Roses's Dark Knight

Rose

I know I should be upset. Maybe even yell at him. I mean he did keep important information from me. But is he the only one to blame? We have been together for a short amount of time. Even if the mate bond is strong, and we completed the mating. But there are so many things we don’t know about each-other.

Many things I don’t know about him.

„You are a King?” I must admit it I might have seen that one coming. Even if you are blind, there must be some kind of council to keep everything organised and hidden from humans. And him being the only demon-hybrid that we know of.

„Yes?” he asked me, eyes filled with all emotions from fear to sadness.

„Lucian, you know how I feel. I mean you can sometimes hear my thoughts. Stop being afraid you might lose me. I am not going away. Sorry but you are stuck with me as your mate forever.” I tell him a little annoyed but with love for him in my voice.

Lucian smiled, and breathed in relief.

„I am, I mean I was supposed to be a king after my father. I just postponed them until I found my mate.” He was ashamed because he could not look me in the eyes.

„Look at me babe.” He raised his chin and looked at me, pleading me not to scold him.

„Why did you choose to leave?” I can think of only one thing to say, but it is best I don’t make him feel worse than he already feels.

„I was angry at Fate. Angry because I saw my parents every day, and what they have as mates. And I wanted that too. Because it felt unfair to just mate with someone random chosen for me because it is the right thing to do.” Lucian tells me.

Lucian was looking at me. And for lack of words, I was stunned because there was a chance. A big chance that I would have not met him.

„If you were king now. You were going to have someone else as your mate?” I had to add salt to my aching heart.

„Love, look at me. No teary eyes. Because I am not. I choose you.” I felt him start to panic through our bond. I feel that this is not going to end well.

„NO. Stop touching me. Just stop.” The last two words left my lips as soft sobs. I was crying.

I never thought I would cry so much. But here I am. A mess because there was a chance that he would not be mine. I don’t even think that is a reason. But considering what I have been through this summer and it has not ended yet. That I am allowed to feel and act like this.

To just cry and let it all out.

„I am here with you. I CHOOSE YOU! What is there to say. I rejected every girl my parents suggested. And all for you!” he was growing in size, yelling and his eyes were changing colour. His eyes were black now, his beast is out.

My eyes are filled with tears and I look at him through clouded eyes.

Lucians’ beast cups my cheeks gently. It is hard to believe that such a large, primal and powerful beast is capable of such gentle things. I guess this is one example of the mate bond, the magic of the mate bond.

„Mine.” He whispers, so not to scare me. Or to make me stop crying and pay attention to him.

I am just looking at him as he wipes my tear-stained cheeks with the pad of his thumbs.

„Love.” He whispers again, blowing slowly on my face.

I just look at him. Not sure what he wants to say.

„Feel me mate.” He speaks.

Still not sure. Not sure what he wants me to do or say. But my mind drifts to naughty things.

He slowly and gently takes my hand and places it on his chest above his heart. He scoots down to look me in the eyes from the same level.

„Heart. Your.” He is gentle and wants to tell me how much he loves me and cares for me. It is funny how Lucian being so articulate can’t express this, and his primal beast can do it so wonderfully.

He means to say that his heart is mine.

„Lucian, I am sorry.” I look down, ashamed. That I started a fight with no reason. Now that I am calm, I can see.

„I am scared. Just like you. Scared to lose you. There are so many that failed me. My own father abandoned me. Didn’t even care to know if I am alive or not.” I tell Lucian what is on my heart.

When I lifted my gaze. There was Lucian, not his beast. He was looking at me with so much love in his eyes.

„We could look for him. If you want to do that. And find out who he is. Or contact him. That is if you want to do that.” Lucian tells me with a soft voice, like he is talking to a scared child.

Lucian was waiting for me to answer but my stomach answered for me.

„Hungry?” he asks with a smile.

I was looking sheepishly at him. He knows if I am hungry, I eat. I mean I like to eat even if I am not hungry. Because if I smell food my mouth just waters instantly.

„Do you have to ask?” I look at him, smiling with my eyes.

„How about we go out? On a date, darlin? Anywhere you like!” Lucian tells me.

„Really? Anywhere?” I am starting to get excited about this.

Lucian is smiling and tracing patterns on my hand that is still on his chest.

„I have no idea, Lucian. No clue. My mind is blank.” I admit to him.

„Ok then. Let it be a surprise. Get dressed.” He tells me.

Lucian

I am thinking of taking her to a restaurant. Not too fancy. I know she is self-conscious about these things. But that is not the important thing.

I do have to tell her about us following in line of the throne before it gets ugly. Ugly as in war.

I hope she does not hate me because I think I know who her father is. Baldur has a file on her father and on her. I just need to find a way to tell her. I keep waiting for the right time but keep getting cold feet.

Humans have a saying, that it is better to just rip the band aid rather than delay the pain. And I plan on talking at the restaurant, where there are no distractions.

No distractions as in I want to tear her clothes of and please her over and over. Her moans and the way she screams my name. Down boy, there are more things to enjoy with our mate. We have eternity to please her in bed.