm sorry", she scream making me laugh at her.
"Who's a baby now?. I asked her as i stop beating her feeling the ache in my arms.
"You" she said, I aim the pillow at her, as she hide her face from me giggling, "I'am joking, no one is a baby", she told me, out of air.
"You better", I told her with sarcastic tone.
Uhg ugh", she coughs making me giggle," you wanna kill me?, she ask tapping on her chest. Tell me, what time you guys leaving?..
For a moment I didn't thought about leaving and she should just brought it up making me groan that I have to make peace with us leaving." I don't know, I just came over to greet you since you didn't came over to help me pack." I told her.
She seems sad about that looking away from me, hearing her breath out, "I'm sorry about that too, mom must be angry with me, because I promise I would help you guys. Is just, I can't see you guys off, it's hurting me but I'm going to be fine because I'm going to visit you guys.
"It's fine, I just have a few things to pack and yes she is not angry with you, you know she can't be angry with you. I'm the one who is always in the bad books"I told her making her laugh. "Yes, you can work on her nerves, I'm surely going to visit you guys on the holidays, I can't missed that visit for a thing."she told me.
"I want you to promise me, that you will be okay and that you will look after yourself and please you know you can call me everytime for everything. I will be there for you my sister". I reassure her taking her hands in mine and caressing it.
"I promise you, but you also need to promise that you will take good care of yourself and mom and please also promise me, that when you arrive in South Africa you will inform me about the guys. I'm going to need a beautiful guy for when I visit."she told me with her beautiful smile making me raise my brows.
"Uhmmm", I furrow my brows up and down checking her out, "you mean a beautiful one babe, one to your standards okay",
"Come on girl, just stop it, absolutely one to my standards". She told me throwing her head in sexy way to the other side.
I role my eyes at her, "That's so absurd you know, what happened I'm not going for the looks because it can be deceived?. I ask her.
"Oh please, that's back then. "she told me walking out of the sit room, you so boring", she blabber as I laugh following her.
I lean on the door Frame of the kitchen watching her pour us some juice, "Come let's drink together for our last, we don't know when we will get this chance again."she told me giving me a glass full of juice. "Thank you, but hopefully soon."I told her drinking on my juice.
" Then yes I think is time, your mother must be waiting for you", she said showing me off towards the door.
We glance at each other with tears in our eyes as she flew in my arms hugging me tightly like never before as we cry into each other arms. I hug her just as tight, wishing this moment can never pass. "I'm going to miss you so much", she sobbed on my shoulders.
"I will miss you too, my love",
"Ok..ay, okay now, please just go and please drive safe."she told me pushing me out smiling at me, while she wipe her face.
I couldn't let go of her hand, but it was time for me to leave before mom gets worried," okay, I love you, please stay safe", I told her moving away from the door and finally let go of her hand. "Love you too, give mom a kiss for me", she said walking into the house.
When i enter our house, mom was coming from the stairs and saw me just walking in. "where were you, I've been looking for you all over the house. I almost thought you run away." She told me making me stop and just look at her with furrowed eye brows.
I sight, "Mom, I know I'm angry, disappointed, but running away and left you alone in this, never cross my mind. You taught me never to run away from my problems, rather face them with pride." I told her walking towards her.
"Then why not letting me know, you were going out?" She asked me looking worried.
"I'm sorry, for not letting you know I went out."I told her walking pass her.
"It's fine, did you go see chrissy, how is she?" She asked looking at me with a smile on her face.
"She is going to be fine", is all I told her and walking up the stairs.
"Okay then, please hurry up with your things, the truck will be here soon."she shouted behind me.
I swear that smile of hers, is fake. I don't know what to do, to help her. This divorce was a shocking wave for her, which she never hope for, but she knew soon or other time things would have turn out like this. Dad wasn't nearly home, he didn't took care of us. Mom don't deserve all of this, but we can't predict what the future holds for us. We have to move on because life goes on.
I'am going to have a talk with her, I need to know how she's doing and how she copes, because she is always never home. Maybe chrissy was right, I'm too hard on her, I need to give her some space. Because I don't have any knowledge of what she's going through.
I enter my room and close the door behind me, the shock of being in my room for the last time strike me hard that I felt a lump sitting down in my throat, forbidden me to breathe. Tears threatened to fall out and it was to late for me to stop it from falling as I felt my cheeks gets wet. I sat down on the floor and cry my heart out.
It was really hard, and the pain it's so sore and unbareable. I would never wish it on anyone, not even my enemies. No one, no children should lose they parents through divorce.
I pull myself together and rose from the cold floor and gather all my belongings. I put all of it into the boxes that is still left in my room. I look around my room for the last time and my eyes caught the big picture on the wall. I took the picture off from wall of me and my parents and held it close to my heart. I remember the time and the day when this picture was captured. The fun we had that day, it was so special, a day I would never forget.
"Lucia baby, the truck is here ", I heard my mom's voice call at me from down stairs. I put the picture nicely into one of the boxes.