Love You Or Hate You, I Can't Decide, Book2

Episode-78 "I can't love her"

Ernest's POV:

Evelyn said as Aaron was talking her out, "

BIG BROTHER!!! If close your eyes, and think about love... you see Celeste or Isabella... think about happiness... you see Celeste or Isabella.... do you fear losing her?... do you fear you will be left alone when you don't have Celeste?" no! this is not true... Evelyn is just a child, she is immature.. her words are

not true...

I banged my hand on

the table in anger and frustration, I supported myself as I rested both of my

hands on the table, I closed my eyes and Evelyn's words are ringing in my mind...

I don't love Celeste... she is no special to be... I hate her... I got her here so I can destroy her.

"think

about love?" the only face came in my mind was Celeste... she was smiling...

"think

about happiness".... I saw Celeste...

I opened my eyes

in shock.. no!!, I don't love her!!!.... I don't.... this is not true.. I only

love Isabella... I feel my eyes tearing, anger rising in my vein... how can I do this to myself and Isabella?... how can I love someone else?... I don't love

Celeste... I can't lover her!!!.... I can't!!!!!!!...........

Few hours later,

It's been

hours.. it's midnight to be exact... I said to myself again, "I don't love

her...." I somehow made it to my room, I

walked in and stood in front of the picture.... I looked at Isabella in the picture and said to myself, "I don't know... I really don't.... but there is one thing... I really don't feel as lonely as before... like the missing part is in me again... I really don't know Isabella... I really don't..." I searched for the cigar and I found it in one of the cabinet.. I light it up and smoked it...

I looked at the

picture and I don't feel the same way as before... before this girl showed up.... I am not sure... it doesn't matter if she loves me or not... or I love her or not....

she has to stay here with me.. forever...

I can't even

understand myself, it's like I can't bother to see her away, like I can't tolerate rejection from Celeste... this is going all messed up... something is wrong with my mind.... Celeste you have to stay with me till the very end....

I looked at the

bed, I see her sleeping on it peacefully... I got close to her sleeping figure... I can see traces of tears on her cheeks... I couldn't help but touch her hairs.. I caressed her head... I smirked, I wanted to kill her at that moment when I

discovered that she was his daughter... but I didn't.... I couldn't... and now I am showing affection to her?... what is wrong with me....

Aarons' POV:

I stopped my car at Evelyn's place... I was

angry the way she talked to brother... She was fuming in anger too.. I said,

"don't speak to brother like that...."

She looked at me and

said, "Aaron are you nuts?... both you and Alexis supported this hate... didn't

you realized that the hate was overpowering his feelings... he has something for

that girl in his heart.... he is just angry..." I know.. I know it very well..

brother Ernest... has soften since Senior came in our life...

I said, "Look.. we

know this... the day we went to the gold smuggler... brother killed the smuggler because he asked for Senior... we didn't plan on killing just scaring... but

brother lost it... he even called her

Isabella that day...." She looked at me in disbelief...

I explained, "Cherry, I and Aaron know it....

but we know brother won't take her in... just that she happens to be Reef

Millar's daughter, brother took her as his... we though at least hate was there..."