Nothing

I've been in River's room for two days straight yet he never let me leave. He said something about his wolf spending time with me. I didn't believe that crap. There was something he wasn't telling me

I watched as he moved from one end of the room to another running his fingers vigorously through his hair. I was right. Something wasnt right

"Could you stop pacing . Your making my head hurt"I whispered as I smiled

He stopped instantly and walked towards me . He took my hand into his and rubbed his thumb on the back of my palm

"I'm sorry"

"Whats not happening. You look tensed and stressed"

"I need to introduce you to the pack"he said and that made my eyes go wide

I pulled my hand away from his and moved back. I wasn't ready for this. I cant be a Luna . I have so much baggage with me that I was as sure as hell that it would bring the pack down

"I need more time"

"Natalia there is no time and you know it"

"River"

"I wont rush you into doing something you don't want to do"he sighed but I knew he wasnt happy. He didn't want to pressure me but I was sure his wolf wanted something different

"I'll do it. I'll accept being your Luna if that will make you happy"

"Natalia"

"You've done so much for me River . Its the least that I can do"

He gave me a heartwarmimg smile and placed his lips on my cheek giving me a lingering kiss before pulling away.

"I'll get someone to help you get ready"he smiled before leaving the room

I sighed. I really needed to get enough sleep but I knew very well I couldn't. Everytime I closed my eyes all the heartbreaking memories would come through.

I want to be ok. I need to be ok. Life has literally given me a clean slate and a new start so I have to bbe ok.

I am ok . I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok. I am ok . I am ok. I am ok. I am ok.

I need to be happy. I am happy.

I stripped off my clothes and walked straight into the shower. I let the water run as I simply stood. I couldn't move or do anything.

My mind went blank for a minute or two and then the floodgates decided to open.

Fuck

I sank down to my knees and just let it happen. It was of no use to hold it in. I'm human for heavens sake. I'm allowed to cry.

The door to the bathroom was suddenly banged repeatedly.

"Natalia,are you ok in there"

It was River. I remained silent hoping he'd just go away

"I can feel your distress through the bond love so open the door"

That made my heart break

"I love you Natalia, got that, so open the damn door or I'll break it open.

I didn't move and soon splinters of the door were all over the room.

He actually broke the door.

He broke the damn door.

Our eyes locked and his softened instantly.

"Atalia"he whispered. He's never called me that.

He instantly took me into his arms not minding the shower that was on and held me tight.

"I'm sorry. It all suddenly came rushing in and I tried to be strong but t....."

"I'm here now "

"Your clothes are getting wet you should leave"

"I'll get other clothes but I cant get another you so no. Not until you are done crying"he smiled

We stayed there for what felt like an eternity until a knock sounded

"Must be the team"he grunted

"I'm scared"I whispered

"Thats why you have me"

"Promise me you wont give up on me"

"I promose little mate . Now lets get you all readied up. You have a pack to meet"