All I Wanted

“Dad” I say but still didn’t get any response. Justin was standing there clueless. I went to the back door but it was also locked. I should probably call him so I brought out my phone and dialed his number.

“The number you're dialing is switched off". Switched off? My father's number is never switched off. It was at this point I knew something bad might have happened to him.

“I think something bad has happened to my father” I say to Justin.

“Why do you say that?"he asks

“Because I can feel it, he's in danger Justin he's not at home and his phone is switched off" I say almost in tears. I can't afford to lose my father he's all I have left.

“You shouldn't worry too much Jane maybe he is stuck on the road or maybe he branched a friend's place after all he's not a kid, he's a man an elderly one and you should just remain calm he'll be home soon” he says.

“Yeah I'll remain calm, I just hope he's actually fine” I say and Justin hugged me tight against his well built chest, I hugged him back because I actually needed it to make me feel a little bit better and calm.

“Let's go inside shall we?" He says

“sure” I say and checked under the carpet for the extra key that is always there Incase we forget or lose our key. I found the key and immediately opened the door, Justin walked right behind me as we entered the house.

“I'l take you to the guest room” I say to Justin

“Oh the guest room” he says sounding a little bit dissapointed maybe he thought we'd sleep in the same room. I showed him to the guest room that was just beside the a corner of the living room. I turned on the lights of the guest room and brought out some bed sheets from the closet as I laid the bed.

“There you go” I say after I finished laying the bed. “I'll wait in the living room for my Dad”

“rll wait with you” he says

“Aren't you tired from the drive?”

“No I'm good, Il wait with you and maybe make something light to eat” he offers

“Okay then” I say and we both walked out of the guest room. I sat on one of the couch and turned the TV on so as to maybe keep entertained since this was his first time in my house and it's so unfortunate that something like this is happening.

“I prefer cartoons” he says as I was shuffling through TV stations and I finally found a Chanel called Nickelodeon and they were showing “SpongeBob”.

“Oh I want this” he says and I dropped the remote control. “I used to watch this as a kid and I'm still watching it” he chuckles “maybe I'm still a baby”.

“Of course you are, whoever told you that you were an adult lied" I say teasingly and we both laughed.

“Maybe I'm your baby” he says and his eyes were fixed on mine. I was getting nervous but my body didn't move. His gaze slowly fell on my lips and In no time his hot breath was getting closer to my face.

“I love you” he says and his lips fell on mine kissing the top of my lip softly and slowly and I gave in to the kiss and kissed him back. I seemed to have shocked him because he wasn't expecting me to kiss him back so he continued to kiss me deeper and then his tongue was in mine. He adjusted himself on the couch and positioned his body on me but in a way that his weight wasn't on me. He didn't break from the kiss and neither did I.

He trailed his kiss to my neck and kissed my neck like it was an egg that must not crack. It was at this point I realized that we have gone beyond the friendship zone and I didn't think I was ready for the next step.

“Justin please stop” I say and I could see the shame and embarrassment on Justin's face as he stopped kissing my neck.

“Ym sorry” he says and my heart fell.

“Please don't take this the wrong way, I just don't think I'm ready to take the next step. We can just be like how we used to be for now. Friends” I say and emphasized on the “friends”.

“It hurts when you show me that you don't feel the same” he says.

“Ym sorry Justin, I just have a lot right nod and my Father isn't still home yet.”

“Then let me help you, let me be by your side when you're going through hard times, let me hold your hands and hug you and comfort you and protect you and just be there for you but you don't seem to want that, you just keep pushing me away” he says and his eyes turned red, was he going to cry.

“I think tonight isn't the best time for this Justin, maybe tomorrow I'm still very stressed how about you go sleep and I'll wait here" I say but he doesn’t move an inch instead he rested his head on my shoulder.

“I don't want to leave you alone, I love you” he says and closed his eyes. I don't know if I should just open my heart to accept this man here because he's actually who every woman would want in their life, he's nice caring kind handsome generous and also a successful doctor,

I brought his head to my laps so he would feel more comfortable since there is actually a lot of flesh in my laps compared to the bone in my shoulder. I stared at his lashes as the dark thick and long lashes fell on his cheeks. I shoved the strand of his hair from his face as I admire his beauty.

I looked at the wall clock in my Dad's house and it was really late already, it was I o'clock am and my dad wasn't back yet, something must've happened to him and at this point I didn't realize the tears falling from my eyes that dropped on Justin's face, I immediately wiped the tears off his face and he opened his eyes.

“You're still awake?” He asks staring at my already puffed and red eyes. “F**k it Jane you've been crying” he says as he lifted his head from my lap and hugged me tightly at this point I wasn't scared of crying in his presence as I let my guard down and the tears started to run down my cheek like a tap.

“It's fine Jane, don't cry anymore I'm here with you, you'll be fine” he says trying to comfort me but my eyes wouldn't corporate as it kept on pumping out tears. Justin stood up from the chair and carried me on his body petting me like a mother petting her baby to stop crying and I felt safe in his embrace.

“Ym here baby” he says and I sunk my head into his shoulders as I sniffed my nose and I felt better and a remember the last time I cried this much I just don’t want to lose my Father.