Sweet Ruin: Chapter 33
I woke to the distant buzzing of an alarm. I didn’t think I’d set one seeing as I was on winter break, so I thought it was probably the clock in my mom’s bedroom. I was still half asleep, and the beeping sound seemed like something out of a dream. I could feel the lulling pull of slumber trying to lure me back under, and I probably would have fallen straight back to sleep, but the alarm was persistent and annoying and refused to let up.
I’d passed out on the couch with my mom during our Downton marathon, so my legs were stiff, and my neck had an uncomfortable crook in it from sleeping at a funny angle. It probably made sense to get up and relocate to the bedroom, but my body felt exhausted, and I didn’t want to move.
I let out a cough as I tried to take in a breath. The air felt hot and dry, and as I dragged in another breath, I coughed again. Ever so slowly, I blinked my eyes open. The room was dark and it took me a few moments for my sleep-addled mind to notice everything seemed hazy.
Something wasn’t right, and I tried to push myself upright. My body felt like it was weighed down by leaden weights, and sitting up straight was far harder than it should have been. I was just so tired. And even though the world didn’t look right, even though my breaths felt labored, all I wanted to do was lay my head back down on the pillow and sleep.
My ears honed in on the alarm once again. Why was it so piercing? Had my mom’s clock always been so loud? It was only as I coughed once more that I finally realized what had woken me up—it was a fire alarm.
I was suddenly more alert, and as I glanced around the room, panic slowly began to set in. All the lights were out, and the TV was off, so the only source of light was a streetlamp outside that sent a dim glow through the thin curtains covering the window. The haze in the room gave everything a blurred appearance, and as I searched for the source of the smoke, I realized it was gathering thickly around the door that led from the apartment.
My chest already felt constricted, and I gagged on a cough as I gasped. This wasn’t just a case of some burnt toast setting off the smoke alarm. This was serious.
“Mom.” I coughed as I crawled over to her. She’d been snuggled on the couch beside me and was somehow still asleep. “Mom, wake up!” Couldn’t she hear the alarm blaring? Couldn’t she smell the smoke?
“Please, wake up!” I tried to rouse her, but no matter how much I shook her, she wouldn’t open her eyes. “Mom!” I screamed before coughing once again. I couldn’t see any sign of a fire, but the smoke was thick, and I felt like I was choking on it.
I rushed for the window and attempted to push it open, but it refused to move. I remembered how the wood in our apartment had warped in the heat last summer meaning most of the windows jammed occasionally. I knew it was no use trying the window in the bathroom as that barely opened wide enough to fit a hand through. And the ones in our bedrooms were even worse than the window out here. Mom had been saying for months she needed to get someone to come out and look at them, but it had fallen to the bottom of the list of things that needed fixing around here.
I considered trying them anyway, but as I choked on another cough, I decided otherwise. Even if I could get them open, how was I supposed to get myself and my mom down to the ground from an upstairs window. The only thing I knew for sure was that I needed to get us out of here as soon as possible. I was already struggling to breathe, and I was sure I’d learned somewhere that smoke inhalation was more likely to kill you in a fire than the flames themselves.
There was only one way out of our apartment. I had to get across the room, down a flight of stairs, and then out through the café. I couldn’t even be sure if that exit was safe. What if it was already engulfed in flames? I couldn’t think about that though. I just had to concentrate on one thing at a time.
I rushed back to my mom and tried to draw her arm over my shoulder and pick her up. She was so small, but she was an absolute dead weight, and I wasn’t strong enough to lift her. Tears stung my eyes as I tried to think of a way to get her out, and I rolled her to the floor so I could attempt to drag her from the room.
I felt so weak, and each breath of smoke I inhaled made me feel weaker still. My body felt so slow as I inched my mom closer and closer to the door. I was somehow going to have to manage the stairs when I reached them, but I had to get there first. I drew in another breath and collapsed to my knees.
I tried to shake my mom once more. “Mom?” I croaked. “Please wake up.”
I could feel myself fading fast, but I refused to leave my mom behind. I couldn’t seem to stand. How was I supposed to drag my mom from the smoke-filled room when I couldn’t even drag myself?
“Isobel?” I heard someone shouting. “Isobel?”
I wanted to call back. To yell that I was here. But my lips couldn’t seem to form the words. I was just so damn tired.
The door to the apartment burst open, and I struggled to focus on the person who appeared before me. The next thing I knew, I was being shaken, and my eyes popped open. Had they even been shut? I smiled as I saw Noah’s features form before me.
“You came,” I mumbled.
“I’ll always come for you,” he replied. “I have to get you out of here. The fire’s spreading quickly downstairs.”
The fire. Hearing the word seemed to clear the fog in my brain enough so I could think once more, and I shook my head, pulling away from him. “You need to get my mom.”
“Help is coming.”
My mom couldn’t wait though. “Noah, please,” I begged though the word sounded so faint.
A cough came from behind Noah, and I looked up to see Matthew standing in the doorway, his face smeared in ash. “Noah, go. I’ve got Candice,” my father yelled at Noah, coughing again as he rushed to my mom’s side.
Noah gathered me in his arms. “It’s okay, Isobel, I’ve got you.”
He rushed from the room as though I were as light as a feather. We reached the stairs leading down to the café as fire licked the banister and crawled up the walls. It was so hot it felt like my face might melt, but Noah charged right down the stairs, through the flame-lit corridor, and out into the fresh night air.
We were both coughing as we emerged from the building, and Noah set me on the ground as soon as we were free. He turned to head straight back inside, but my father followed right after us, cradling my mom carefully in his arms.
Sirens blared somewhere in the background. It was dark, but the fire cast a haunting orange glow across the quiet street. A few people were gathering on the other side of the road, staring up at the blaze in horror. But all I could focus on was my mom. Matthew had her on the ground and was already performing CPR. Tears streaked down my cheeks as I crawled over to her. My mom’s life was hanging on the line as the thing she lived for burned down in the darkness behind her.
I held my mom’s hand as Matthew tried to save her life. I wished I could do something to help, but I could barely stay upright. I was still finding it so hard to breathe, and I felt so feeble.
“Isobel?” Noah’s alarmed voice rang out.
I started to fall, and everything went black.