Madilynne

Madilynne's P.O.V

Standing in front of the foggy mirror, the mist dancing across my skin as Kade showered I looked at myself. My gaze fell on Kade’s mark, the golden pattern swirling and trailing off behind my shoulder, then moving to the bruise that sat on my cheek. Instantly sending me into a flashback of the memory. Clenching my fists I slammed them on the counter in front of me. I should’ve fought harder. Anything. I could have saved her if I tried harder.

“You did what you could Madi, you were chained to a wall with silver-lined cuffs. You and your wolf both were completely immobilized. This is his fault, not yours.” Kade’s voice came from behind as he wrapped his arms around my waist, the sparks sending a shiver down my spine and cooling my rage.

‘He’s right. After healing everyone, combined with the silver we didn’t stand a chance.’ Willow’s voice floated in my mind.

“It isn’t fair Kade, we just got her back.” I broke down, the gravity of the loss of my friend finally hitting me.

“I know.” Kade soothed as he kissed the top of my head while I sobbed.

“I’d like to go see Mya now.” I spoke through sniffles.

“As long as you promise not to heal her suffering, you aren’t strong enough yet.” Nodding my head absentmindedly, my thoughts drifted off to Mya.

I soon found myself wandering through the kitchen and out the back door, the weather unforgiving as rain and thunder boomed outside. In the distance I spotted Mya sparring by herself, deciding to join her I jogged over to her.

“Need a partner?” I asked as the rain poured over us. Drenching my once dry clothing.

Mya nodded and took an offensive position and I, a defensive. We started sparring, I could tell Mya’s emotions were getting the best of her as I dodged her angry punches. “Let it out, I know you’re pissed off and hurting.” I shouted as the rain beat down and Mya’s punches were coming in more unforgiving. “Why didn’t you save her!” Mya shouted. Punch after punch, I kept deflecting. Her advances starting to slow, collapsing to her knees she wept “I.. It hurts so bad. I didn’t get enough time with her, she died not knowing how it felt to be loved.”

My hands started to glow and in the distance, I could see Kade running towards me shouting in my head not to do it.

‘Madi don’t!’

‘We have to help her.’ Willow coaxed.

‘I have too.’ I whispered to Kade as my hands landed on Mya's shoulders. I watched as panic raced across his handsome face, I hated doing this to him but I couldn’t ignore this overwhelming feeling to help. My mind started to hum, a warm sensation taking over me as my eyes snapped shut.

Concentrating I tried to brace myself for the impact of losing a mate, But the feeling took me by surprise again. The pain was rooted deeply, choking out the air from my lungs. Falling to my knees, meeting Mya’s level I kept hold of her. Anger raced through my veins, soon after washing out with grief and pain. Flashes of their first moments flew by quickly, and then a sense of emptiness gripped me like a vice.

Finally letting go, I fell into Kade’s waiting embrace. ‘I’ll wake soon handsome.’ My voice in our shared link came out as a faint mumble.

Willow circled and laid down in my mind, and I drifted off into the darkness of my mind.

floating in the darkness I soon found my surroundings changing into a field. The breeze teased my senses with its cooling touch. A howl pulled me into the direction of the dark woods ahead of me. My walking pace turned into a jog, and then a sprint. Mindlessly I zipped through the trees in the direction of the howl as the branches scratched along my skin.

The Forrest falling silent, as I came to a stop at a clearing.

I watched as a grey wolf padded its way out of the woods towards me. My feet carried me towards the wolf, reaching it, its grey eyes swirled with contempt. ‘Why didn’t you save me?’

‘I tried to Katie, I fought so damn hard.. I miss you.’ I voiced as tears trailed down my cheeks.

Katie let out a mournful howl that pierced through the Forrest. Her form transforming into a Brown wolf with matted and torn flesh, its scent reeked of death. I took a hesitant step backward, ‘If I can’t have you, no one can.’ It chanted, realization striking a moment late as Miles lunged for my chest. I screamed as his wolf tore into my chest.

Jolting awake screaming, I clutched my chest where the wolf was ripping my heart out. My breaths were uneven and sporadic. “Woah, you’re okay! What the hell was that?” Kade’s hands flew to my shoulders to calm my nerves.

“Fuck that was intense, how long this time?” I asked dodging his question.

“4 hours this time, you’ve got to stop doing this to me love.” Guilt washed over me as he said that, but I had to do it for Katie.

“How’s Mya?” Kade sighed, he knew what I was doing.

“Better.” His tone was cold, I could feel his disappointment at my actions pouring into our shared bond.

A deep sigh left my lips “I had to Kade, for Katie.”

Getting up from the bed I left the room to clear my head.

Shifting into my wolf was becoming easier every time I shifted, it was like slipping into a favorite pair of leggings. I fell to the back of my mind as Willow took control, letting go of my worries and pain. I just need a moment to breathe.

‘Madi!’ Kade’s worried voice floated through my head.

‘Yeah?’ I replied, confused at his tone. Why was he so worried?

‘I’ve been trying to reach you for hours but you put a block up, we caught a rogue scent on the north border. You need to return home.’

Hours? How the hell, Damnit willow.

Willow gave me control back, but instead of heading home I bolted to the north border.