Alpha Dominic

still Bethany's POV

I feel dead inside, it felt like the earth was crumbling from underneath my feet and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.

Ithurts,

It hurts so bad.

I can literally feel my heart shattering into a million pieces as he walked out and banged the door so hard that the entire I00m shook and vibrated. Carl and Harriet rushed in immediately, Li could hear their voices as they checked my body for bruises, checking to know if I'm still alive.

They were standing so close, calling out to me, but their voices felt so distant, it felt so far away. I felt like I was drowning in deep pool, going deep under the water. People always say that getting drowned is not a good experience, but I love this feeling of nothingness, I welcomed the emptiness within me. This is better than being in his presence, feeling his anger and hatred and disgust.

It felt like death, and I loved it. I can’t bear the pain and hurt that comes with thinking about his rejection, I can't bear the thought of never seeing him again, never being in his arm. I never knew how much I loved him until he said those words to reject me and walked out that door.

Carl lifted me up, carrying me in his arms bridal style, taking me back to our room, no, not our room. I've been kicked out of our room, my things must have been moved to the guest room, the same guest room that he had stayed on that night that I had mistakenly shot him. He wants me to leave with the girls when they are leaving, he is even doing me a favour by letting me stay in this room, he would have kicked me out of the castle immediately. If he has asked me to leave, I wouldn't have said anything because I know that I deserve it, I deserve anything he throws at me. I'm such an i***t, I'm so f*****g stupid. I let my hatred and anger push me into hurting my mate. He has shown me so much love and care, he has done everything he could to make me love him, yet I betrayed his love and his trust.

“We're you really going to kill king Dominic, Beth?

You were ordered to kill his generals and high ranked wolves, was in a part of that list, would you have killed me too?” Carl asked in disappointment, earning a nudge from Harriet who glared furiously at him.

“Now is not the place or time, Carl. Can't you see that she's hurting?” she scolded him angrily. He scoffed at her remarks, turning to walk out the door, banging the door just the way Dominic had done earlier on. The two guys that I care about in my life are both pissed off at me and it's all my fault, I should have let it go, I should have accepted our bond and agreed to mate with him. Now I'm all alone, with no mate and no friend, just me and Harriet who looks a little bit confused about the whole situation.

“Look Beth, I'm going to be straight with you, I'm not one to pamper and cuddle anyone, it's not in my nature, I just don't do it. So I'm going to tell you the truth. You messed up. Yes, you messed up big time. But this doesn't have to end this way, you can still redeem yourself, that is if you want to." She told me pointedly.

“What the f**k are you talking about, he rejected me a d kicked me out of his room. He found the messages I'd been sending to king Ashford. He thinks I'm dating the Lycan king, he thinks I accepted the deal from him, how the f**k am I supposed to redeem myself from that” I let out in frustration, pulling my hand through my hair.

“Ahhhh....

Can you shut up already?

Its already been established, you f****d up. Now, what are you going to do about it, Beth?

Are you going to sit here and whine like a weakling or are you going to try and make this right?” she asked with a smirk, mocking me with her words.

“What would you have me do, throw myself at his feet and beg him to forgive me and take me back?

Do I look like I have a death wish? He asked me to stay the f**k away from him, and that's exactly what I m going to do. I'l just go away so don't cause any more problems.” I told her abruptly, trying to dismiss the subject, but trust Harriet, she's as stubborn as they come, she wasn't planning on giving up on us, at least not yet anyway. She came forward, her face a few inches from mine, looking me dead in the eyes.

“Are you always this stupid, or you are simply pretending to be stupid in front of me?

Can't you see that king Dominic cannot live without you, can't you see that he still loves you?

For f***s sake, think Bethany. He is even giving you a chance to redeem yourself and you're stupidly throwing it away a second time. Gosh, you're so stupid.” She sighed, gazing at me like a clown.

“What the f**k are you talking about, what chance did he give me to redeem myself?" I asked curiously with eyes as wide as saucers, looking at her expectantly.

“Did you accept his rejection?” She asked with raised eyebrows, smiling down at me.

“No, I couldn't say a word because I was in pain after he beat me up and rejected me. What does that even have to do with anything, Harriet? He said the words to reject me and I felt the pains, I felt like dying after he left, it f****g hurt so much” I told her as the tears threatened to spill out of my eyes.

“Trust me, Beth, the pains would have been twice as much if you had accepted his rejection. If King Dominic really wanted tc reject you, he would not have left that gym until you accept his rejection, he would have forced you to accept it and he would not have let you stay in this castle, let alone leaving you in the guest room close to him.

He wants you to correct your mistake, he wants to see you work hard to redeem yourself, and from what I'm seeing, you're failing at it, miserably” She added smugly. She's right, she is absolutely right. He had shown me that he was extremely pisse off at me, but he still kept me by his side. He sent me out of his room but not out of his house. This could still work out, I could still get him to trust me again, I just have to, t.. I just have to... Wait, what do I do?

“What am I going to do, how don't get him to trust me again, how can I make him forgive me?” I voiced out in confusion. “You could start by taking a shower and getting ready for dinner tonight. Like I said earlier, Dominic loves you, with or without the mating bond. You could start by making him realize how much he needs you, you have to make him fall madly ir love again. Let him know that you still want him, I'm sure he won't be able to resist you." She said teasingly, making me smilt widely. Her positive energy is very contagious, I couldn't help getting a little excited about the idea of seducing Dominic and winning back his heart.

“How about King Ashford, how do I get him to believe that I'm not having an affair with him, how do I make him believe that never intended to take that deal, I only wanted to know what he’s planning so I can tell him about it. It's true that I still haven't forgiven him for killing my family and destroying my life, but I'll never turn into a heartless murderer because of tha I would never dream of killing Carl and other innocent people in this Castle, I would never have done it, Harriet, I wouldn't dream of hurting them. Yes, I wanted king Dominic dead, but I don't want that anymore. I don't know when I stopped hating him so much, I don’t know how I fell in love with him, but I did and I never realized it until he rejected me and left me lying on the floor." I could not hold back the lone tear that slipped down my cheek as I opened up to her, pouring out my heart to her.

“I believe you, Beth. I don't know why, I should hate you for even talking to king Ashford, but I don't. I guess it's because I lik you already. I'm going to help you prove to Dominic that you weren't planning on doing what king Ashford asked. By the way how we're you able to receive those weapons, can you recognize the person, is it a warrior or an omega?” she asked.

“I have no f*****g idea. I was there in the king's room trying to convince him to change his tactics and leave Carl and the others, he suddenly asked me to go over to the door and receive a package. I walked over to the door and there on the floor in front of his door, I saw the box with the weapons. I didn't see anyone, just the damn box. But I'm fairly certain that the sp is right here in this castle, and I think that he/she is of high rank otherwise, there is absolutely no way they could sneak tha box to this room without being caught. If I could find that spy, I'm sure he would confess the whole truth and Dominic would believe that I was never dating king Ashford.” I muttered softly.

“Don’t worry, I'll help you get through this, we'll find that spy in no time, we just have to be smart about it. I'm going to leave you alone for a few minutes Beth, when I get back in here, you should be ready for dinner, we have to hurry if you want to see him on the dining table, he doesn't stay long on the dining table, I'm sure he'll spend even lesser time, considering his anger status.” She said smugly, making me smile.

“0h, and Bethany, look sexy for your man, dress to kill” She added with a wink, and I giggled in response to her teasing. When she left, I got up and walked to my wardrobe but I couldn't find my things in the wardrobe like he had said they would be, I could only find some of his clothes in my wardrobe. I couldn't go over to his room and demand for my things, not when he is still so furious at me. I have no f****g choice, I had to make do with what I have. I was wearing a bum short and a crop top, so I decided to wear one of his shirts with my bum shorts, that's all I could come up with, it would have to be enough fo now.

I had a quick shower, hurrying to meet up with the time, I wouldn't want to miss him at the dining table, I would feel so disappointed. I applied some light make-up, holding up my hair in a ponytail. I put on the black sneakers that I had worn to the gym, then I ran out of the room, hurrying to meet up with Harriet, hoping with all my heart that I meet him there.

“What the f**k are you wearing?” Harriet yelled in obvious shock when she saw me wearing his cloth. She looked so shocked and I wondered if his clothes doesn't look good on me.

“Yeah, I know you said I should look sexy, but this is all I could find in that room, my things have not been moved yet, I can't 20 up to his room you know, not when he's seething in rage. Do you think he would mind?" I asked a little nervously, I wouldn't want him thinking that 'm a pervert or something.

“You have no idea how sexy you look right now Beth, are you trying to drive him crazy with lust?” she responded with a soft giggle, making me heave a sigh of relief. For a while there, I thought she was going to say something negative about my outfit, I would have turned around immediately and headed back to my room. Good thing she liked it, I'm certain that he would like it also.

We turned around to head down the stairs that leads to the dining room. We had not taken two steps when we heard an angry growl coming from behind us. I felt his presence because his eyes were fixed on me, and I could also smell his deliciously amazing scent. We turned around in shock to be met with the burning gaze of a pissed off Alpha king. His eyes were shining bright red again and I wondered if it is anger or lust this time, I wondered if he was falling for my seduction already. It would be great to have him yearning for me again, I want to see that look in his eyes that tells me how much he desires me. I smiled warmly, hoping he reciprocates, but the next words that came out of his mouth dashed all my hopes away,

“Are you f*****g insane, Bethany are you courting death?”