Desire for you- ALPHA RYAN Book 1

RYAN

The time had come. Everything was prepared down to the last detail. I haven't heard from Catherine since that afternoon so far. Maya was with her briefly, but she said she was sound asleep. Catherine hadn't eaten all day and Eleonora's visions didn't make the whole issue any better.

I grabbed another tray and fixed a plate of various dishes and went up to Catherine with it.

I knocked on her door and went inside. She was still asleep. I put the tray next to her on the nightstand and gently shook her shoulder. "Mhm let me please... I'm so tired..." she mumbled to herself with her eyes closed. I had to smile and stroked her hair.

Suddenly she opened her eyes, which were red and she growled at me.

Had I frightened her? Her she-wolf looked at me and eyed me from head to toe "Don't you dare mess up this evening or I swear to you, even if you are the alpha. I will hunt you down. Everything that was done to her you will feel." she growled again, making her point very clear to me.

"I won't hurt her Rose I swear" I said and she shook her head "If you don't become a better mate right now I will kill you yet and if you don't want her then reject us and leave us alone." She hissed and she was gone again.

I would never reject her. I couldn't at all.

Catherine woke up in a daze, rubbing her temples. She said nothing to the discussion between Rose and me, however.

"I brought you something to eat. You haven't eaten all day," I said, looking at her.

She shook her head "I'm not hungry." she glared at me.

"Nothing there, open your mouth." I demanded and approached her with the filled fork so she had no chance to object. I fed her until she had eaten it all. "I can't take any more, please!" she said, biting her lower lip.

Moon goddess that lower lip.

I nodded slightly and left the fork on the tray. "Maya will come later, you can do something together, women's stuff and all. She's sympathetic, I'm sure you'll get along."

She nodded slightly and her concern was evident.

I took her face in my hands again and looked at her seriously. "No matter what happens tonight, I won't let you go," I said again. I pulled out a pocket knife from my pants pocket and made a cut in my palm. "Give me your hand," I said to her. She now looked frightened. "In our pack, we make a blood oath when we take in members," I said, taking her palm. It was more of a prick than a cut, the thought of hurting her horrified me.

I brought her hand together with mine. "I Ryan, Alpha of the Black-Moon pack do hereby declare you a member of my pack," I said and I felt her bond with that of the pack. With that, I emphasized my words.

"If they want you, they'll have to get past me first," I said. I felt the need to pull her into my arms and hug her.

Onyx rolled her eyes. 'If it was up to me, I'd have already fucked her brains out,' he said.

'Shut up.' I hissed at him.

She looked at me wordlessly. "I have to go now. I'll see you later." I said to her and made my way to the meeting room.

The room was furnished with a huge wooden table.

My people had already positioned themselves in front of the house entrance, there were several guards in the house and on our property.

I myself was wearing a black suit by Armani, my hair was done. I still rolled up my sleeves and my tattoos were revealed.

All the alphas gathered, right on time, and I greeted everyone. I led them into the meeting room and we sat down.

"Thank you for coming today," I said, grabbing a bottle of bourbon. "My captivity at Arnor was anything but nice and the wolves who were also captives there were mistreated by being whipped on a daily basis.

I advocate that we take what is ours and put an end to Arnor." Almost all of the alphas agreed with me, except for one.

It was not Alpha John. No, that was a new alpha. His successor? Was John dead?

After we had discussed everything about how we would proceed tomorrow, I led everyone to the buffet and approached the Alpha from the Crescent. "You're the new Alpha from the Crescent pack?", I asked. He turned to me and extended his hand. "Hey yeah, my name is Kilian." i shook his hand "Ryan." i said. "What happened to John?" i asked him directly. He smiled weakly and shook his head "yeah, that was one of those stories." He shrugged and downed the glass of bourbon on ex. "Must be some crazy story if you took a whole glass of bourbon straight up."

He nodded again and pulled me into a corner so everyone wouldn't hear us right away. "He was doing illegal stuff with Arnor. That's why, when I heard about the meeting, I wanted to be there.

He sent a she-wolf away from us. He played illegal games and lost a lot of money there. In return, instead of money, he gave Arnor the she-wolf he wanted. He had not told anyone, but when her family noticed her disappearance, they became restless and one girl had heard John and her talking about going there, alpha command. She told us everything and now we suspect the she-wolf is there."

I nodded slightly. I knew very well what he was talking about. After all, I had seen it in Eleonora's visions.

"We need to get the she-wolf back to us, it was said that Arnor has a mate now. We don't want her to come to harm." Kilian was serious and looked frustrated now.

"When did she disappear?", I asked him.

He thought about it and sighed "Since almost a year." he finally said. My eyes grew wide. Catherine had been in captivity for a year?

"When her father found out, he went insane and killed John when he least expected it."

"Was John your father?", I asked him and he shook his head.

"No, John doesn't have any children. I'm the son of his beta. The pack voted to leave me in charge," he said. No wonder, he was tall, well built.

"Kilian, I can trust you, right?", I asked and he nodded.

"The girl you're talking about. I freed her when I escaped." His eyes widened. "W-where is she?" he asked, frozen. "She's my mate," I said, and his mouth practically dropped open.

"S-She's your mate?" he asked, pushing his chin back up.

"Oh Okay, I wasn't expecting that now." He sat down in the chair. I crossed my arms and looked him off.

"We were best friends," he said, glaring at me.

I hope they were just best friends and not friends with certain benefits.

"I tried to find her for so long, I even sneaked into Arnor's pack to find her."

"You didn't find her because she was in the prison, which is south of the pack house, hidden in the woods," I said. Not many people knew that.

He nodded. That made sense. "Where is she now?" he asked me.

I shook my head "She is severely traumatized, just knowing you were coming she had a panic attack. She was afraid John was going to take her again and bring her back to Arnor." I said and took nenn sip of my bourbon.

"Ryan, I swear to you by the moon goddess, I'm not John. John is dead and I would never harm a hair on Cate's head.... Please let me talk to her..." he said.

"I can't even feel her. Is she-is she one of you now?" he asked me.

I nodded. "She's part of the Black Moon pack now," I said proudly.

"I just want to see that she's okay.... I'll leave her alone after that too." he said.

'Catherine?" i tried to contact her.

'Yes?

'Do you know a Kilian?

'Kilian? A tall dark blond man with a scar on his cheek?' she asked. 'Yes,' she described him in great detail.

'Y-Yes I know him ...'

'Do you want to see him?

'Isn't John there?

'John is dead, Kilian is the new Alpha.'

'Yes, I want to see him...' I was already hoping inside that she would say no.... 'Too bad.

'Asshole, you've got competition' Onyx grumbled, puffing in annoyance.

"Come with me." i nodded to Kilian and he got up from his chair and followed me up to Catherine's.

I knocked on the door and went in with him.

"Cate..." he said, walking up to her and immediately wrapping her in his arms.

"Kilian..." she murmured softly, returning his embrace.

I had never seen Catherine touch anyone until now, yet him she hugged?

"What happened to you. Oh moon goddess, Cate I will never forgive myself for not finding you sooner.... I'm so sorry for what's happening to you..." said Kilian, falling at her feet.

She shook her head and tried to pull it up. I saw tears rolling down her face. "N-No, it's not your fault-John is to blame for everything..." she said, glaring at him.

Kilian nodded "John is history, your father killed him..." said Kilian and Catherine's eyes widened. "I-You didn't banish my dad.... Didn't you?" she asked.

Kilian laughed up and shook his head "Never, dear. John deserved far more than death. Liya told us about John walking up to you that day and looking for you.... Your father, after learning what had happened, took him under his wing. Believe me, it got all ugly. As a result, we tried to find you, but the way Ryan explained it to me, you were trapped in another wing."

"God I'm so glad to see you!" He took her in his arms again and twirled her around.

I rolled my eyes and Maya just grinned at me. She was standing in the room as well, after all.

'Alpha, if you keep waiting, you're going to get your wife stolen right in front of you,' she teased me.

I gave her a nasty look and glanced out the window.

Catherine was actually smiling! Even though I had only known her for a short time, she was my rightful mate!

"It's nice that you're reunited, but Kilian and I have to go down to the others now," I said. Kilian agreed with me.

"C-can't he stay here today?", Catherine asked me.

Oh moon goddess. How can I say no...

I looked at her for a moment "Well, he can stay here for all I care. We have to leave early tomorrow morning anyway." I said, shrugging my shoulders. I just hoped Kilian was in his right mind and went to the hotel room reserved for him.

He finally nodded "If you have no objections Ryan..."

I shook my head "I'll have a room set up for you." I said and looked at Catherine emotionlessly. I turned to the door and walked out now.

"I'll see you later." said Kilian and we were already walking down the stairs.

'You dog, you blew it,' Onyx said, annoyed.

I rolled my eyes inwardly and finally we went to the group.

We all went to the armory. This time we wouldn't be fighting as wolves. We would blow up his damn pack with bombs. We prepared everything necessary so far and had still managed to get everything ready by midnight.

The alphas later adjourned to their hotel rooms. As I walked out of the armory, I heard laughter in the living room. Catherine's voice.

She was sitting on the sofa with Kilian, laughing. I had never heard her laugh since she had been here. This Kilian was doing something to her and I couldn't figure out what it was. Usually women were at my feet.

'He's doing what you can't, he's taking care of her' Onyx said and seemed very angry.

'You dumped her cold as ice boy. No wonder she won't even look you in the eye.'

I rolled my eyes. 'We'd see about that. For now, I need to focus on the war with Arnor.

I went into the living room and lowered myself onto the other sofa.

Catherine stopped laughing and looked at me. Kilian smiled at me. "Well it's getting late, I'm going to bed, we have to get up early tomorrow," he said and got up from the sofa. "Good night Cate, Ryan" He gave Catherine another kiss on the head and went upstairs.

I was speechless and watched it all happen.

"Good night.", Catherine said and looked after him.

I ran my hand over my three-day beard and watched Catherine.

"Cate?", I asked her, raising my eyebrows.

"Seems like you're having a lot of fun with him," I said with an annoyed undertone.

She glanced at me and said nothing.

"Are you sure you don't want to go with him?" I provoked her. "Apparently you get along better with him than with me."

"Stop it ... He's like a brother to me. I grew up with him." she said, glaring at me.

I laughed and shook my head. "Oh yeah, brother? You'll end up in the same bed by the looks of it."

She glared at me, stood up and slapped my face. I looked at her in amazement and held my cheek.

"You were the one who dumped me and now you're trying to judge me by claiming something from your empty brain? Sure you're an alpha or not just an asshole playing up your ego and going all macho? Maybe I really am going back with him. Damn." she said and stormed out of the room.

I now realized what I let out in the heat of the moment. "Catherine, wait! I didn't mean it like that!" I ran after her all the way into the room and she slammed the door on me.

I opened the door again and looked at her standing in the middle of the room.

I shut the door behind me, and walked closer to her.

"I'm sorry... I didn't mean that. You're right, I'm an asshole and I was jealous at that moment to see you and him so happy.

I would give anything to see you so happy..." I said and put my hand to her cheek.

She shook her head and sighed in frustration.

"I won't leave you alone, I swore.... I will always be here for you Catherine..."

She looked at me with her ice blue eyes and bit her lower lip.

I looked down at her lips and ran my index finger over them.

"Stop disfiguring your beautiful lips," I whispered, looking into her eyes again.