Chapter CHAPTER 68— HOW IT FEELS
Zayd didn’t come home. No matter how long Quinn tried to keep her droopy eyes open, he did not walk through that door. “Had her words angered him that much?’ she continuously wondered until eventually, those eyes fluttered shut, only opening again when the daylight glistened bright through the thin curtains, illuminating her flawless tanned skin and the rest of the room.
The first thing she did was look around for any signs of him, and when she found none, her heart dropped and the little hope she had of finding his arms wrapped around her vanished as though it was not there.
With a sigh, she sat up, flinging the sheets aside. Last night, he hadn't given her enough time to explain. He kept pushing her away; something only she'd done to him.
But now that it was reciprocated...she could actually imagine how he'd felt back then in her stage of deliberate and harsh reluctance...at least that was if he felt the same way she did now.
Dejected and pathetic...
Shuffling off the bed, Quinn pushed her feet into the blue slippers she’d worn here, walking out of his room. She went into hers, taking a long shower that was filled with oversensitive thoughts and solutions that could patch up the hole she'd created in her relationship.
She had tried apologizing, but it seemed she hadn't been sincere enough...what else could she do? "You already apologized, Quinn... I forgive you.”
Then why was it that she felt like he didn't? Why was the air around him so heavy? Why did he seem so uninterested in her?
Quinn clenched her jaws, nodding to his words. “Okay.”
"Anything else?”
She shook her head, and he finally looked towards her. “Alright then...I have some work I need to finish.”
Quinn knew what that meant...he was telling her to leave without actually telling her to leave, and her pride would not allow her to stay. She twisted on her feet, trying to calmly walk out, but regardless of her attempt, her steps were frustrated stomps that showcased her true feelings.
Zayd watched her with squinted eyes until the door finally closed behind her. It was then he breathed out...for it felt as though he'd been holding his breath.
He looked down at his hands clamped together in his lap, both restricting each other from just grabbing her and holding her. God dammit, today was her birthday, and he couldn't even bring himself to tell her happy birthday.
He sighed, finally unclasping his hands and running them through his hair. Everything was set for tonight though...he only hoped he could keep his cool until then.
Before uttering the words, he needed to get her a gift. He planned a surprise for her, and though he hated it, his family and just one of hers was included. He'd have made it bigger if she was comfortable around the whole pack, but until then, it'd be just his beta and gamma, his parents and his sibling...along with her father.
As much as she made him angry last night, today was a different day, an important one. It was both the day she was born and the day her mother died...
He wondered though...how would she react after finally hearing the truth from her father tonight... l- I /-\ I]