Another Choice

(Tom)

Selina didn’t call me back since she came to see me a couple of weeks ago. Maybe I was too harsh with her.

"Just maybe?" My wolf comments sarcastically.

"Whatever!" I reply annoyed. ” If you’re speaking to only for that, you can shut your mouth."

"As you wish but I still think you should call her. We both miss her and don’t try to deny it." He says before shutting me out.

Pff, this is bullshit! I don’t need her. I don’t need anybody. The only person I need died because of her immaturity. Fuck her and her selfishness! Still, with Selina, something is different. The world is more bearable with her. She is right something in her is calling me. She makes me want to feel again...

"Told you so!” My wolf says.

"I thought you shut me out."

"Not when you recognize I’m right!" He sasses.

"So what do we do?"

"Calling her is the first stape."

"Do you think we should tell her?"

The good thing, with sharing a body and a mind with your wolf, is he always knows what you’re thinking and talking about. The bad thing is you can forget about privacy and intimacy.

"I don’t know. I think it’s bound to happen."

I sigh: ”You’re right. The sooner it’s done the better it’s."

****

I have maned up and I called her yesterday evening. We are meeting in a park close to my apartment. As I arrive in the park, she is already here sitting alone on a bench. And I’m fifteen minutes earlier.

She is wearing sunglasses and she looks lost in her thoughts. Her face is emotionless, cold. Something seems wrong. Something feels wrong. I can feel my wolf’s worries rise in me. What happened? What’s wrong?

“Selina! Hey!” I hail her.

“Hello, Tom. How are you?”

She smiles at me but I’m quite sure it’s not reaching her true emotions. Trues emotions that I could see in her eyes if they were not hidden by sunglasses.

“Selina, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing that should concern you.” She replies taking me aback.

“You know speaking about what bothers could help.”

She scoffs:” You’re the one saying that. Anyway, why should I tell as you don’t share anything with me.”

“Fair point...” I comment sitting on her right side.

"You should tell her now." My wolf whisper to me.

"I know! I just don’t know where to start."

“Do you know anything about how I lost my mate?” I ask her. Maybe Kaiden told her something. She shakes her head. So, I think I have to start from the beginning.

“As you know, I was pretty close to Noah. We grew up together and every free time we had we used to spend it together. One night where I was sleeping in our cabin near his house, I was waking up by his screams. When I asked what was wrong, he told me someone close to him was dying and he was feeling it. He was scared it was his mate, his other mate I mean, and asked to go with him. So we went... But it was not his mate. No, it was mine. She was in a car accident and she was badly hurt. I knew right there that they were nothing I could do to save her. She was bleeding too much and her wolf was already leaving her. I was ready to give up my life for her and I was there and the only thing I could do it was seeing life leaving her.”

“Why did you do?” She whispers when I stop to speak. I can see her tears flow on her cheeks.

“The only thing I could do. She was suffering and scared. So I took her in my arms to erase her pain and I stayed with her until her last breath. I didn’t want her to die alone. I needed her to know that I would have done anything for her. She has supposed to become my world but she left me before we could even fall in love. My wolf and I felt her died and I never felt something so horrible. We died with her that night. Everything became dark and numb. Nothing has sense anymore. If only I could have died this night. I can wait to be free from that existence.”

“Still you’re here with me and you never try to kill yourself. That doesn’t make any sense.” She says.

“I’m not as selfish as my mate was. I have family, friends to think about. I’m not alone!”

“Well, I don’t know if seeing you like this and not be able to help you is better for them. You’re not the one you used to be and they miss the old you. Still, we both know he will never come back.”

“I thought you were on my side!” I say annoyed.

“I’m, you just don’t see it yet.” She replies.

“Fuck you!”

“And my Tom is back.” She says laughing.

“Wait! Please? Sorry.” She says catching my arm as I want to walk away.

“Let me explain. I will not pretend, I understand your pain because my mate is still alive and even if he causes my other pain. I didn’t see him die in my arm. When I first met him, I should have. I just think you need to stop procrastinate and decided what you want to do. You have to let it go one way or another, to move on.”

“So your solution is for me to find another mate? This is dumb!” I say.

“No, not if it’s not what you want. I think you need to face her death because behind your rage against her and the fact she was drunk, you’re are still in the deny. The deny of the mate, you will not have and of life, you will not have. This is hard and awful and everything you want. But the world is keeping to move and it’s time for you to move on again with it. Do you know who is Emmett?”

“The Lycan who became crazy? Serena’s father?” I ask.

“No, not really. He used to be my father’s Beta and he was deep in love with his mate. When he was turned by my father in a Lycan, his mate refused that he marked and turned her. Instead, it’s my father who turned her as my mother refused. A few months later, he discovered that her mate was cheating him and wanted to mark her lover to turn him into a Lycan. When he realized that he wasn’t even the father of their daughter, his Lycan lost it and he killed her and her lover and refused to have any contact with Serena. After that, he left and nobody has never seen him since. But regularly, we hear about a lone Lycan who is helping people around the world. My parents know it’s him and they respect the life you chose for himself. He doesn’t want to love anymore but he has a good heart and wants to feel useful. I don’t know what the solution for you, I just know it’s time for you to find another reason to live, to find something to believe in. A reason to fight and to live. It’s your life, you need to take things in hand because nobody can do it for you.”

“Wow, you will be a great Queen one day.”

“Fuck you!” She replies believing I’m mocking her.

“I was honest. You should take the compliment little girl.” I can help to tease her.

“Thank you, I don’t know if I’m ready but I think I needed to hear that.”

“If you’re not ready now. You will never be.”

“So what you’re going to kick me in this ass to make me move on.” I joke.

“Maybe...” She says with a calculating smile.

“Why did you take badly the fact I said you will be a great Queen?” I ask, changing the subject.

“My coronation is delayed until further notice.” She replies.

“Why? What happened?”

“I lost control of my anger and I destroyed a few rooms in the castle in my Lycan form.”

“What? Why?”

“I found your asshole of cousin and Serena fucking in my bed! IN MY ROOM!” She says already shaking with anger.

“Are you sure? Serena, I already told you I don’t like her so I’m not surprised. She is a jealous bitch. But Noah is an ass but he would not do this kind of thing."

"You too, you're doubting me. You want me to show you that I not lying!" She says hurt.

"No, no sorry. I believe you but who is not believing you."

"Everybody else. When they went to check on my room. They were not here anymore. Everything was clean and it smells as usual. But I saw them, I know I did! It was not my imagination. I'm not insane."

"Hey, I know you're not insane. I believe you." I say hugging her. She needs someone on her side right now and this is something I can do.

"My parents want to see a therapist. We fought and I left the castle."

"Where are you living now?"

"I found an apartment in New Orleans."

"Why so far?"

"I don't know, it's a nice apartment and not that expensive... The location didn't matter."

"Yeah, typical princess' answer!" I whisper for myself but she slaps my shoulders but she is smiling.

"How did you can here?" I ask, curious.

"Lana made for me this magic necklace. I can use it to teleport me wherever I want. If you're nice with you maybe she can do one for you too."

"I don't wear a necklace! It's too girly."

She laughs: "Yeah, typical macho's answer."

When her laugh dies she adds: " You could move with me. I have three bedrooms."

"Will you do my laundry?" I tease.

"In your dream macho!" She replies.

" I will think about it."

"Seriously?"

"Seriously, I will." I promise.

"Good!" She says with a big smile.