Severed Bonds

I recognize that the video is being taken from the party. The music is blasting, people are drinking, dancing in the background, the camera shifts position across the bar. I see a girl with short, blonde hazel, curly hair leaning on the kitchen counter facing the back. There's two guys harassing the girl, asking if she's okay and laughing. The girl sniffs and says,"I want to go home." She whines. They laugh again, one guy slaps his knee,"I just want everything to go back to the way it was!" She cries out. They pretend to sympathize with her. She gets up and walks unsteady.

"Where are you going?" One guy asks. The camera follows her.

"I don't know." She mumbles. "I just want to be able to wake up from this nightmare!" She cries out. She leans slightly to the side, the camera follows her. The camera person laughs, it's a female voice. It sounds familiar? "I just want to be able to open my bedroom door without waiting for someone to snatch me!" She sobs harder. "I just want to be able to go to bed without the light on!" She cries out louder. The girl recording laughs harder, the girl turns around and faces the camera. My heart stopped, that's me...The echo of the camera girl's laughter fills my mind, I know that voice! I ponder for more than a second, that bitch! She's fucking cross the line! The group looks up and notices me standing there, they burst into fits of laughter. Normally I would be upset at this, but she's taken it too far! I march my way into the cafeteria, once Rose and Violet sit down. I slam my hand on the table, Rose and Violet jump.

"You fucking bitch!" Violet's eyes go wide. Rose acts shocked by my reaction.

"What's wrong Hannah?" She puts on a worried expression.

"What the fuck is your problem!"

"I don't know what you mean?" She says innocently. I can feel people's eyes on us. But I don't give a damn!

"You know what the fuck I mean!" She looks at me as if I lost it.

"Do you have nothing else better to do! Then screw up people's lives!" She says nothing. She scuffs.

"I have literally no idea what the hell you mean." She gives me a patronizing smile.

"What is it? Are you so miserable? That you have to make everyone else miserable too!"

"Please, You're the one who's bitching everyday!" She scuffs.

"I'm sorry, that you have nothing good in your life but that doesn't give you a right to fuck up other people's so you won't feel as miserable!" Rose bolts up.

"Don't blame me! For your problems! You fucked up your own life!"

"NO YOU DID! You fucked everything up for me! Because you're so damn miserable, because you have no one! Maybe if you stopped acting like a nasty bitch? people will actually give a fuck about you ever think of that!" Rose's eyes widen, people around us are ooing. She looks around and watches everyone in horror. Her eyes turn misty, she gives me one last glance and takes off running. People laugh at her as she runs past them. Anger is boiling inside me. Violet sits there in shock.

"Han? What happened?" I snap my head towards her.

"What happened? Don't pretend like you didn't know about the video she posted!"

"I..really didn't!" She pleads.

"You're telling me? That even though your beside Rose all of the time you had no fucking clue she posted a video?"

"No! I swear if I knew I would've-"

"Would've what? Warn me on the day she releases the video? I get it she's your friend! But so am I Violet! If it was you I would've stood up for you!"

"You're right and I'm sorry...Han, I really am." She pleads softly. I clench my fists and storm off everyone is still ogling and watching. I turn and look at them.

"Shows over! So just get back to whatever the fuck you were doing!" They all turn silent as I march out of the cafeteria. At home, I stay in my room still fuming from Rose and Violet's video. I wonder if she's actually crying? She probably threw water in her eye so I could be the villain! Violet even looked at me like I was! How am I the villain? She's the one who posted a personal video on the day I was drugged and nearly kidnapped! She's probably the one who set up that guy to claim that he was making out with me! She was the one behind everything! ARGH! I wanted to strangle her alive! Hopefully she'll leave me alone after today, I can't handle her anymore! ARGH! I let her get to me! The look on her face when I confronted her! She just kept smiling and acted like I was crazy! HOW DOES SHE HAVE THE FUCKING AUDACITY TO DO THAT? A week goes by and me and Violet aren't speaking to one another, I keep avoiding Lola's and Justin's face times. And Rose hasn't said anything to me since that day. I'm not in the mood to put on a smile and say everythings okay when everything has gone to shit! I don't want to talk to anyone or be near anyone. Since the video I have been hassled and put down by people. But I've just gotten to the point where I'm too tired to care. I'm tired of all of this! I'm tired of going along with everyone's expectation of me. If they don't like the way I take shit then they can go to hell! Ian still keeps a close watch on me, but he doesn't acknowledge me. Which irks me even more. I find it unsettling that he's not saying anything to me or acknowledging the fact that I exist! Or maybe he's feeling pity for me, since that video. I try to come off as I'm strong enough to get through this shit. But I'm not! He's probably feeling sorry for me, remorse for me. Which sickens me, the last thing I want is pity from the likes of him! Now he knows, now he knows that I'm not handling this well. Now he knows how scared and messed up I am from all of this!