DRAMA NOVEL ONLINE Chapter My CEO 260
260 That Escalated Quickly
(Jayden)
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"A hall pass?" I repeat, feeling my voice catch in my throat like I've been punched.
She stops pacing, turning to face me with her arms crossed defensively. Her eyes are wide.
I can tell she's still way too far gone from last night, there's something dead serious behind those glassy
eyes.
"Yeah. A hall pass. I mean, if I'm really gonna marry you, I need to... you know... figure some things out."
I blink, staring at her like she just told me she's considering a career as a rodeo clown. "Is this Lisa's idea?"
"No." "Really?"
She groans, throwing her head back dramatically before letting out a loud sigh. "Jayden, I've only ever been with you! What if... what if you're like, the worst in bed and I just don't know it because I've got nothing to compare it to?" I can't help it, I snort. "I can assure you, I'm not the worst-
She cuts me off, waving her hand in the air like she's swatting away a fly. "Self-praise is no recommendation!"
Then she hiccups, followed by an awkward giggle that makes her sound like a drunk cartoon character. I watch her, half-amused, half-stunned as she continues.
"Like, for all I know," she starts, holding up her pinky finger, "you could be... down there. And I just don't know it." She wiggles her pinky for emphasis, her face scrunching up in distaste.
"Winona, seriously?"
But she's lost in her own train of thought, still holding up her pinky as if it's the punchline to a joke. "I mean, what if I'm missing out on some... some massive, life-changing experience out there because I've only ever had you?" I take a deep breath, trying to calm the rising jealousy boiling up inside me. Part of me wants to tell her she's crazy for even thinking about something like this.
yell at he
But the other part... the part of me that's been through hell with her, knows I have to stay calm. I mean, when I think about it, it does make sense.
I sigh, running a hand through my hair. "Okay, I get it. You're... confused, or whatever. But you really think some random hookup is gonna give you clarity on our entire relationship?"
Her eyes well up with tears, and before I could process what's happening, she's crying. Ugly crying. Full-blown, snot-dripping, hiccuping sobs.
"I don't know! Maybe! Maybe it'll help me figure out if I can live with you and your... your pinky dick for the rest of my life!"
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"I don't have a pinky dick!"
"How would I know?" She yells and cries some more.
I pinch the bridge of my nose, trying not to laugh at the sheer insanity of this conversation. "I can't believe this is happening right now."
She swipes at her eyes, sniffling as she tries to pull herself together. "You just... you don't understand. You've had other sex. And I love you, Jayden, I do! But what if.
She grabs my shirt front, peering up at me. "What if you're just the worst and I'm settling for, like, bottom- shelf tequila when I could be drinking top-shelf vodka? What if I never get another slice of pizza?"
I shake my head, biting back the urge to argue with her drunken logic. "Bottom-shelf tequila is half the problem here."
She snorts through her tears, a laugh escaping her. "I mean... you've never been bad, but I was young. What if someone else is like... mind-blowing?"
I raise an eyebrow. "You're seriously asking for a hall pass because you're worried I might be a bed?"
Her face scrunches up again, and she nods, tears still streaming
dud in
say you know me better than I know myself. But I don't even own her face. "Yeah... maybe. You all
"Holy Mother of God." I want to be mad, but I can't.
know myself. I might like other women..."
I sigh, stepping closer to her and taking her hand. "Winona, I get it. You've only been with me. And you're scared. But trust me, I'm not the biggest dud in the universe." I grin at her.
She hiccups again, then laughs, her tears mixing with the absurdity of the moment. "Even if you are, I'll still love you," she says, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand. "It's okay." She pats my hand.
Deep down, I know I have to give her this space. This insane, painful space. Because if I don't, the doubts will eat at her, and maybe at us. And as much as it kills me, I can't let that happen. I promised her on Henry's life I'd be at the altar, no matter what.
I mean that. If you love something let it go...
"Okay," I say quietly, my voice steady even though my insides are screaming "If you really think this will help you figure things out... then you get the hall pass.
Her eyes widen. "... I do?" Her e
I nod, swallowing hard. "Yeah. If that's what you need to be sure about us."
She stares at me, the tears still in her eyes, but there's something else there too-relief, maybe. Or maybe it's just the booze. Either way, I know I've done the right thing.
Her small laugh breaks the silence. "God, I'm such a mess," she says. "Why do you even put up with me?"
I smile, despite everything. "Because you're my mess.
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