Speak To Me

(Alder)

I never thought I could fall so hard for a woman I only met a month ago. Not only that...now that woman is pulling away from me, and I think I'm losing my damn mind because of it. I don't know what to do..I have tried so hard to keep my cool..but with every day that passes my sanity slips a little more each time. I even went and paid that asshole Matteo a visit..convinced he did something to her. Of course he practically pissed his pants when he saw me standing at the door.

I won't lie..seeing his arm still in that cast made things a little better. It did snap pretty loudly when I stepped on it. But the prick deserved it..at least his broken nose healed only a little crookedly. I swear I was ready to break it again if he did something to Jolie. He sputtered and cried, saying he hadn't spoken to or seen Jolie and eventually I had enough of the dude so I left and wandered the city for an hour..

I have never been in a situation like this before..yeah, I had unrequited love before..but I knew that would never work out..with Jolie, I was so damn convinced that it would.

My mom was not happy..I mean, she knew something was up with me but I didn't want to go into full details...it would just paint Jolie in a bad light, and mom is already weary about that phone call she witnessed. I tried to explain it to her but I could tell her guard was up now. The last thing I need is for my mom to fly over here and make shit even worse..don't get me wrong..I love my mom to death..but she can be a little overprotective at times, especially after everything that happened with my dad.

But then I got the call..one I wasn't expecting..

Seeing Jamie's name on that screen caused my heart to leap into my throat because I knew she was there..at least, I was guessing she still was. That's the last place Jolie went before she cut off contact with me. I even tried her place a few times, asking the doorman if she was in and he hadn't seen her.

So here i was at Jamie's building, ready to get my girl back.

After meeting Ray at the bottom of the elevator, I quickly made my way inside and pressed the correct button.

I swear time slowed from that moment on..

I just wanted to see her..that's all..and if she tells me to fuck off afterward, then fine. But she better have a hell of a good reason for ghosting me like this..

The moment those elevator doors opened, I walked straight to the double doors waiting for me and knocked.

Luckily it didn't take very long for Jamie to answer it.

"Wow, you got here fast. Okay, they are just in the living room now..Jolie is going to be surprised...so maybe try not to go in too strong.." Yeah..that was the plan when I knocked on the door..but now I'm starting to think it might be easier said than done.

"Fine, I'm just ready to see her." I rushed out, prompting Jamie to nod once as he stepped aside and let me in further.

I swear the moment I made my way into the apartment and heard her laugh, my body began to react..and then another emotion started to rise..anger. Why did she sound so happy? Was she really okay with this? Hadn't she gone every night without being able to sleep just like I had? I stepped through the foyer and into what I realized was a living room. I could see Jolie sitting on the couch, her back facing me as her friend Gabriella seemed to be in the middle of a story.

My eyes burned into the back of Jolie's head. That golden blond hair was tied up into a messy bun and I couldn't help but examine her carefully. Then I saw it..the way her skin began to pebble with goosebumps and how her shoulders grew stiff.

I watched carefully as her head started to turn. Those soft green eyes I had gotten lost in damn too many times finally met mine as they widened in disbelief.

"Alder." My name came out in a gasp, the surprise on her face making my blood boil even more as she just sat there.

"I think we need to talk." I say, tired of this woman running away from me..if she didn't like me, then she can tell it to my damn face..but if it isn't that, she better have a good reason for ghosting me for a week straight.

Jolie looked between me and Gabriella as she went to stand.

"You told him I was still here?" Jolie sounded hurt, which sucked even more.

"I'm s-sorry..we didn't t-tell him anything..but Jolie..I can't see y-you hurt any longer." She whispered before frowning sadly and went to leave the room with Jamie.

"We will be right down the hallway." Jamie said and then disappeared.

That's when the thick silence came..the expression on Jolie's face changed every few minutes as I saw her start to panic.

"Alder....."

She trailed off, going quite again..okay, then I will do the talking.

"Why haven't you answered my calls?" I asked darkly, this side of me one I rarely let out.

"Well..you see..something came up and..and.." She began to sputter, making me take a step closer as I cautiously made my way to her..afraid she could bolt any second. "Jolie, you are lying." I stated, already able to read her so damn well.

I let my eyes drag up and down her body, studying her carefully as I realized she looked a lot paler than usual..and her eyes were red, making it seem like she might've been crying.

"I'm sorry." She eventually choked out when I finally reached her, my hand sliding out as I cupped her chin gently.

"For what? Why are you sorry Jolie?" I asked more calmly this time.

"Because I have been lying to you Alder..and what I'm about to tell you..it might change everything....I didn't want to face it yet..I'm so sorry." She began to sob, and I quickly went around the couch and sat beside her, my arms pulling her closer.

"Whatever you did..it doesn't matter okay? People make mistakes..but the way I feel about you..I'm willing to look past it..just tell me he meant nothing to you..please." I whispered, realizing exactly what this was about. Did she grow feelings for someone else? Flirt with them? Kiss them? Fuck them... The mere thought made me feel sick to my stomach.

"I know we weren't exclusive..but we can change that now..I want to be Jolie.." I rushed out.

"Wait..you..you think I cheated on you?" She suddenly asked before pulling away from me and tilting her head back. I couldn't help but stroke her face and hair, relishing the feel of her beneath my skin. I missed her..so damn much.

"You haven't spoken to me for a week and keep apologizing to me..It's because yoy ket someone else isn't it?" I explained, feeling really confused now..that's not what's going on?

"No..I would never.." She rushed out.

Then what the fuck is it?! Of course I didn't say that out loud..but I wanted to.

"Have you changed your mind about me then?" I asked again, making her head shake no.

"Then what Jolie? What would make you drop all contact with me? What would make you pull away when we were just getting so close..." I asked more firmly this time, ready to hear her explanation.

I looked down into her green eyes, the way fear flashed across them concerned me even more as she bit her plump bottom lip before letting out a shuddering breath.

"The reason is because I'm..I'm..I'm pregnant Alder."

Her confession caused my heart to skip a beat, the words she just spoke making my eyes blink rapidly as I stared down at this beautiful woman beside me..

Pregnant..she's pregnant..with my baby.

"Pregnant..you took a test?"

She nodded her head hastily as I reached down and gripped her hands tightly.

"With my baby..you are carrying my child?" I asked again, just to make sure I heard her correctly.

"Yes, I'm sorry." She cried and I couldn't hold it in any longer.

"A baby..you are going to have a baby..you're really carrying my child Jolie?" I whispered, emotion filling my words now as I looked down at her stomach. My hand reached out, placing my palm along her lower abdomen as she seemed to be in shock now. "Wait..so you..you would want to keep it?"

I snapped my gaze back up to hers, surprised by her words.

"Of course, I want to keep it. Don't you?" I asked, not even thinking about other options truthfully. But if she doesn't want to...it's something we will need to talk about..even though that makes my damn heart ache.

Jolie sat there for a moment without saying a word, showing me just how scared of this she was as I quickly lifted her up and plopped her into my lap.

"I know this seems scary..but Jolie, if I'm being honest..from the first moment I saw you I knew..I just fucking knew you were mine. And now this..the fact that you are carrying a piece of me inside of you..it just proves that even more."

"It does?" She choked out, making me smile broadly as I nodded my head and wrapped my arms around her curvy waist.

"Yes baby, and now we are going to have a baby..a freaking baby!" I added excitedly, making her laugh now as relief flooded through me.

"A baby.." She whispered herself, the words absorbing into me and settling deep into my core.

"I didn't know what the hell to do..I just..I thought you might be upset and I didn't want to tell you and lose you..so I pushed you away and acted like an idiot." She rushed out as I began peppering kisses all over her face.

"It's okay..I understand..just never run from me again..okay?" I grumbled, hoping to god she listened this time.

"I won't. I promise." She agreed, making me crash my lips to hers as I leaned into her touch..the feel of her beneath me finally put me at ease.

I let out a content sigh.

"I guess there's just one thing left to do then." I mumbled, making my way down her jawline.

"And what is that?" She asked in confusion.

That's when I reached down and grabbed her hand. I slowly pulled it higher and began tracing slow circles around her ring finger, making her eyes widen. "Make you my wife."