Chapter 38
River's POV
I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe not wanting to answer his question but then again I did not want to lie to him.
He deserved to know the truth but a fear of mine kept me from revealing it. I wasn't sure Ethan planned on hurting Nate anytime soon and thats what left a lump in my throat.
It scared me drastically but I knew sooner or later I had to tell him and now that the opportunity came I had no right to be selfish by keeping this away from him.
I took a deep breathe and finally said, "Yes, honey Ethan is your father."
The words escaped my mouth quickly yet there was no change in Nate's expression as Ethan gazed at him with a smile.
We stood there in uncomfortable silence waiting for Nate's reaction but there was nothing, he was taking it better than we all accepted.
After about thirty minutes, I felt it was indeed time to break the silence.
"So do you guys want to go out or stay in and order take out?"I asked, as casual as possible and to my surprise they both replied.
"Stay in and order take out."They both replied rather quickly, turning there heads my direction and I shook my head.
"Any food suggestions?"
"Pizza or Chinese." They both replied again but this time looking at each other uncomfortably but then laughed.
Gosh, they were too similar.
"You know what I feel like Chinese so we will go with Chinese."I smiled and they both looked my way this time with there eyes sparkling.
They both usually did that when they got what they wanted.
After an hour or so they, both helped me set up the table but when the food came they literally dropped what was in there hands anda day down.
I rolled my eyes and huffed a deep breathe while walking towards the table.
It was going to be a long ass night.
After a couple of minutes of more boring silence, Nate finally opened his mouth while moving the green beans from his plate and surprisingly, I looked Ethan's direction and he was doing the same with his food "Whats your favorite color?"Nate asked blankly, looking directly at Ethan and Ethan put is fork down bringing his attention to Nate.
"Blue."He said, smiling.
"Mines Blue too, Whens your birthday?"He asked, this time with a smile.
"July second," Ethan said, and Nathan looked at him in surprise.
"Mine is June second."
Ethan chuckled and I did not want to interrupt their small talk so I ate and occasionally looked up.
"So thats what four and a half weeks from now?"Ethan asked, smiling.
"Four weeks and three days to be exact."He exclaimed, his eyes suddenly sparkling and then darkening with realization.
Something was up with him and I was hoping to find out soon.
"Why did you leave?"He asked, nearly crying and my eyes widened.
"Um... I was much younger in the mind then and I made a mistake, I should have believed your mother over anyone else..... Im so sorry."Ethan said, looking at Nate then directly into my eyes and suddenly all the darkness overcame me and I was brought back to that moment.
That moment that made me cry as I ran a hand over my mouth I walked quickly to the bathroom, for some reason my oxygen levels were low and the pressure was too much.
I knew I could not hate him for Nate but I also knew that forgiving him was beyond the lines of impossible and yet loving him was in closer lines than both hate and forgiveness but I had to be strong I wasn't going to allow him to step all over me again, for Nathan sake.
I glared at the mirror and noticed a single tear fell down my cheek than quickly wiped it taking a small amount of water and rubbing it around my neck to cool me down.
I opened the door only to find the two waiting behind the door with smiles on there face.
"It's alright, I am alright, "I explained, looking at the two and Ethan engulfed me in a hug
"Im sorry I never meant to cause you any harm."He whispered and I allowed my self for once to be a taken by his heartwarming touch.
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