Her Freezing Heart

I couldn't wipe the smile off of my face. She likes me. I don't understand how we got here but I don't want to let go. I never thought I would be holding her like this or become upset on the idea of losing her. She is just perfect. After my whore of a mate, I had lost the will to love or I just couldn't because of her. After she died, I thought it will be better but it wasn't. The pain was still there and always raw. Sleeping around did help me a little but it could only help to a certain extent.

Last night though, I didn't even once thought about her. The only thought and feeling I had was 'how beautiful this girl under me is'. When she healed me, I knew I won't be letting go of her without a fight but only if she wanted to stay by my side and she did so giving her up is not even an option. My heart is set on her now. I won't give her up. The only worry I have at the moment is Austin. He is quite taken by her. What if he opposes us or comes between us? No. I won't let him steal her. I know she is not a thing but I just can't. The only way she is leaving me is if she wants to. Sorry Austin but I think I found my forever. I won't let anybody ruin this. I was startled out of my thoughts by the knocks on my bedroom door which I obviously left open.

"Do you mind coming outside?" Austin snapped. "I need to talk to you about something."

"Sure." I replied. I felt a little guilty now. "Give me a second."

I gently put Amy on the bed and pulled the blanket over her. She scrunched her nose making me laugh. I put a pillow infront of her and she snuggled into it. Cute.

"I will be right back." I said kissing her forehead.

I walked out of the room behind Austin and closed the door on the way. I don't want to disturb her. Aaron was no where to be found. He must have gone back to his apartment. The table was also clear of the empty bowl and blood bag. Austin plopped on the couch and motioned me to sit beside him. I did. He didn't speak for quite a while. He was staring staright ahead in a daze. I let him have his moment. Besides, I am scared of what is to come.

"So," He started "how does it feel like to be not having a hole in your chest?"

He was smiling at me. Now I feel like a villain.

"Great. I feel happy." I replied returning his smile.

What is he up to?

"I am happy for you." He said.

"Thanks man. She said she will heal you too once she is good." I told him.

"Yeah! That's nice of her. I didn't expect anything different from her. She is a wonderful girl." He said fidgeting. "I just want to ask you this. I know this might sound rude but I just have to ask. I mean she has been through a lot and I don't want her to get hurt again and besides her wounds are still fresh. I just..."

"Spit it out Austin."

He is confusing me now. Did I do anything wrong?

"I heard what you said to her." He started. Shit! "Don't worry I won't come between you two. I just wanted to know if you are serious about her or not? I liked her from way before and I don't want to see her getting hurt."

That took me with a little shock. He truly cares about her and here I was thinking that he will try to come between us. I feel strongly about her. I don't know where these feelings came from but I really like her. I never hated her before. I just never thought about her romantically before as Austin was my prime concern. But now it's like those feeling where deep there and they just came to life. I won't cheat on her or anything. I know this is real. I know this is happening too fast but I believe in us. I am not letting her go by doing something stupid. Besides, I don't want to hurt her. Even the thought of it pains me.

"I am serious about her Austin. It feels different this time. There is this connection between us that I haven't experienced since... since Carrina."

There I said it. He knows my mate is a touchy subject. Her name doesn't bring me pain anymore though. The only feeling it brought this time is anger. Anger about her selling herself to that monster for what? More power? Yeah she was the reason for most of my misery. What did she get out of it? He killed her the moment he was bored with her. After my coven was attacked, she was the only good thing that happened to me. I somehow escaped the attack with the help of the members of our coven to Cassidy. I didn't even had the chance to see them one last time. That monster burnt them alive and threw the ashes in the near by river. He disappeared after that. What did my mate do? She cheated on me with the same monster for power. Cassidy made me promise that I won't try to find them. The year was 1985 when I came to Cassidy all broken. I was sixteen back then in vampire years. Cassidy had to bind me with magic from tiring to go hunt that bastard down but my mate she cheated on me with him.

"I believe you Steve. Take care of her." He said patting me on the back. "I am really happy for you."

"Thanks Austin. It means a lot. Once you are healed, you will be able to move on too." I told him. "But not now okay. She is still healing. I don't want her to get more injured than she is."

"Yeah. I can understand. I am looking forward to being free." Austin said. "You don't have to feel guilty about anything. I heard you talking to her about me liking her. You didn't come between us or anything. We were never together to begin with."

I smiled at him gratefully. He has been by my side for forever and I doubted him. I feel ashamed of myself. I will make it upto him one way or another.