Chapter 45
Camryn's POV
The tightness I felt in my heart slowly died down once he wrapped me around his arms. I felt secure and safe whenever I was under his touch.
After what he had revealed to me, my mind runs a thousand questions and doubts. But then again with my mate, everything to him feels easy.
He made me feel at ease. He made me feel the things I didn't know I would feel.
Why does this all feel easy to accept? Especially my heart. I thought it was all going to be hard for me after all that I have been through with Malka. Who had forcefully marked me to be his mate?
I thought that I would be so devastated. That I should be traumatized right now but no.
I had never once felt scared of him or fear him instead my heart and body feel heaven whenever I get close to him not to mention my wolf who's so head over heels towards our mate!
Telling me all of this made my heart feel relief. And I believed him when he said that the pup wasn't his.
And now, I felt sad about the pup. Knowing that his mother is in the dungeon right now.
Even though she had tried to kill me, I felt pity for her. She had lost her mate and now with her pup having no father surely it's all very difficult for her to move on.
I don't even know why I feel like this towards her but it's what my heart feels. It's not right to be angry towards her even though she had hurt me but my heart can't feel any hatred or anger against her instead I feel like I need to see her and do something to help her.
All the things I had done to the rogues make all sense to me now.
What I had done to Uncle Ace.
It's the power I felt inside my heart. A sensation that's so big and warm yet so cold. I don't know how will I explain it. But every time someone needs help I feel deep inside my heart that I should do something to them. That they need me.
My heart was pouring unto them.
I don't even know why? Out of all the heartbreaks I've been through my heart feels like not broken at all!
Maybe this got to have something to do when the Moon Goddess had talked to me.
I remembered her telling me that something my heart would do. That I would some kind of mend their heartaches and pains?
"Maybe that's what we have done to the rogues, Camryn!" Said my wolf, who suddenly interrupted my thoughts.
I didn't respond to her for my mind is still in deep thought about it.
That's why it's all making sense to me now.
And that's why I need to see Denise.
And then about my pack.
I chuckled to myself. Calling it 'my pack' feels strange. For half of my life, I felt like I don't belong there. That I was unknown to them.
And now that I need to go there and talk to them? I'm not sure if I could face them and to even talk to them.
But then again with him, my mate I feel like I can do all these things.
"It's because he is our MATE! Dumbhead!" My wolf interrupted me again.
"Can you please stop calling me like that?"
"Why? You know, it suits you!" Laughing at me "You always let that sick brain of yours overthink things! The things that you should just be not worried about!"
"Wolf? Are you on my side or not?" I said teasing her and pretending that I'm angry at her.
"Oh! shush you Camryn! I know you!" She said scowling at me but then she sighed "You do know that I'm always, always be by your side. We're a team, right? And I wanted you to be just happy now, Camryn. We deserve it. You deserve it, okay? So stop that brain of yours running with unnecessary thoughts!" She said glaring at me.
"Okay, okay! I'll try to freeze this brain!" Shaking my head at her in annoyance but I know that even though sometimes she annoys me, she's very caring to me. She always cared for what I felt.
And I am so thankful and so blessed to have a wolf like her.
Without her, I would have lost my mind long ago.
I think I should face what's waiting for me and not be scared anymore.
Besides, I will deal with them sooner or later so why not now?
I'm just trying to be strong and act strong for my wolf.
Breathing out, I glance my head towards my mate, pulling away my head to his chest. And slightly smiled at him. His eyes were soft I can tell that he was relaxed now knowing he feels what I feel.
"Thank you" I finally managed to say "For being true to me."
I haven't said my thank you to him not for just telling me the truth but for accepting me as his mate.
His perfectly thick eyebrows rose and gave me an innocent look.
"A thank you kiss maybe?"
Instantly I blushed at his response but before I could utter a word he dipped his head down and lowered his lips to mine. Caging my mouth against his.
The tingling sensation started to ignite in my body. Feeling like I was lifting in the air.
But I was being lifted! He wrapped his hands around my waist and lift my body. Instantly my hands went on his neck and my legs wrapped around his torso.
I heard him groan when my legs found their way to his body.
All of the thoughts I had in mind crumbled away.
And now it's just him. My heart, my body, and my wolf now thinking only of him. Fogging my messy brain with the sensation he was giving.
He slowly walk back to the bed and gently lay me down with him on top of me and my legs still tightly wrapped around him. Never letting our kiss be a break.
I run my hands to his hair, feeling it under my fingers, and traveled down to his broad shoulders.
I felt like my hands were itching to touch and feel every bit of him.
Then I was the one now let out a moan. He deepened our kiss more, not getting enough of each other.
I felt the pain again down to my core. The need to have more of him.
But I have to stop now.
We have to stop now. Am I ready for this?
Thankfully, he rose breaking our kiss and we both gasped for air while looking at each other.
His eyes were golden looking intensely at me and I was staring back at him with me feeling not sure again.
This made me feel so nervous and all!
He brought his hands down at the side of my face, tucking some loose hairs into my ears, and smiled amusingly.
"I know what you feel, love. But I won't go far as you think. For now, a kiss is enough" then he trailed his fingers to my lips "Your kiss will be enough for now to satisfy the hunger in me."
I swallowed hard knowing that any time soon he would claim me.
We need to consummate our bond soon.
And that means if that day comes If that day happens. The next thing to follow is for him to introduce me as the Luna Queen.
That's a lot to take in!
Breathed in! Breathe out Camryn!
I heaved out a sigh releasing the tension that was building in my brain.
He must have noticed the panic that was settling in me. He pulled away and awkwardly I untangled my legs from his body then he lay down beside me but then he pulled me straight into his arms so I was facing him. He kiss the top of my head and cocooned me in his arms.
The uncertain feeling in my head once again evaporated once I was tucked again safely in his arms.
I yawned and my eyes now felt suddenly heavy. Sleep now is taking on me. He heard me let out a yawn and once again he gently laid a kiss on my forehead and we both fall asleep.