Chapter 30
Hours later mother arrived the hospital
"Mother!!" I screamed as she pulled me in a hug. I was excited that she was here but then my eyes had been swollen with tears and I looketired and very pale too.
Hawa had gone earlier to get us something to eat.
"My darling, what happened. Hawa told me a few and Ridwan called me too. I was thinking about it all through my Journey" mother said, as she sat on the chair next to my bed. I sat straight on the bed as I looked at her, tears threatening to spill from my face.
"I lost my baby mum" I said as the tears spilled.
"My dear, I understand your tears and your anger towards everything but there is nothing that can be done really. Don't beat yourself too much" mother said as she stood to hug me.
"I don't know mum, it hurts a lot and he is to blame for everything" I said out loud angrily.
"Teslimah, this isn't anyones fault really, you and Ridwan have to eventually settle this issue. You shouldn't just blame him you know and find a way to forgive him if he wronged you that badly" mother explained but I wasn't sure if I could forgive him just yet. It was hard, it was really hard.
"Mother, he locks me at home, he changed my sim card, monitors everywhere that I go to and so overprotective and insecure that he hurts me doing it. I have endured enough mother, I don't think I can anymore. I just want to leave" I explained.
"Are you sure that's what you want?" Mother questioned.
"You two can still have a conversation about it you know" mother added.
"I am sure mum, we could but maybe not now. Maybe what we need now is that space to figure out what is actually going on. I still Love Ridwan a lot mom, but it isn't going to work like this. I am hurting." I explained.
"I thought marriage was a whole different thing from what I am experiencing. I am not happy mum. Ridwan isn't the man I fell in love with anymore, he has really changed alot and it's affecting every aspect of our marriage" I continued.
"If it's time you need then you will have all of it. I just want you to be happy because darling, you deserve it" mother said
"Thanks mum"
Mother being here had lightened my day up a bit, I wasn't thinking so much about the baby I had lost and how Terrible my life had been and was probably still going to be. I just wanted to be with mother and talk all day long.
my phone started to ring then I looked to the side to see that it was Ridwan, mother looked at me as she glanced at the phone.
"Are you not going to talk to him at all" mother inquired.
"I don't want to mum, I really just want to sleep" I said then turned to the other side to sleep.
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