In My Desperate Time

“Yes! I’m fucking sick!”
Frances Louis slaps his hand on the steering wheel, then steps on the gas and drives the car forward.
The scene out of the window keeps changing. I look at the meter, 120 mph.
This is the city. Frances Louis is not sick, he is mad!
I see Frances Louis almost hit passing cars several times, but he avoids them.
I feel like sitting on a roller coaster. Finally, he stops outside the city hospital.
“Since you want to be with him, go ahead!”
Frances Louis opens the door, and says to me with a cold face.
“Well, I will go. Nobody likes to stay with you!”
I get off and slam the door.
Frances Louis starts the car and drives away.
“Frances Louis, you son of a bitch! Fuck off!”
I make a face to his car.
Then the loss and hopelessness rush over me.
I am not worried about Noah Jefferson, because his mother is taking care of him. Regarding his mother’s bad attitude towards
me, I can’t go in there to face her. Now I have a fight with Frances Louis, I can’t go back to Louis's house.
All of a sudden, I become a vagrant again, not knowing where to go.
That's when Mindy Sue shows up, and when I see her, I feel like she is shining like a goddess.
“Mindy, why are you here?” I rush to her.
David Gibbs stands beside her. The corners of his mouth twitch and the possessiveness in his eyes is evident.

This man is so stingy. We're both women. I won’t take her advantage.
“Watch out! Be careful of your nephew!”
Nephew?
I am stunned. Then I let go of Mindy Sue and look at her stomach.
“Are you pregnant?”
“Yes, for a month.” Mindy Sue says to me, her eyes shining with happiness.
I remember Mindy telling me earlier that she had polycystic ovary syndrome and that her chance to get pregnant is so small.
Now she is pregnant, it must be the result of David Gibbs’s hard work.
Last time I stayed at her apartment; I got a free audio porn.
“I need to spend more time with you and my nephew.” I say.
“Aren’t you living with Frances Louis? Is he willing to let you go?”
“Don’t mention that psycho! Let’s go!”
I want to hold Mindy’s arm, but David Gibbs’s eyes force me to give up.
Mindy looks at me in dismay and says, “sorry to tell you, but you couldn’t stay with me. David Gibbs is taking me abroad for a
while. He has bought plane tickets and we are leaving in the afternoon. But I can give you the key and you can live in my
apartment by yourself. If you need money, I have thousands of dollars in the purse in my wardrobe, which will support you for a
while.”
I am so touched by Mindy's words.
I am so lucky to have a friend like her when I am completely down and out.
“Thank you, Mindy, I love you!”
I couldn't hold back my love for Mindy and kiss her on the face.
David Gibbs’s face has turned black.

What a stingy guy!
Mindy notices that David Gibbs looks not well. She throws the key to me, then holds David Gibbs and leaves.
I take a taxi to Mindy's apartment. There are plenty of vegetables in the fridge, so I make a few dishes and start to eat.
My phone is on, but Frances Louis never calls.
He gets angry out of no reason. I can’t mess up with a moody man like him.
I am so upset that I couldn't sleep. I go to the balcony to get some fresh air. The long-time blowing makes me feel dizzy.
The phone rings, I pick it up with joy, then I am disappointed.
It’s not Frances Louis. It’s my mother.
I feel a little guilty because last time I drove her away without mercy. No matter what, she is my mother, who raised me up. She
must be sad for what I did to her.
But my mother’s words sweep my guilts away.
“Jane, your brother is missing. I have lost contact with him since this afternoon. Did Mr. Louis take him away?”
My mother sounds anxious. She cries while she says.
“He shouldn’t...”
I say uncertainly.
Frances Louis isn’t that kind of person who would do such mean things, but I just had a big fight with him, it is not impossible that
he would do it to take revenge on me.
“What is shouldn’t? Did you do something to make Mr. Louis angry? How could you be so selfish! Why don’t you think of your
brother? If you don’t please him, what would your brother do?”
My mother keeps blaming me. It’s not weird and I don’t want to say a word. I just feel funny, I thought she would be sad because
of my behavior. In fact, from beginning to end, her heart only has her son.

“Shut up! I will go to Frances Louis!”
I hang up the phone and take a taxi to see Frances Louis.
Standing in the doorway of Frances Louis, I feel myself like a joke.