The Howl of Claim | COMPLETED

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Magari ( I f O n l y )

They say, fitting in is not really hard if we change ourselves but why should we change ourselves, is something I never understood. I mean, I understand that the person trying to fit in is the only one different.

The majority will not change themselves for the minority but at least, let the person try to fit in - in peace - in their own way.

Fitting in comes in all sorts of form, be it keeping distance, changing ourselves, or being the creepy one in the group and take the weird stares that come your way.

Do I even make sense?

Whatever.

Anyway, fitting in was a really hard quest for me. I am mated to a Lycan, okay, I understand.

I will have to spend the rest of my life with him and his pack, I understand.

But . . .

I will have to become one of them? Lose my wolf? No, that might not have been understood by my brain and not accepted by me.

I cannot let go of the only thing that has been with me since I was a child.

And Darius needed to understand that.

Darius pulls me into our room, his grip not once faltering but was still gentle.

Did he think I would run away?

He turns around slowly and closes the door, I try to avoid his gaze.

What did he want to talk about?

"What was that?" His voice came out strong but gentle at the same time making me know that he was not angry. Did I care if he was angry?

Maybe.

"What?" I looked up to meet his golden gaze. Things those eyes did to me.

If my wolf continues to think how hot he was, I might consider exchanging her.

"At the breakfast table, Why did you leave like that without eating anything? That's disrespectful to not only me but the food and yourself aswell. Stop playing with your health." I was waiting for him to connect my manners to my pack but he didn't.

He didn't insult my pack like all other times.

"It was suffocating, you all are suffocating. I cannot fit in." Darius immediately sighs but grab both of my wrists and pull me closer.

My brows furrow as I try to cover my beating heart and red cheeks.

"If these Lycans are too much for you, I will inform everyone that we will not eat with them until you are ready-" My wolf shot him a flirtatious look and lust was evident in her. She was horny by his caring attitude, "- But I think that you can fit in very easily."

I looked away, trying to stop my core from throbbing.

Why the hell was I turned on!? Just moments ago I felt like dying. What is this behavior?

Can he smell me? This thought made my cheeks redder and Darius noticed - of course - because he laughed and pulled me by the chin.

"You know, you can't hide your emotions from me." I pushed him by his chest and turned around, now facing the mirror.

Darius walked behind me and placed his large palms on my hips and pulled me closer to his front.

"What are you doing?" I asked but he didn't answer and lowered his head to my neck.

Onething I could not handle - since I had little to no experience at all - was feelings involving romance that was high in the air right now.

So the only way to react to it was me getting angry!

My emotions were going haywire! One time I was scared and then the other I was fucking horny.

Dear moon goddess, I may not forgive you for this.

"What are you doing?" I repeated.

"What does it look like?" He answered once he started to lay soft kisses on my neck and I clenched my eyes shut.

My senses bumped when his canines scrapped my neck and I froze with my eyes wide open. He is moving too fast! Even though I knew he wouldn't mark me yet but it still activated safety mechanism.

"If you don't stop right now, I am going to punch you."

The threat was not empty, I guess.

I felt him stop for a moment and look in my eyes through the mirror in front of us, Darius tilts his head, as if looking into my eyes for something - I didn't back down from the state.

Once he was satisfied by what he found in my eyes, he lowered his head again and then continue as if not taking my threat seriously.

Was he trying to see if my threat was empty or not?

Now I was feeling anger - why was I so moody right now?

"Why the fuck don't you understand!" I shout and push my erasthai back. "Stay the fuck away from me!"

I fucking burst.

"Please! Not right now." My voice was surprisingly soft.

I started to walk towards the door to exit but Darius pulled me back by my neck - cue my wolf fantasizing every situation as sexual - and stared straight into my eyes as if looking for something.

Again.

He moved from one eye to the other but before he could assess them any longer, I punched him straight in the face. The force which was applied was a surprise. It was strong and even Darius was surprised.

"I warned you." Even though I didn't mean to hit that had but why was it that hard?

Before he could say or do anything about my reaction, I left the room.

I wanted to be away from all this for some time.

I was walking fast in the hall when Darius called me - I was surprised he didn't chase me down the hall,

"1 hour. If you are not back in one hour, I am going to drag you back myself." I only look him in the eyes, noticing a small bruise forming on his cheek.

"3 hours!"

"Fine! Not a second more."

I wanted space. A lot of fucking space from these thoughts.

Looking down at my hands, I noticed they were shaking and were cold. Why was I feeling like this?

I didn't want to hit him but my anger and insecurities got the best of me.

I just realized that how much vulnerable I get around him, how close I am to expressing the emotions hidden deep inside of me - how close I am to breaking down infront of him.

It scares me sometimes and to cover all that, I get violent.

Without responding and having that as the last thought, I start to walk again with Darius still watching me.

...

I was collecting berries. Winterberries. I had a giant leaf in which all of my berries were placed.

I was also well aware of the Lycan standing beside the tree, keeping an eye on me. I didn't say anything to him. I let Marco stand there. I was too relaxed to ruin my peace.

Until now.

"Marco, carry these for me," I say without looking back and grab another leaf to collect more berries. I hear his steps get closer and he obediently picks the leaf up.

Darius was not letting me go on my own and so he sent Marco. I mean, okay, he was worried but I did not need a babysitter for god sake.

"Don't you dare eat any of them." Smirking at Marco, he only rolled his eyes.

I pop one of the berries in my mouth while picking them and moan at the taste. So delicious.

I was in the process of grabbing another one when Marco suddenly jumped over me, pushing me down causing the berries in my hand to fall down.

"What are yo-" A blade cut through the air but Marco grab it easily.

What the fuck!?

Excuse me!?

What?

Is.

Happening?

"Go! Run! Alert the others!" Marco push me up and in some direction. Without looking back, I start to run only to be stopped by a rogue.

Rogues? Here?

No, that's impossible! Thus my state of shock.

The rogue jumped at me but I was faster and I ducked under him and before he could turn around, I had grabbed his neck and twisted it. He falls lifeless to the ground.

A thrill runs through my veins.

"Ha! Twig."

I turn around to see Marco surrounded by a dozen rogues who had appeared out of nowhere.

Wasn't this place supposed to be guarded. Weren't wolves prohibited here?

I was about to help Marco - not that he needed it - but I too was given a dozen of wolves as a surprise.

Oh, this is going to be fun.

"Trust me, it's been a while since I have felt this thrill and need to kill all of you," I say loudly and run before anyone of them could process what I said.

"Fun-" I probably sounded like a psychopath.

I grabbed the first one and had broken his neck in seconds. The satisfying crack ringing through everyone's ears.

That was then the rogues around me came to their senses and rush towards me.

One by one, I littered the ground with their bodies, and man, was it fun!

"What the fuck are you doing Freya? There are here for you! Get the fuck inside!" For me? I look at Marco who had a litter of wolves around him too but the glare he passed me took my attention.

I was about to say something but was interrupted when a man walked out from behind the trees with immense power oozing out of him. A Lycan. Of course.

Why hadn't I noticed him before?

He was clapping while looking at me, my gaze turned to a glare and I bared my teeth at him.

A disrespect to a Lycan but I did not care.

His clapping seized and he too snarled but then looked at Marco.

"Hello Marco, long time no see." And just then, a blade in five different directions come towards him, too fast.

But Marco being the strong and fast one blocked all five of them. I had an urge to clap but held myself back.

Keep emotions at Bay Freya.

I was so engrossed in it that I hadn't realized the pain building in my body until the pain took over me and in seconds, I was crouching on the ground.

"Freya!" Marco's shout turns into an 'oomph' before I feel his body drop on the ground. I am too focused on the pain that I couldn't focus on the things happening around me.

The pain felt like that of my first shift.

I groaned when someone lifted my body up and throw it over their shoulder.

"Marco?" A whisper left my lips.

"Let's go, Freya." The man had picked me up and was taking me somewhere. I could not see.

I raised my head slightly to find Marco struggling on the ground from the Lycan's hit. My heart ached.

"Marco." I slightly whisper and raise my hand with the little strength I had.

A silent scream left me as my fingers popped.

They cracked?

The guy carrying me did not care and he continued walking until unknowingly, I had slashed his back with my new claws.

"It hurts!" I groan, it hurts so much that I didn't know what type of harm I was giving to the man.

I am dropped on the ground, for a while, I remain there as I try to see through the pain.

I feel my bones grow until I was half shifted.

Not in a wolf though, I could tell.

I feel the pain subside but I was no longer in control of my body but something else - and without knowing, I charged towards the Lycan in front of me before tearing him apart.

But there was one thing I heard him say before I killed him - a Lycan,

"Ah, you are shifting. He is now coming sooner than anyone would've thought. Good luck Female Lycan."

...

No, she is not a Lycan yet - patience Wolfies ♥️

Also, I love a guy like Darius, one who gives you space but still orders you around. Damn ...

Love you guys too.

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