Chapter CHAPTER 50— EXPLANATION
Quinn woke up to a knock on her door, and she sat up, rubbing her eyes and clearing her throat before speaking. “Who's that?”
“It's me...” Zayd answered. “Me and some other nuisance, but me regardless. Can I come in?" Despite being curious of whom he regarded as a nuisance, Quinn straightened up and adjusted the gown an omega had brought her yesterday night. “Yes.”
The door opened, and Zayd stepped in, trying but failing to close it in the face of the woman who stood out there. “Stop behaving like an idiot, Zayd...I just want to see her.”
“Why mom?”
“Because Isabella says she seemed very special to you. You've never brought home a decent woman before.” She looked past him at Quinn with a weird smile. “Come on in, Nick...as expected, she is as pretty as Bella said.”
A man appeared in the doorway beside the lady, if she was his mom, then this man was definitely his father. She could see the resemblance; he only had his mother's eyes. “Well, well...you did a good job son. Isabella told us about her last night, we won't judge.”
“Isabella talks a bit too much. Now that you've seen her, can you just go?”
Quinn shrugged. “I don’t know... mean, I hate you for what you did to me, but then, why would I agree to stay with someone I hate?”
“That night...” Zayd sighed. “I acted like a f*cking idiot, I know. I was angry, but I had no right to walk out after treating you like that. I broke my promise, I broke your trust, and I don’t even know where to start when it comes to mending it. I want it all back... don't care how much it takes, I already told you that I'd do anything to keep you by my side.”
“Why?” The question seemed dull, but Quinn was genuinely curious. “I understood why back then, but now...it's different now, I'm different now. Why do you still want me by your side? What exactly do you want from me? I don't get it.”
“It's not a matter of wanting you by my side, Quinn, it's a basic need...you're someone I can't live without. You ask me what I want from you? I want what we had back. I don't care how different you are, to me, you're the same Quinn I met at that party.”
“Even though I have no wolf? Even though neither of us will be able to feel the mate bond?”
“The bond isn't necessary, I didn't fall for you because of the bond. You've always been special, Quinn...even if we weren't mates, I believe I'd still approach you. You are the most beautiful woman I've set my eyes on, and though you seemed firm and apathetic at first, speaking to you in person proved me wrong. The way you'd blush before answering my questions amused me, you'd been so easy to tease and yet so hard to appease. It was obvious you wanted me, I was conscious of the fact that you did, yet you'd fought tooth and nail to push me aside.”
“Then why...? Why did you leave me that night? The fact that my mother tried to kill me was painful, but the fact that you left hurt me more.”
He took a step closer, hands digging into the mattress as he leaned towards her. “I know, and I'm sorry. My anger shouldn't have influenced my judgement, but Quinn...” He trailed off, eyes staring so deep past her soul. “Think about it, little red, put yourself in my position. Wouldn't you have been hurt and angry if you stumbled up on your mate kissing another person?”
“I...l.." Quinn's lips trembled when she heard that nickname fall off his lips again. Little red; that's what he used to call her. “I w-was in heat.”
“Would that have mattered to you?” He drew nearer, giving her no other option than to bury herself against the bedhead. “Regardless of that, Quinn...would you not have been angry?”
Quinn held her head down, seriously thinking about it. After what Jeo had done to her, if she'd stumbled upon Zayd with another woman, she'd leave too, she'd have been hurt beyond measures. “No...” She finally answered. “It would not have mattered.”
“Then angel, sympathize with me. I might've crossed the line, said and did things that I should've never done, but I'm sorry. My actions haunted me since the very night I left. I'd wanted to come back, but having felt like that ~scared~ for the very first time in my life... didn't know what to do.” His hand reached under her chin, lifting her head so she looked at him. “Please Quinn...allow me to enter your life again, allow me to love you.”
“I..l.." Quinn bit her lip and Zayd sighed. “I don’t want to rush this, but I'm dying to kiss you right now, to hold you...I-you don’t know how hard holding back is.”
Quinn’s hands clenched against the bed, her eyes snapping shut as he leaned in for a kiss she wasn't sure if she could refuse.