Roses's Dark Knight

Lucian

Here goes nothing. I have postponed this for as long as I could. I have so many things going through my mind at this point. That it is a whole lot more interesting than reality.

One small detail. I think it is better if I just give her the file and let her read. Maybe add in some details I know that are not written.

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„Love, I have to tell you something.” Here goes nothing.

„Yes. Do tell what have you been keeping from me?” Rose said, but it only made me feel worse for keeping it from her for so long. Never mind the reason why, because I could not tell her someone was keeping an eye on her and her family. Even if it was not on my orders.

„Here, this file has information about your father.” I keep my eyes on the file. I cannot hold her gaze now. I can feel in the bond that she is upset, scared and angry. Just what I needed, mixed emotions.

„Thank you!” Rose has something in her voice. This might be the most emotionless I have ever heard her.

„Do you want me here or should I go … and hit my head repeatedly on the wall?” sarcasm? Is that the only thing you can do Lucian? And talk to yourself? That is what you ended up?

„Hmm? Sorry. I was distracted. What did you say?” Rose said, looking at me, searching for my eyes.

„I was asking if you wanted me here with you while you read that file.” I tell Rose.

„Yes. Of course. Even if I might hit you after for not telling me sooner. Or I might even challenge the wall to a duel to see who can hit you first.” Rose was smiling, that I take as a good sigh.

„I do adore you!” I whisper to her.

„Sorry? I didn’t catch that. Can you repeat please?” her smile was full on, eyes filled with mischief.

I hugged her. And got comfortable on the couch, lifting her from her position and placing her in my arms. She giggled and kissed me short on the lips. I hugged her tight and placed my head on her shoulder.

Roe leaned on me, pressed her cheek to mine and started reading.

Rose

The file contained very little information if you ask me. His name is Vladimir Friedrich, he is a powerful conjurer, or at least he was until he got bit by a vampire and now is under their guard. Nothing is known of him since 1780 when he got turned. He resurfaced in the year 1970 when he found his mate. His mate is unknown but the surrogate human for their child is named Maria.

„Do you have one on me?” I had to ask Lucian about him keeping a file about me.

„Rose, please understand that it is not me. They have files on everyone. To keep information updated …” I tell her without conviction.

„I understand. It is part of being able to know what happens with everyone. If they are left unchecked the chaos can rein.” I understand, but it still doesn’t make it less painful.

„You have spoken like a true queen.” Lucian is tense. I think he is waiting on my thoughts.

I have no idea how I should feel. I mean now I know what my father is. And a possible reason to why he left me. But concerning my mother, I am left speechless and feeling like a failure.

„He is a conjurer. Is that like a witch or a magician?” I really do need to learn more about the world I am living in.

Wonder if there are fast courses that teach you how to be a queen to the supernatural world. Guess I need to dust the old books and start learning.

„Something like that…” Lucian chuckled.

„Can I meet him? I mean, does he even know I exist?!” I am starting to panic, thinking of different scenarios.

„I am not sure. He is very old. I am sure he knows, or kept track of you.” Lucian answers me sincerely.

„Lucian?” I wonder if he has some information on my mother. Surely she is not unknown.

„Yes darlin.” I turned around so I could see him, one of my hands resting on his chest.

„Do you have more information about my real mother?” I ask him with tears pooling at my eyes. But I refuse to cry. No more. I want to become strong and be a good queen.

„No love. I am sorry.” He answers but I feel like there is something he is not telling me.

With everything that has happened, I am not sure how I am even capable of crying any more. I haven’t cried this much in forever. Not even when I was a kid.

„Listen, I can teach you everything you need to know. I can show you. You are already behaving like a queen … but about your parents, I think it is best to talk to Vladimir. That is when you feel you are ready.” Lucian is whispering sweet words to me to help me calm down.

„Yeah, sure, like a queen. Tell me which one behaves like me? I am not meant to be one. You should find one that is suitable for the part.” I really do feel miserable right now. Like I am not worthy. Not good enough.

Not sure what made him beast out. But I can guess. And it was not my crying. Sometimes his beast can make me feel better than he can. There is something to be said about being simple, about how you show someone you care.

„Rose. Mine. Only Rose.” He looked at me with his dark eyes. But I could feel everything he wanted me to feel. Confidence. Love. Protection.

„I know big guy. But what if I make mistakes … and … start wars … and say stupid things …” I tell him.

„Rose. Stop.” The Lucian that is beast is made to protect, to kill.

„Why do you beast out when I feel scared?” I ask him.

„Protect. Mate.” Were the last word before he started to turn back into Lucian.

„Hey …” I say softly to Lucian.

Lucian looked at me and kissed me, turned me completely so I was straddling him.

„Love. When I beast out it is because from our bond, I get fear and negative feelings. You are so much to me. Words are not enough. The fact that you question yourself before making important decisions means that you are made to be queen. You have a good heart. You are stronger than you think. Just need to tap in that knowledge … everything else you have me. Step by step you will learn everything needed. There is no reason to be afraid of failure.” He is right, Lucian is right. I just have a hard time believing in myself.

„What next?” I ask Lucian

„Well, you can decide if you want to meet your father or not? Or maybe I can prepare a nice bath and enjoy it together? Wink, wink if you know what I mean.” Lucian says with a smile and winking at me.

„Do you ever think of other stuff than wink, wink?” I hit him playfully in the arm.

„We have plenty of time for serious things.” He speaks.

„A bath sounds nice. And with you even better.” I smile back at him and follow him to the bathroom.