Chapter 17
Try and Try
Again **Rosalie’s POV After the night I spent with Ethan, I had expected to see him again,
but I didn't. He never once came to visit. There was no
compassion, no concern, no want or desire from him. I was nothing more than a task — a tool he needed. I was sure how I was going to be able to get past all the waiting, but, eventually, I found sm: become a big one, and when Vicky realized I loved to paint and draw, she made sure I had everythin up in my own private art studio — considering the music room was off limits for the time being. Days turned into weeks, and, before I knew it, I began to lose track of time. The vast green fields
around the Drogomor pack were beautiful. The peaceful village could
be seen from the pack house, and the golden sunshine made
everything seem upbeat and hopeful. I loved to draw the sunny
sky the most — it reminded me of his clear blue eyes. A soft knocking at the door to
the art room had me turning my head to see who was there. To my surprise, Estrella stood in the doc at me. “Hello, Estrella...” I smiled back as I set my paint brush down. “Is everything okay?” “Yes. I was just wondering if you would like
to take a trip with me to the clinic.” For a moment I was confused as to why I would need to go, and "He is going to meet us there. He needs to take care of something first and asked me to come get y« and start.”
Estrella was as kind as always, but I was a bit scared.
What would happen if I wasn’t pregnant? My hand instinctively went to my stomach. Please... godde because of the thought of what Ethan would do if I wasn't, but also because, deep down, a part of m wanted to be... I didn't know when it had started, the idea that a small little life was growing within me filled my heart with happiness. To Ethan, to the pack, I was fulfilling my duty; but as the da by, it felt less and less like a job for me. I wanted to be pregnant! I wanted to carry his child —
my child. Moving from my seat, I joined Estrella, and we headed down the hall towards the pack clinic. As we stepped through the clinic doors, my eyes stayed cast to the floor. The a knob, and Estrella was ushering me into an empty patient room. The white paper of the exam table felt uncomfortable against my legs. I wasn't sure what to expect, but when she pulled out a needle, my eyes widened. “V Try and Try Again — She must have seen the concern in my eyes by her response, and when she explained, I relaxed a little and allowed her to do what she needed tc about what the next few months would entail with me being pregnant. How I would feel the small cf every little kick and movement.
A short, blonde-haired woman knocked on the door, pulling
me from my thoughts. I watched as Estrella handed her the sample and then she quietly left. The wo Stop being so negative, Rosalie, I thought. Everything was going to be okay.
"So, Rosalie,” Estrella finally said, turning to face me with a smile, “How have you been feeling?”
“I'm okay, I guess.” My response came out softer and flatter than I had meant it to, and she seemed 1 Quickly, I shook my head. “No, it isn't that.”
cause
"Well, what's wrong?” She asked again. “I am your doctor, and if something’s wrong, I need to know. like as usual — polite, distant but safe to be around. Had he heard what I said? I didn’t want to be a I I didn’t want Ethan to get angry because of it “You haven't been outside?” Estrella asked confusedly I fresh air and sun. It's important for her health.” I heard the disapproval in Estrella’s voice, and I clenct for bringing it up. Talon sighed, nodding his head. “I will let the Alpha
know.” I quickly sputtered, “I don’t want to bother him. It's okay. I will just open the windows like I us out that I was complaining — to give him a reason to be upset with me. “No, Rosalie,” Estrella said. “You need to go outside and get some fresh air every day.” “Please —
It's okay. Please don't say anything to him,” I stammered out again. I was pleading with her to let th Having Ethan upset at me because I disagreed with his orders was not something I wanted to experi There was a knock at the door. The blonde-haired woman came in and handed Estrella a piece of Try and Try Again paper before exiting again. All three of us went silent. I never knew that my heart c results were —
“So, no pregnancy yet.” Estrella was officially informing Talon. Instantly, a part of me ached for the Ic
the situation or at myself. I felt like a failure. I didn't conceive... was there something wrong with me? What if I couldn't have kids at all? The thought filled me with fear. What was going to happen? Would the Alpha ever look at me again a mother. I had grown to like the idea of giving life to a child. And now it was gone. “Rosalie, sweetie Once I started to calm down slowly, Talon spoke. “What do we do next, Estrella?” “Well, it may take a did
I hear her wrong? Did she mean...? She pulled back, smiling at me, grabbing a paper cup and filling i and she and Ethan will have to try again.” I would sleep with him again?!