My Secret Love

The week flew past on wings while I barely noticed. Its Friday, my birthday. Logan and I are closer than ever and my mind is a never ending loop of is he or isn't he my mate. I hear it in my sleep and every waking minute in every corner of my mind. It's driving me crazy!

My parents are planning a big party for my birthday after school. I will turn 18 before we leave from school so I should have the answer. My stomach clenches with apprehension just thinking about it. I keep thinking No I will not drive myself crazy all day with this. I still have to keep my grades up. I finally found a career I can sink my teeth into, no pun intended, and I need to focus.

Even if it is Logan; he won't be 18 for another week! He will not be aware he is the one and I will have to go through another agonizing week waiting to catch up or have him reject me for someone else. I wish I could just jump in a time machine and find out what happens without having to live through it right now.

I get to school and walk to class. Logan follows me from my locker to his homeroom. He smiles and says "see ya later." I smile and wave at him. The day crawls painfully slow until my architecture class and I can focus on something that actually interests me. I will be so glad to graduate and never have to take History ever again! Lunch time comes around and Logan meets me at my locker, he has been making a habit out of doing so since his ex made a fool of herself there last week. I walk in and stand in line with him and Kyle.

Kyle is talking excitedly about seeing his mate this weekend and she will be starting school here next week. I tell him I will show her around and try to make her feel at home since she will be starting only a few months before school is over and will be a tough adjustment for her. He actually smiles and thanks me. Maybe I am winning him over as a friend after all.

Logan mentioned that today is my birthday and I groan, "Don't remind me, I am so stressed my stomach is in knots!" "Why, you are going to find out your mate today, it should be a happy day!" says Logan with a smile. I shake my head, "with the way things are going in my life I will be mated with the worlds only living snake shifter," I moaned. Logan grinned, "but you hate snakes." "Exactly!", I muttered. We get through lunch without the subject being brought up again and walked to Chemistry where we broke into our groups.

Logan has the hang of things now but still chooses to be with our group. He says we are entertaining! I didn't ask for details. Some things are best left unknown and unsaid.

After Chemistry I drag through my last classes until Gym. I am bench pressing with Logan spotting me when it hits. I am 18 now and the scent of a light woodsy musk drifts into my senses. My heart starts racing uncontrollably and my wolf is dancing in my head crying Mate Mate. I look up and it is coming from Logan. I inhale deeply and try to keep my face from mirroring my feelings. I know he won't be ready for another week. Logan looks at me with a puzzled expression "anything yet?" he asks. I answer "no," not wanting to let him know since he wouldn't feel anything at this point anyway. "Maybe at your party," he suggested. I shrugged.

We finished up for the school day and while we are leaving Logan smiles at me and says "See you later at the party." I smile and wave feeling a sick swirling in my stomach. This is going to be a hard secret to keep for a week!