Mistake (completed)

In the six months since I moved, I've only emailed Cadence once and that was only so she could email money transfer me the rent money at the end of every month.

I got a tons of messages from Riley bitching that I never told her I was leaving. She even demanded to know who was living at my place but that's not any of her business. When I didn't give her an answer she got mad and stopped emailing me. It was glorious.

Leon keeps in touch. He usually gives me updates on Cadence. He last email said that Cadence wasn't doing well because she accepted me and I rejected her. He says she is feeling the rejection badly. I feel horrible, I do, but if I go back I won't be able to stay away from her and I have to, for her.

He also informed me there is a guy there, André, and he's been hanging around her and he makes her pretty happy. I won't lie and say that it wasn't upsetting but that is what I wanted for her so I'm trying to be happy about it.

While here in Alaska I got a job working for a small construction company. It's a lot of fun and the guys I work with are pretty great. I even met a girl, Sandi, and she is beautiful, sweet and kind and I'm content but Diego hates her. He even tries his best to make sure when her and I are together I can't get off. It's the most frustrating thing he's done. He's succeeded more times than I'd like to admit.

Speaking of Sandi, she's supposed to be coming over today. I need to let off some steam so she can't get here soon enough.

Almost like she's been summoned. I answer the door, "Hey Sandi," I smile at her and she kisses my cheek as she enters, "hey baby" she sits down and motions for me to do the same.

I was kind of hoping we'd just fuck but whatever. She turns to face me, "So... I know we aren't exclusive but my coworkers are doing a night out with their boyfriends at the bar and I'd really like to be able to go with them. Will you go with me?" Goddess what a mess.

She looks so hopeful and she's been good to me, "Can I get back to you tomorrow?" she nods and smiles. Perfect.

Sandi says they are going Friday. She's really looking forward to it. I need to distract her.

I kiss her neck and shoulder. Fist in her hair I pull her head back and kiss her throat. I tease her, barely touching her while I slide my other hand up her shirt.

She pushes me down on the couch and straddles me. I force her bra down her torso and suck a nipple into my mouth, "mm, yes Tony..." she fists my hair in her hand and that's when the magic wears off. I can't do this.

I pick her up and dump her beside me on the couch before I get off of it. I turn and face her and she looks really upset... "I'm sorry Sandi I just can't right now". She straightens up her clothes and practically runs out the door.

I really am sorry, but I have Cadence on my mind.

..:::Cadence:::..

It's been six months since Tony left me and André walked into my life. I miss Antonio but André has been wonderful.

I wish I could say that Tony ignoring me made it easier to let André into my life, but it didn't.

André sits beside me, "Are you feeling any better?" I shake my head. Some day's the pain from Tony's rejection is manageable and other days it's not, today it's not.

We've been unofficially seeing each other for a few months. It was hard for him too. He opened up to me about two months ago, his mate had passed in a car accident a couple of years ago. My heart broke for him.

André told me he left home because he couldn't handle the looks of pitty everyone gave him all the time. He said he moved around a lot until he finally decided to settle here.

I'm grateful. I don't know what I'd be doing without him. I will admit I was terrified to tell him about Tony and the rejection, mostly because I accepted Antonio. I told André that as well, back when I was still trying to scare him away.

I liked spending time with him but tried to keep him at arms length. Usually we'd just hang out and work on his cabin trying to make it more André and less Cardel's.

I'm curled up in the fetal position hoping the pain subsides soon. André rubs my back and tries to distract me.

He's so sweet to me, "Cadence, sweetie, I would you like to go have a hot bath? It will help with relax your muscles." I nod and try to get up.

I'm struggling, reaching for something to help me but there is nothing. André grabs my arm preventing me from falling on my face. "Are you able to walk or do you need me to carry you?". He asks in a hushed tone.

"I'm ok if you help me like this, but I'll absolutely need help getting undressed." he looks a bit uncomfortable but agrees I can't do it on my own.

He's always so respectful. He promises he won't look that it makes me giggle, "we're both adults, we can handle it" I say into his shoulder when he turns me in his arms.

He chuckles at me and asks, "are you sure about that? We watch a lot of cartoons". He's right we do but that doesn't change how adult we are.

He helps brace me against the wall so he can help me shed my clothes. He hooked his thumbs into the waistband of my pants and pulled them off me. When it came time for my shirt his thumbs grazed my sides in my most sensitive spots which got a moan out of me.

He stopped pulling it up and inhaled an shakey breath. After two more slightly less shakey breaths he gets my shirt over my head and says, "Cadence I'm trying so hard to be a gentleman right noe but if you make another sound like that I'm not sure I'll be able to hold back".

Hot.

I'm sorry André, "maybe I don't want you to hold back." I face him and wrap my arms around his neck, "I think I want you to touch me all over". He shivers.

André is tall so he cups my chin and tilts my head so I'm looking at him. He licks his kissable lips and leans down and ghosts a kiss on my lips before he says, "we don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with". Awe he's so sweet.

I'm now in the amazing bath he ran for me when he strips off his shirt and pants. Wow... He's an inked God among men. Then he looses the boxer briefs. It's a damn good thing I'm already sitting down.

Almost immediately after he gets in the tub with me he starts rubbing my calves and my feet, it feels so good. Pleasure rushes through my veins, my eyes snap to his, "oooh my Goddess, why does that feel so good?" André chuckles, "my mate was a massage therapist and she showed me many helpful things about the human body". I moan, unable to stop myself.

I am putty in his magic hands. I'm breathless as an orgasm rocks through me. How? He's incredible. André gets up and motions for my to scoot forwards. I'm confused but do it.

He sits behind me and starts to rub my neck and shoulders. All coherent thought has left me. Oh my Goddess.

Before I know it André had me on the brink again. How is he so good at this?

I lean back against his perfect, tattooed torso, resting my head on his shoulder. He wraps his arms around me and whispers in my ear, "maybe we should get out before we fall asleep." I sleepily agree. André wraps me and then himself in a towel and helps me back to my my room.

He leaves me to get dressed. When he comes back he kisses my forehead and says goodbye. I don't want to be alone, I grab his hand stopping him from leaving.

He looks confused, "please André, don't go." he hops over me and tucks us in. He enveloped me in his arms and scent and closes his eyes.

The handsome André falls asleep before me. I lay awake my head on André's chest annoyed because he is so wonderful and I can't stop thinking about Antonio.

Does Antonio think of me? Does he feel the pain too? Does he wish I was there with him or he was here with me?