Chapter 8 ~ I deserve this ~
* Blaze's Pov *
She coldly laughed, "Give me this back, otherwise send me back, choose one." She wants to deal with this, but it's too sad that both of them were precious to me.
"NO love, you're more precious than my own life, but our memory is also important to me; I have only one photo, and I can't let you ruin it, right" I turned the photo frame toward her. She finally looked at the picture; I wrote the surprise all over her face, which I clearly understand.
Because she already destroyed all of our memories and everything attached to our love, I know every detail of things she did after I left her, heartbroken.
"are you trying to show me how to fool? I have once loved a bastard, " Anna screamed at me; the pain in her eyes was something that I never wanted to see, yet I was the one who gave this pain.
I raised my hand to her and tried to touch her tears, which were flowing out, but slapped my hand away and wiped her tears down her own; my heart was in pain. This girl once tried to act cute and always tried to get my attention by looking like a cute rabbit.
But now when I badly want to touch her and give her all my attention she refused me, she learned how to control her emotions, her expression, she caged my Anna's heart; even when she woke up in a strange place, she seemed very calm,
Anna knew someone had kidnapped her, yet acted, usually, but that was not her, that's not how my Anna should work, Anna should curse me for leaving her, she should show me how hurt she was, her fear, her emotions, I need to see everything.
I put the photo frame back on the table and slowly approached her.
She was still glaring at me crossing her hands over her chest; I lost it; I know I should stay patient, but I don't want to anymore because I lost enough, and I don't start catching up right now. She will strengthen the wall she created around her to stay away from me.
I dragged her in my arms and looked straight in the eyes; it was the second time I hugged her so closely, my heartbeat might already touch the sky. She was shocked and a little angry,
everything is okay with me; Anna tried to fight with me and get away from me, but how can I let her do this when I was trying to melt her in my bone and blood,
"Look at me," I said; this time, my voice was a little stern, and she was surprised once again; she didn't listen to me; she turned her face to the other side.
This time I lost it; she would instead look at an empty wall rather than my face.
I caught her chin and turned her face toward me " I want you to look at me when I talk to you because I love your eyes too much" as her face raised, her breathing fastened, and fell on my face, the hot air of her breathing lifted the fire in my heart.
Without thinking forward and behind, I claimed her lips; I know she was still not ready for me, but this was total torture for me when she was in front of me, yet an invisible wall was between us; I wanted to break that wall,
I wanted my Anna back, even if I had to force my way to her. I needed to step forward to break that wall because it was me who stepped back five years ago.
So I took the first step and kissed
her, damn I kissed her. This time it was like butterflies flying inside my stomach But she needed to break my fantasy; after all, she started struggling and punching on my chest. Still, I did not let her go hugged her closer and kissed her more roughly; I poured my loneliness, my pain, these five years of love into that kiss,
I wanted to plant them in her breath so that when she takes a breath, my love will stay on her breath, and only then will she feel how much I love
her; I devoured her lips as my most precious obsession; yeah, she is my obsession. She is my day and night; she is my peace, also my only
weakness.
My hands were in an auto touching mood, and even at first, I did not want to touch her so intimately; I started doing it because my hand was already going inside her top.
"MUH "Anna wanted to stop me, and she tried to bite me, but grabbing that chance, I slipped my tongue inside her mouth.
I wanted to devour her whole and melt her in my blood so that she would accept me, but I froze when I felt something against my cheeks; I looked at her eyes and stopped because her tears were falling and suddenly stopped struggling.
"Love" softly called her, and with that, she let out the pain she was holding in her heart with her tears.
"You bastard, let me go right now, " Anna said between her tears yet did not push me or try to move away from my arms; I also did not let her go because I wanted to melt her pain, which froze her heart too cold.
She needed to let down her guard against me and my love; only then could I warm her heart once again.
11
Shush, love, it's okay, "I tried to
coax her, but she started crying louder, "Nothing is okay, why are you back since you left long ago, then why are you back right now, why, why? Anna punched my chest, yet my heart was in pain after all her words stabbed my heart more than her light punches on my body. Yet I know I deserve this.