Chapter 121
Chapter 121 RYN
For a moment, I couldn't breathe; it was as though all the air had been sucked from the room, leaving only a crushing silence that drummed in my ears. My heart pounded, each beat painfully loud, thudding with a mix of disbelief and betrayal.
I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out.
How
can this s be?
My mind raced, darting between fragments of memories and realizations, each one cutting deeper.
Theon shrugged off Chelsea and took a step forward to me. "Ryn, I can explain."
I stumbled back from him, needing to put some distance between me and the awful truth.
Tears I thought were depleted rose like a fountain behind my eyes. My wolf whimpered in the wake of them. Memories of giving myself to Theon flashed before my eyes. Memories of Sadie and Miro warning me echoed in my mind. This was worse than anything I've ever prepared myself for-a twist of fate that felt like a cruel joke, leaving me raw, exposed, and utterly shattered.
Hooked at Sadie. "You were right all along." I whispered.
"Right about what?" Theon queried but I was walking towards Miro, ignoring him.
"I saw your text. You said the antidote was here?"
"Yes, but you need to listen to Theon."
"Where's the antidote?" the and
Suddenly,
I was grabbed by the arm, and whipped around. Refusing to look at Theon, I fixed my gaze elsewhere, feeling numb.
"Ryn, look at me." Theon ordered, but I refused. "Everyone, out! Now!"
The power in his voice sent deadly shivers down my spine, making my wolf feel the need to submit, but I refused. I heard the reluctant shuffling of feet as Sadie and Chelsea left the room but Miro stayed put.
"That includes you, Ro." Theon said, his gaze fixated on me and mine, staring into space.
Miro approached us, hesitating by my side before leaving without a word.
Now it was just us two.
n." Theon said. "Look at me."
"Ryn." Still, I refused. Still,
"Okay." Theon nodded to himself, then he dragged me to the table. In one move, he swept everything ott, including the hemlock plant and then carried me to sit on the table.
Now, he planted both hands on either side of me, his gaze burning me alive.
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"I can easily force you to look at me. Theon said, releasing a shaky breath. "But I don't want to. I want it to be However long it takes you, I'll stay here. We'll both be in this position until you're ready." choice. I blinked, hating the fact that he meant what he said, still I didn't think I had it in me to look at him, because then, I might see the man I have come to fall in love with and the pain of his betrayal will sting like death's kiss. Silence settled upon us.
"I did it all for you, Ryn." Theon explained. "The phoenix flower plan didn't work out so I had to go to Chelsea as a last resort. She wouldn't help unless I married her, so I arranged for that to happen. That's it."
I blinked, letting his words sink in, then I looked at him.
I wasn't prepared to see the world of pain and hurt in his startling blue eyes.
This is the most vulnerable I have ever seen of him and that's when I believed him. I touched his face and he leaned into it, closing his eyes as he sighed in relief. For the first time, since I'd known him, he didn't look like a god, nor a man, but a boy.
A little boy who just needed a place to rest.
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you for caring about me." I said to him, and he held my wrist and kissed it. Then he kissed down my arm, and traveled to my face. couldn't s him. I didn't want to.
When his lips captured mine, I shuddered. How did I forget he tastes like home too?
I opened up, letting him in, loving his strong, supportive hand holding my face. His kiss was gentle, as if he had all the time in the world to explore me. I didn't like that. I wanted him to kiss me like it's goodbye because I know for certain that after I take the antidote, things will change. His other hand travelled to my waist and pulled me closer.
a brief second, I imagined him laying me down on the table and taking me here.
For a brie
I pushed the thought away, knowing my wolf has no self-respect and would gladly spread my legs wide for him if she were in control.
Breaking the kiss, our foreheads touched. "It's time to let go." I whispered.
"Not
t now." He kissed me again. "Let's talk."
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kiss.
"About what happened today." He panted softly. "I heard people were talking shit about you online. How are you?"
I met his eyes, remembering how just a few minutes ago, all I wanted to do was die.
"I'm fine." I swallowed.
Theon's lips set in a thin line as his gaze cut to my lips. He kissed me again and just when I thought this discussion was over, he bit my lip hard. I withdrew from him, startled by pain. When I touched my lip and checked my finger, I saw blood on it. "What did you do that for?!" "That's for lying
me. Now," His tongue swept over his teeth that had grown into sharp fangs, answer my question or my teeth will be sinking in your shoulder next."
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I gaped at him in surprise. "You're a psycho
His brows pulled together in c
"Are you just knowing that now?"
My jaw dropped, and he smiled and I think my brain left the room at the sight of his dimples.
He held my chin, bringing my focus back to him. "How are you, Ryn?"
I shook my head, those fountains of tears gushing to my eyes. "Im not okay."
Theon nodded. "I know. Tell me more."
"I am tired. Exhausted." Tears fell down my face and he wiped them. "I miss my parents, so so much. I can't remember the last time I was truly happy. I wish I could just disappear into the woods, even if it's for one day, just shut off my phone and sleep and wake up the next day not worrying about shit. I keep going from drama to drama and no one likes me." "I like like you."
I paused, looking at him. "You'll feel differently once the Moonstone is gone."
"I didn't hate you before giving you the Moonstone. I'm not about to start now."
I gazed into his eyes - firm, set, certain. "You never asked about the Billie video. If I really did it or not." "That doesn't matter." "Why?"
"Because I know you as the girl who jumped in front of a moving car to save me. You're also the girl who degraded herself on camera to save my cousin. You're the girl who endured pain for weeks because you didn't want to put my life at risk. You're the girl who chose to help her colleague during a competition." Another tear streamed out.
This
time
to be, Ryn, and it all boils down to one thing - you're a good person. Your first instinct "There are so many things I know you is to save rather than destroy and if you were put in a position where you have to maul somebody, then they must have really had it coming." arou lose my I was the one who slid my hand behind his neck and pulled him in for a kiss. My lips had healed by now, so I kissed him with everything I've got. The overwhelming urge to unbuckle his belt and zip down his pants came over me and I wish I could do it here. I wish I V-card I to this man. I don't care if he hates me after. I can't see anyone else I'd rather do it with. "Don't put tempting thoughts in my head, Ryn." Theon's voice went down many octaves, giving a predatory vibe to his voice. "Sorry, I can't help it.' I laughed against his lips. I think he laughed too, because his body shuddered against mine. We broke apart again, leaving just inches between us in case one of us needs to steal another kiss
"I know you for who you are. Question is, do you know who you are?" He asked and had no idea hwo to reply. "Take your time and think about my question and never let anyone's opinion of you define how you really see yourself, understood?"
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I nodded in response. Then he rose to his full height and walked to the sofa to pick up a brown paper bag. Upon reaching me, he pulled a small bottle out of the bag and handed it to me. The bottle had a dark greenish vial which gave me the feeling that it'd be bitter. my head to look at Theon, my mood souring again. "This feels like a break-up." "That's because it is."
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"I can't live with that witch
"I know. Sadie's parents have agreed for you to stay with them. I have your things brought over tonight."
"I'm sorry I'm the reason you married her."
Theon gave a wan smile. "I'm just glad you're okay."
Silence.
"Can I ask a favour?"
"Sure."
"Can
I take this alone?" I asked. "It would be awkward to take the antidote and then walk away from each other."
Theon nodded. "I understand."
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He came closer, bringing out his hand from his pocket and placed my pendant on the table. Then he held my face, his lips hovering over mine in longing. I thought he would kiss me again, but instead, he kissed my forehead and with that, he grabbed his jacket and left. Tears rushed to my eyes but I stopped myself. I have to let him go. If he's mine, he'll come back to me. With that said, I closed my eyes and after counting to fifty, I drank the vial.
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