Alpha Dominic

Bethany's POV

I could see the shock in his eyes. He is angry, I can see it in his eyes but I don't care, I feel kind of exhilarating, it feels so good. It only hurts me because I didn't find Fabius and Bianca there. Dominic must have moved them to another location, I don't know if he knew I was going to try something or maybe he is just trying to keep them under strict security, but I couldn't find them and now I've lost my perfect chance to get rid of them. I'm not sure that Dominic will let me have another chance, he will put up tighter security around them, and I won't be able to get anywhere near those cells anymore. But that doesn't mean that I won't try, I'm still going to get rid of those bastards. Since Dominic has refused to do the right thing, I'm going to make the right decisions for him. I guess something good did come out of all this, I now know how it feels like to take the life of your enemies. It is not as bad as Dominics makes it look like, in fact, it is quite liberating, I F*+***g love it.

I went up to the room and sat down waiting for Dominic to come in and throw a tantrum or something but he didn’t come in I guess he wants to stay away from me for a while, I really don't care. I'm proud of my actions, and I won't let him or any other person to make me feel guilty about something that isn't even wrong. These guys are monsters and if revere was the case, they would have done exactly the same to any one of us that falls into their trap. For f***s sake, that b***h was going t drag me to king Ashford. I have no idea what I would have gone through if she had succeeded. They deserve no mercy, none whatsoever. Fighting this war has made him so brutal and ruthless but it also made him careless of the feelings of everyone around him. I won't let him treat me this way anymore, I won't be a Luna that sits as a figurehead. If I'm going to be the Queen and Luna, then he needs to know that I won't be treated like a fool, he has to give me my due respect, and I have to be heard.

Isat on the bed playing with my phone when the door pushed open and he walked right in, his aura so calm, yet intimidating. You know that confidence I had a few minutes ago? It disappeared immediately after he walked in through that door, I wasn't so tough anymore, I don't think I am ready to face him. He looks like a ticking time bomb, I had to move furthe down the bed, trying to put some distance between us. Gosh, my heart is beating so fast. I wish I had not come in here, I could have gone to the hospital to be with Harriet and Ciara, anything would have been better than facing him right now. I kept pressing my phone, acting like I don't see him standing right in front of me. He stood there glaring at me, but I ignored him completely, I simply focused on my phone, pretending to be unconcerned and unbothered, but deep within me, I know that I am as nervous as hell.

“Don’t you have anything to say for yourself?” he let out fiercely, making me look up at his face for the first time since he got here. Seeing the anger on his face is making me even angry. He has no right to be this upset with me, if anything, he should be thanking me for doing something that he was not able to do. Why the hell am I even feeling so nervous, am I really scare of this guy? For F***s sake he is my man, my mate. I should be able to speak freely in his presence, I should not be feeling this nervous. Of feels like I am standing in front of a freaking judge and that is kind of annoying.

“No, Dom. I have absolutely nothing to say to you anymore. I said everything that needs to be said already. So please leave me alone” I responded in a boring tone, letting him know that I'm tired of having this conversation.

“Are you f*****g kidding me right now?

You took lives, Bethany, you f****g killed those people. You didn't even let me get the information I needed from them. Bethany those guys were our people, no matter what they did, they deserved second chances. What the hell is wrong with you?

What if those people you just killed were working under duress?

I don't see you shooting your friend Harriet, why isn't she dead too. She did work for king Ashford for a certain period, but you didn't see her as a bad person because you understood her situation. You knew she wasn't doing it on purpose and you helped her find a solution to her problems. What if these guys you just killed were not doing it on their own terms, what if h had their families as well, don't you think that you have wronged and disappointed all those people, for f***s sake Bethany, what f*****g came over you?

What if king Ashford held their family hostages, do you know that he would have no reason to keep them alive anymore, he would kill them straight away, he would kill them all” He told me fiercely while glaring daggers at me.

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I never thought about that. I was so blinded by my grief. Ciara was hurt and I blamed it on them, I blamed it on Dominic. Fing I should have thought about it, I should have done a lot better, but I won't let him see that, I won't let him get into my head. H is trying to get me to feel guilty, but I won't let him.

“I don't care about all that, Dom. I got what I wanted and it is so liberating. I finally did what I wanted for the first time in a very long time and I f*****g love it. You have no right to talk to me that way, you have no right to make me feel so guilty. I won't let you get into my head, I won't let you make me feel guilty, I won't let you... I won't let...” I yelled at him, feeling the tears roll down my cheeks. Now why the hell am I crying, I'm not feeling guilty now am I?

“I thought I took away all your supplies from King Ashford, where did you get the potion you used in killing almost fifty moles?" He asked me once more, making me turn away in shame. I guess he has finally gotten into my head, I'm beginning tc feel so f*++g miserable and depressed. Damn, this guy is such a joy killer, he just turned my happy mood into a sour one. Now I'm beginning to see the faces of all the guys I killed and I'm beginning to imagine how their families would be feeling right now, that is if they aren't dead already. Dear moon goddess, what the hell have I done?

“Answer melt” he yelled angrily, but I wasn't feeling okay, I was lost in my head, I could see their faces, I can hear their screams in my head as the poison circulated through their whole body. They were five omega's in the last cell, they were young and very beautiful. They watched me kill the guys and when it got to their turn, they begged for mercy, going down or their knees and pleading for mercy. But I showed them no mercy, I pointed my gun at them, with the bullet laced with yellow wolfsbane. I pulled the trigger without thinking twice about it, I f*****g killed them all and I felt nothing at all, I felt no remorse... until now.

“Don't you f*****g try to play with my intelligence, don't you dare act like you suddenly grew a conscience. I know you don't feel any guilt, so why don't you just snap out of it and answer the damn question.” He told me fiercely, looking so stern as h glared continuously at me.

I was hearing him clearly, but I couldn't say one word to him, I could not respond to his question, I don't even know what the question was anymore, I am feeling so lost, 50 guilty...

What the hell have I done?

Thatis all I kept asking myself, what the hell have I done?

What if he is right, what if they are forced to do it, what if their families are at risk?

That would only mean that I just took the lives of innocent people, this would not be seen as an act of revenge or payback, i would be seen as murder. I'm nothing but a murderer...

“Beth, are you okay, why are you shaking so much? Talk to me my love, what is wrong with you?” he asked in a panic as he comes up on the bed to check on me. I don't know what is wrong with me, but I can hear voices in my head. I have no idea what is wrong with me.

“Holy F*kitt

You are burning hot. What is wrong with you?” he yelled nervously, but I couldn't say anything, I'm drowning in my thoughts.