One Sided Love

Kate

'Kate 'well done kate ... it need some attention but you improve this piece of work more' my boss praise me

I replied im happy to do this work...if you want anything else im here'

He said ' no you go n have rest...n say hi to Aria'

I replied ' I will'

Luckily they offer day care facility ...one of the reason I like this job more...

I picked sleeping Aria from day care...she is becoming really tired with this schedule...but we both are managing... I look the time...I have 10 minutes to reach the bus stand... I always reach at nick of a time...n now im carrying Aria ..I don't know I will reach there on time or not.... I was walking n luckily I reach the stand before bus ...I sat for a moment n catch a breath... then I saw a black BMW stop at the stand... I ignore that but when I saw who was getting out of the car... I was stunned it was Alex...fuck....what he is doing here.. Alex said Kate...come with me im gonna drop me'

I replied no thanks...but how do you know I was here'

He run his hand on his hair n said...' I asked shawn about your apartment address but he told me you're going to be here...so I found you here...please kate I want to talk about something...please let me drop you'

I give him a look' what else is there to talk...wait you're really here to talk about divorce n prenuptial agreement'

He shake his nod 'NO...kate..no I never think about this but..please come..im taking you to your apartment not home ok.... I just want to talk n then you will decide'

What decide n what talk...

I looked at the watch bus was late n its getting late....I said ' ok but if you say something which disturb me n Aria im going to kick you out'

He give me a sad smile' well I deserves that but I won't say anything like that'

I try to stand but I was holding Aria which makes difficult for me to stand... Alex came n said ' Give her to me..I will hold her...'

When he bend to take her I hold her firmly n Alex eyes become sad by my action 'I know kate you have no reason to trust me with her but I swear on Emma im trying to change things for good that involved Aria too'

I lose my grip n hold Aria...n for the first time seeing them together bring back my emotions...he gently put her in her car seat n we drove towards my apartment.

Alex

Fuck it was more difficult to say anything...because honestly I feel so shame on myself...that what I did.... I parked near Kate apartment... we both get out of the car... kate went to picked Aria but I told her to open the door...I will hold her...she reluctantly say yes... I hold Aria...I found her to be very tired cause never open her eyes in whole drive...I kissed her forehead...n feel...for the first time love for her...I truly hurt her more ...a little child should not ever treated like this by her father... when we reached her apartment...or I say a tiny room.... my jaw tick...but its my fault...

Kate said' let me turned this sofa into bed then we are going to talk'

Fuck they don't even have bed....no...they will have... they will not stay here any more... kate was busy turning the bed... n then Aria lifted her head n have a confused expression ..she looks at my face n then again n said ' Daddy...mama daddy is here'

I smiled at her 'yeah babay..im here... n...

I was about to say sorry but kate came took her from my hand

Kate said ' Daddy n I are going to talk you can sleep a little then we will prepare dinner ok..'

Aria nodded her sleepy head n fall asleep.

Kate n I sit in the small kitchen of here. .kate gives me the coffee n sit

I said ' Thanks....so you live here?

'n what's wrong here...'

'kate its so tiny...I mean our store room is bigger than this'

She replied 'Well Aria n I have no problem here ...so what you want to talk about'

I take a breath n said ' im sorry...Im so sorry for everything.... today Helen come in my office n told me it was Max who pushed Emma....actually Max wanted to push Aria ...but when she told me I left everything n try to find you...Kate I know I don't have words to describe how sorry im but please forgive me n come back'

Kate replied 'I told you listen to her once Alex...for one once....but you were believing more into logic's than your own daughter... I can't you have hurt Aria very much'

I picked her hand' im going to say sorry to her too... im going to accept her...n love her very much Kate...just give me a chance'

Kate shake her head' no...no Alex ..I can't trust you..you say now you will accept her...but after sometimes something will happen n then you will treat Aria n me like Shit...no... I can't repeat all of this...'

I desperately picked her face n say ' kate im not lying...I have these feelings from very start of all of this but im arrogant enough to accept that....Kate I start feeling for you too long time aga n now im going to say that I have fallen..

'no Alex...don't say that...I know you want me home ..but you're bringing this thing is not right...'

I replied' ok ..ok I will not say this right now but one day I will...but kate..

She said 'I can't come home until n unless im trust you enough that you truly want me n Aria ...'

I put my head in my head...its more difficult than I imagine...

I said ' ok... I will do anything do gain your trust n your love.... but kate...I will come daily meet you n spend some time with Aria...n I will try to be a best father to her'

Kate think a little 'you can talk to Aria tomorrow...not right now...you can come here at this time...n ...if its ok can please bring Emma with you'

I replied ' of course...I will...n kate...please take your kate...I don't like it when you take the bus...its dangerous too...please take the car'

She replied ' no I will not... n im ok with bus...n no more arguments on this'

I sighs' ok whatever you say.... I will go na ...emma is, waiting...take care'

She come to door' bye Alex'

I stopped for a moment n I kissed her hard n passionately... we both remove her face n I said 'I missed you so much kate...I have to do this other wise I dont know how to go from here'

She doesn't say anything n nor did I ..n I left.

Kate

I was waiting for the bus,again n now,emma is awake then I saw Alex car n Emma coming out from the car...she run n hug me ...my eyes started to tear up n I hold her' Emma... oh...god I miss you so much' Emma said ' me too mama but daddy say I can live with you today..its so fun na'

I emotionally nodded at her n saw Alex ... I said' I thought you coming home'

He replied 'well if you're not taking car than im going to pick up daily'

I said 'Alex seriously there is no need..I can

He cut me' no I will do it still'

Then he looked passed me ... his expression changed to emotional n guilty he said ' Aria...hi..how are you'

Aria slowly picked my hand n look down n said ' good daddy'

He nodded n said ok let's go everyone'

When we reached my apartment... I saw Alex was holding some stuff..

He looked n said 'I thought to bring some dinner too'

I replied ' Alex I can cook dinner you know that'

He smiled 'n I missed that too much but you're tired so I thought to bring something'

I replied' there is no need but still thank you'

I was in the kitchen putting food n emma was with me chatting about her school ... Aria was in the living room watching cartoons on laptop... then I saw Alex' kate...can I talk to Aria? I hope you have told her'

I nodded 'I did but be careful she is little ...upset n afraid so'

His flinched n nodded..

Alex

I saw Aria was sitting n watching

cartoons on laptop...hell there's no tv here too..I shake my head ..n sit with my daughter. It feels so good to say that.. I saw Aria becomes tense when she saw I sit with her.. n my eye's tear up...fuck what did do with

her.... I said' Aria..so with

doing?'

She looked down n said ' cartoons'

I replied' oh good..n these once are your favorite I remember'

She nodded...fuck how should I start.

I said 'Aria can I talk to you'

She looked me with my blue eyes n said ok

I said you know daddy is so sorry to yell at you n then broke doll ..n

I saw Aria shake her body...she is still scared of me... I said ' hey... im sorry...don't be scared...come here..sit on my lap'

I picked her n put her on my lap ....

kissed her hair which smell with sweet fruit shampoo n she looked me with her big blue eyes ... I kissed her cheeks none tear fall from ...my eyes.. She is so innocent n beautiful n I hurt her so much...I can't stopped myself to hug her small bodyn kissed her head n cheeks its like immaking up for all the time I ignored her... but I know I lost the time become of my stupidity...I said ' I know it was max n he pushed Aria not you...n I m so sorry...so sorry not listening you....please forgive me Aria...please forgive daddy...'

N my face were fully covered with tears...

Aria bring her small hand...n remove my tears n said ' its ok daddy...don't cry...I don't like it ... mama says to forgive some one if he say sorry so I forgive you...

I hugged her tightly n said ' Aria im,sorry for everything.... I know I wasn't a good daddy to you but I will from now....cause daddy love you so much...I can't even tell you...how much you mean to me' Aria smiled n said 'I love you too daddy...so so so much'

I kissed her cheeks n she kissed mine n she said ' can we go home now daddy If you're not angry with me'

N it was like gut wrenching moment

...she thinks she is not home

because im angry.. I said 'I want you to come home right now but you're mama need some time...she is little upset so I have to make her happy will you help me in that'

She make a o face n said ' daddy I will help you...then we will go home'

I smiled 'yes n I will give world to you n mama'¶¶¶¶¶¶¶¶¶¶