Betrayed by My Pack – Wolfless Hybrids Escape

Saoirse's

POV

"Babe, can we talk?" I heard Robert ask through our mate bond. I wasn't blocking him anymore so that he could contact me again. I now understood what had happened between him and Adra. I was not as upset with him as I had been. Don't get me wrong, I am still hurt, but I am

willing to hear what he says about it.

"I added you back to the palm reader on the house. I am taking a bath; you can let yourself in," I replied to him. I didn't know if he was already here or on his way, so I hurried to get out of the tub and dry myself off. I wanted to be dressed when he arrived. We needed to talk, and I didn't want to send mixed signals to him. Our discussion would let me know which direction I needed to go.

I had slipped my robe on and exited the bathroom to head to my closet when I saw that Robert was already there and sitting on the end of our bed. He looked sad. I stopped myself from going over to him to comfort him. I had to stay strong for both myself and the baby. His eyes skimmed over me, pausing at my waist like he was trying to see a baby bump. I am in the early stages of pregnancy. I won't be showing for a while.

"Were you going to tell me?" Robert asked. I could hear the hurt in his voice. He seems to forget that he hurt me a lot worse than that. He is supposed to be discussing us, not the pregnancy. I remember that he had mentioned that he had been in the observation room for the whole interview. He heard it straight from my lips that we would have a baby. I hope that his interest in me is not just for the baby.

"I hadn't decided yet. We need to have a serious talk, and I wasn't going to lead with that information," I told him.

"You were going to leave with my pup?" Robert said as he stood up and walked over to me. I wasn't worried. I knew he would not put his hands on me in anger. Even if he did, I could deal with him.

"I was going to leave for a little while to clear my head and think about what I needed to do next-seeing you would make my decisions even harder. I needed to make my choices in peace," I replied.

"I don't want you to leave. I love you, Saoirse. I don't want to live without you. I made a mistake. Please forgive me," Robert said as he pulled me in for a hug.

"I didn't want you to leave the other day, but you didn't care what I wanted you to do. You also told me that I was being paranoid and had branded Adra a stalker. I never called her a stalker. I just pointed out that suddenly, Adra was there every time we turned around. I was right in what I told you. But you trusted her more than me, your mate. You found her innocent and me guilty. Whatever she said to you, you believed. When she told you she was happy for us, you know that was a lie. I am sure you are aware of that now, right Robert?" I stated. "I was not aware of how she was. I believed what she wanted me to. I am so sorry, babe. I messed up. I was in the wrong. I trusted someone who I believed was my friend. Please, Saoirse, please find it in your heart to forgive me. I am sick over this. I will do anything to fix it," Robert pleaded as he hugged me tighter to him.

"I understand that she was your friend. But I also understand that she was more than just a friend. She flirted with you, and yet you allowed it. Even after you knew I was your mate. You allowed her to touch you, with me standing right there in front of you. What do you take me for, Robert? You have taken her side and protected her on every occasion. When Echo asked me to forgive you, to trust you, I did. I opened my heart to you and let you in. I warned you, yet you couldn't even make it a week," I told him. I could hear the sob in my voice, but I refused to look up and let him see me cry.

"I was just doing my job, baby. Please don't cry. It hurts me to see you cry," Robert tried to argue.

"I will have to ask Jaxon if betraying your mate is on the list of acceptable job duties. I doubt anyone will want to be bound to a ranked wolf if it is. You left me to go help her on numerous occasions. You say that you didn't flirt back like it is a defense for your actions. Yet you kept allowing her to flirt with you, never stopping her. I am your mate, Robert. I should be the only one flirting with you. You should support me and take my side in this, not hers. You kept defending Adra to me. I am tired of playing the part of the third party. You can go ahead and leave. I have had enough talking today," I announced.

"I didn't realize what she was doing, Saoirse. I was only trying to be there for her. She doesn't have any friends. She only had me..." Robert started to tell me.

"Yes, I got that, Robert. She only had you, and you were OK with treating her better than you did me. I don't want to discuss this anymore today, Robert. You have unlimited excuses for her and your actions," I told him. I tried to push him back away from me. He was holding me even tighter now as if I would disappear from him if he let me go. He had no idea that I could leave at any time. I was just trying to give him some respect as my mate.

"Babe, I swear you are the only woman in my heart. I have never loved or wanted Adra," Robert said softly, trying to convince me that I was the one he wanted.

"You really have a funny way of showing that Robert. When I accepted you as my mate, I told you that I couldn't, no correct that. I wouldn't go through the same thing I did with James again. Both you and Echo assured me that I had nothing to worry about. As your mate, I was important to both of you. But you showed me, didn't you, Robert? Although Echo loved me, you didn't mind going off to play the hero for Adra and her many sudden needs. Did that not throw a red flag for you? She went from seeing you once a week for dinner to calling you every night for help. Yet, if I said something about it, I was the petty and jealous one in your eyes," I said reproachfully.

"She needed me and didn't know anyone else very well. Plus, you hear Chase, they ordered me to go out there that day," Robert said, trying to shift the blame.

"Still can't admit it, can you, Robert? Well, we don't have anything else to say to each other then, do we," I replied. I was tired. I needed to get away and make some hard decisions. I didn't want to be alone for the rest of my life. I honestly thought that with Robert so excited to get me for his mate, that we would have a lifetime of love and happiness. I wanted that. I craved having a connection to him like that. To be loved for me, not as a possession like James had treated me. But I won't be alone for long. Soon, my baby will be here to take my mind off what happened.

"Babe, I love you. I know you can feel how much I love you through our bond," Robert tried again as he rubbed my arms up and down.

"The bond is not the only thing between us," I whimpered in pain. I had meant Adra. Even though she was gone now, she was still there between us. He will not admit he did anything wrong, and that hurts. Suddenly, I didn't care that I was only in a robe. He was just trying to make me fall into his arms by using the mate bond against me. I was dismayed by how this had turned out. I felt the tingles all over my arms, but I wouldn't let him distract me.

"There is only love between us, Saoirse. Please listen to me. I was so scared when I woke up in the hospital and saw that you were gone. I know you went to save Cara and her sisters, but I worried about you. You were not healed, yet you still went to help. I was glad you were back, but you broke my heart, shutting me out like you did. We need to talk through this so we can come out of this stronger than before," Robert was trying to placate me, and I was not going to play along.

"When you decide that you want to be honest with me, let me know. You can get Cara or Brenna to summon me back at that time. I think you need time to think things through as well. I will not allow you to try to gaslight me and twist things around to your narrative. I love you too, and I really thought we would live our whole lives together, but now I am not so sure. If you can't figure it out, I am sure that Echo can help you. He knew as well as I did that Adra was a two-faced liar. But that seems to be the kind of person you like. I'm sure you can find another one like her soon," I told him. His grip tightened at my warning, but I was gone the next second.

I hadn't brought Cara here to my village yet. I will one day, but for now, I need a break. I was in my home and don't feel like returning to Black Adder anytime soon. I messaged Cara and told her that I was taking a few days off and that we would resume her training here. It would be for the best, as my friends could help me train her. I am sure I will become even more tired by next month. I didn't feel drained when I was pregnant with Cara, so something odd was happening. I got into my bed with my robe on instead of getting into my pajamas for the night. No one was allowed into my home here, so I felt safe. It was already dusk, so as far as I was concerned, it was time to go to bed. I am too tired to get up and make dinner anyway. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. I just wanted to sleep. I will eat well in the morning. Then, I will visit my friend, the doctor in our village. I remember when I was pregnant with Cara, I was nowhere near this tired. That was only 23 years ago. I think everything that has happened this week was getting to me. It had been a draining week. I allowed myself to relax and drifted off to sleep.