Speak To Me

(Gabriella)

It's been four days since Katrina passed and my dad has been staying with us since. The police are still looking into what happened and today is the first day I woke up feeling somewhat hopeful..because today was the day of our doctor's appointment. Since everything that happened with my family, we were able to reschedule the appointment for a few days later than originally intended.

I haven't fully gotten over Jamie hiding things from me yet and honestly, I just felt way too exhausted to even address it. He has been great like always though and I feel I have already been slipping into my old ways with him, but I do want to have a conversation about everything. I looked in the mirror briefly, my hands smoothing down my light blue dress as I turned to the side and settled my gaze on my thin waist.

Could there really be a baby growing inside of me? I couldn't help but smile softly as Jamie suddenly stepped behind me.

"You look beautiful princess." He whispered against my ear as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Are you nervous?" He asked me, prompting me to nod my head up and down before turning in his arms.

"W-w-e n-need t-t-to t-t-talk." I stuttered, making Jamie let out a sigh before placing his brow against mine.

"I know I messed up..I'm sorry Gabriella for keeping everything from you.." He breathed the sadness and regret clear in his voice as I grabbed my phone and pulled from him slightly.

"I feel like you don't think I can handle things..like you see me as a child." I wrote out, getting it all out there..I didn't want to have any of these bad feelings during our appointment.

"No, of course not..I just..I don't want anything to ever hurt you, Princess..you have already been through so much, and I don't want to add to anything..I just want to protect you." He confessed, making my heart ache as I lifted my hand and cupped his cheek gently.

Before I responded, I lifted on my toes, placing a soft kiss on his lips as he closed his eyes and pressed against me. After staying like that for a moment I began typing again.

"I know..but I am stronger than you think Jamie..and with you by my side, I know I can get through anything..so please, don't leave me out because it hurts." I confessed, watching as he nodded his head before pulling me back to him.

"Sooo..you forgive me?" He asked sheepishly, making me fight a smile before nodding and watching as relief flooded through my husband.

"Thank god..I was going insane.." He rushed out and started smothering me in kisses as I let out a giggle.

"I missed you..as crazy as that sounds and even though we were right next to each other..I still fucking missed you." He grumbled as his lips slid down my jaw.

Before he could go any further, his phone went off as he groaned and pulled it out of his pocket.

"Okay, Ray is here." He informed me, making my stomach flip as I felt like I might be sick..

"Let's go say goodbye to your dad and head out." Jamie whispered as he took my hand and started to pull me out of the room.

Daddy was sitting in the living room, his eyes glued to the TV screen as he lay on the couch under a blanket.

This is all he has been able to do..which I completely understand. I know this is a lot for him and he needs to do what he can to get by.

Monica offered to come and check on him when we were gone just in case if he needed anything. I know it might seem drastic but I'm afraid to leave him alone..I can see the guilt in his eyes...I know he is blaming himself for this.

I stepped in front of Daddy as I bent down and kissed him on the head.

"We will be back soon, if you need anything just call Jamie okay? Monica is going to come by in a little..she offered to make you some lunch." I signed, making my dad nod once, his eyes not looking away from the TV as I felt a pang of sadness rising up. I'm not even sure he saw what I said.

I feel so bad for him..I won't lie..a part of me is terribly sad that things ended this way..and I am mourning in my own way, but I wasn't very close with Katrina..so I feel like I'm sad about the opportunity lost. Maybe in another life we could've been good friends and true sisters.. Jamie placed his hand on my back, the warmth of his touch bringing me back as I stepped away from Daddy and turned to leave.

"He just needs time, and then things will start to get better..it might take a while but eventually it will." Jamie reassured me as I nodded and hugged his waist.

My husband was so smart..I'm sure he is right. Daddy will get through this and things will get better one day. I just have to let him mourn..he can take all the time he needs, I won't be going anywhere.

After leaving the apartment we made our way downstairs and I couldn't help but bite my lip nervously as I shifted on my feet.

"Why are you so adorable when you are nervous?" Jamie whispered before caging me against the elevator wall.

I just blinked my big blue eyes up at him, watching as he examined me carefully before bending and kissing my lips.

"I can't wait for the doctor to say those words.." He breathed, his warm breath making me swallow hard as I parted my lips.

"W-w-what w-w-wor-rdss?" I stuttered as a smile began to pull on Jamie's full lips.

"That you are pregnant with my child. That a small part of me is growing inside of you." He admitted as I swear I could've fainted..how could he just say this kind of stuff like that?!

Before I could even think about responding, the doors opened and Jamie started dragging me out of the elevator.

I was on cloud nine just from hearing him say that..and before I knew it, we were at the doctors. But what I wasn't expecting to see was Robert standing outside as he waved at us happily. "Seriously? I should've known as much.." Jamie grumbled and I elbowed him in the side gently, making him glance down at me.

"Be nice." I mouthed, making him sigh dramatically before kissing me deeply once again.

"Fine..for you I will..but no way in hell am I letting him come to the other appointments..I mean if there are others." Jamie muttered under his breath as my father-in-law quickly opened our door, not even giving Ray a chance to get out. "Sweetheart, how are you feeling? How's your dad doing?" He asked before taking my hand and helping me out of the car.

"He is doing okay." I signed and mouthed, not really knowing what to say about Dad.

"Well, let's go inside. I called ahead so we will get right in." He explained as I saw Jamie stiffen..yeah..I don't think he likes his dad stepping on his toes..but it's kind of interesting to see Robert like this. I mean..he has always been kind to me, but I see how ruthless he can be at work and most people are even afraid of him.

I know Jamie is still getting used to this version of his dad too..so I understand his frustrations.

"Dad, you didn't have to do that, we are more than capable of waiting." Jamie stated firmly as his dad just waved him off and led us into the building.

I guess Robert really did call ahead because the moment we stepped inside we were led straight to Dr. Steven's office..and then someone came to take a blood sample so they could do a more accurate test.

I turned my head and closed my eyes as Jamie squeezed my hand. I felt the prick of the needle and I swear Jamie was getting mad.

"Just breathe son, they are almost done." Robert laughed, making the nurse chuckle as I squeezed Jamie's hand reassuringly.

Once the blood sample was taken, then Dr. Stevens finally came in. They said the results would take fifteen minutes.

"So Gabriella, how have you been feeling?" The doctor asked as I cleared my throat and sat up straighter.

"Good, I've had a few cramps." I signed before motioning to my stomach.

"Any nausea or fatigue?" He asked, making me sign the word for a little.

Then I heard a knock on the door, making me jump as Robert went on the edge of his seat. Wow..that was fast..are those the results already?

Dr. Stevens stood before smiling and walking to the door. He spoke with someone briefly and came back with a sheet of paper.

I felt Jamie pull me closer to his side as he let out a deep shuddering breath, letting me know he was nervous too.

Dr. Stevens came into the room slowly, and sat down in the chair, his eyes scanning the paper before glancing up toward us. "Well, are you ready to hear the results?"