A Gold Alpha For A Silver Alpha

My heart was racing almost out of my chest with nervousness, I nodded to let him know I had heard his warning.

Careful.

Why would I need to be careful?

Something about the way Noel was looking at Rae, (so annoyed and embarrassed), made me suspect that, unbeknownst anyone else, something else happened between them in those few seconds they faced each other.

I wasn't too sure I wanted to know what happened, Noel was a quiet person actually, very protective of the pack, he didn’ usually get carried away with his feelings being a more objective person.

What could Rae have done to him to make him view him with open hostility now?

I walked to the center with a determined step, but with doubts flooding my mind, his black wolf awaited me impassively, closed my eyes, and without much ceremony I transformed.

When 1 opened them again, my pack looked at me with respect and admiration. My wolf was a little smaller than hers, bu not by much, although with its posture and aura it looked bigger than it really was.

I remembered the sensations I felt when I did this same exercise but in my human form, and I mentally shuddered.

When our gazes collided this time it was different, because instead of pain, emptiness and suffering his sweet voice alon; with his laughter came into my head.

I felt no fear, no pain, I just saw her, or rather felt her. Like a speck of bright light that clung to exist among a pile of darkness.

My body relaxed, while hers tensed, tilted her head, that gesture so characteristic that it took me a couple of meetings to learn it by heart. She used to do it when something surprised her, something out of her knowledge and that she could no fully understand.

That discovery created an immense security that filled me whole, made my posture rise, strong, imposing, the posture of Alpha.

I thought I saw how her eyes riddled me, filled me with doubts and questions. Like the time before, I could see a galaxy through them.

This time the more time we spent looking at each other, the more sadness painted her expression. It was my turn to tilt m head, analyzing her, trying to understand her, to comprehend the contradictory emotions that surrounded her.

Rae Mckensei was a mystery that, for some reason I felt more and more compelled to solve. I wanted to get closer to her, know more about her life, about her pack, about what she had had to live through for all that pain to always surround he Because to be honest that's what I wanted the most at that moment.

To be with her.

I didn't understand anything, this need that was like an electric current that propelled me from my fingertips to the stran of my hair.

I took a step in her direction heeding my instinct and willing to get to the bottom of this mystery, but she stepped back, putting distance between us. Every time I approached her she pulled away. Her calm and collected expression broke and something akin to fear painted her eyes.

This time I didn't hold it in and a growl of disgust came out of my muzzle because Rae was pulling away from me.

From us.

Mack spoke in my head.

And again.

Before I could avoid it, Rae bolted off in the direction of the forest, disappearing back into the trees, her fur blending int the darkness that engulfed her, hiding her from the looks of surprise and incomprehension from her pack and me.

I returned to my human form.

I stood staring at the spot where she disappeared, the wind whipped hard against the branches of the trees, making the wood shiver, as if they were whispering secrets to each other, as if the forest was telling its secrets to her.

This time I did not stand still.

Without giving it much thought or caring about the consequences I ran after her.

The screams of the people who stayed behind me flooded my ears, including my Beta's, but their words were not process by my brain and were lost in the wind.

Everything was overshadowed by a single thought.

To catch her.

In a few seconds my wolf form returned, and I let Mack take control of my body. I couldn't see her, as she was too far ae: of me, so we followed her scent, her delicious minty scent that tantalized my senses.

Mack was running faster and faster, impatient to hold her in our arms, to hold her close, to kiss her....

WHY THE F**K DID I THINK THAT?

I shook my head, unfocused by the direction of my strange thoughts, ordering myself to pay more attention to finding her realize that her scent starts to become more intense, revealing that she is near.

I snatch control from Mack before he does something foolish.

Finally her figure enters my field of vision, I stop a few meters from where she is and I guess she hasn't noticed my presence, as she is leaning over a small lake that has a waterfall in front of it.

The place is unfamiliar to me, so I suppose that, without wanting to leave the limits of the herd, and I am about to tell he about it when I notice that her shoulders go up and down quickly and small sobs escape from her mouth.

She is crying.

The Alpha.

Rae.

Mack howled piteously, mirroring her pain in him. My physical throat that left you breathless.

The worst part of seeing a wolf as strong as Rae so vulnerable was my inability to help her.

I don't know how to approach her.

I'm still in my wolf form, so I switch to my body, I walk slowly to where she is, I know she hears me as her head turns slightly in my direction, but she doesn't care, she's still prostrate in the same position.

I sit next to her, and I watch her, maybe it was seconds, maybe hours, but it seemed to me that we had just arrived when heard her sobbing louder and 1 finally decided to do something.

Hey. I reached out my hand with the intention of caressing her shoulder, but she jumped backwards and fell on the wet floor.

Her reaction had been sudden and defensive, as if I was threatening her with a silver knife.

-Don’t touch me. I hissed through my teeth.

From us.

Mack spoke to my head.

I... I tried to say something, but he interrupted me with his shout.

Don't you dare touch me! She said with some desperation in her tone, and I raised my hands conciliatorily so as not to upset her more.

Calm down, I'm not going to touch you alone, calm down. I agreed with a frown.

She looked at me suspiciously, her body was still tense and her chest was rising and falling with alarming speed.

“1 just want to talk, Rae. I spoke in a soft tone thinking that would stop her from being so nervous.

My eyes never left hers, and gradually she stopped being defensive and adopted a more relaxed pose, although she still kept her distance between us.

Why did you follow me Jason? I asked with intrigue.

I sighed and let my eyes wander over his features before answering.

“The truth... I don’t know myself. I answered honestly

~You shouldn't have done it.

She shook her head and turned to look at the lake in front of us.

I looked at her questioningly, she looked at me out of the corner of her eye and sighed audibly to continue.

“It's not good for you to be around me when it exploded like that, it's not good for anyone. I explained and saw her swallowing saliva as she moved her shoulders.

“Why did you react that way? I asked hoping to know more about her.

But Rae didn't answer me, she continued with her gaze lost in the tranquility of the water, I didn't know if she hadn't hear me or she simply decided to ignore me.

-Rae?

“Why... that's an excellent question, why, it's a pity I can't answer it, at least not for now? He said after another few moments of silence.

Now what did he mean by that?

You can tell me anything, I give you my Alpha word that I will not repeat a word you tell me. I tried to convince her.

I wanted to help her to get rid of some of the weight that always seemed to be on her shoulders.

-Don’t promise things you won't keep Jason, I can't tell you, I'm not ready to do it and I don’t think I will be for a long tims His voice sounded suddenly tired and old, very much at odds with his youthful appearance.

I felt like an idiot asking the same question again, but I couldn't help it.

“Why, what are you trying to say?

I'm trying to warn you.” Now her tone became harsh and cutting, “When you know, everything we know will change. Your whole world will end and a new one will begin, believe me when I tell you that, although knowledge is power, ignorance i bliss and there are things you don't need to know, I'm doing this for your own good.

His words make me snort in disagreement.

Although I didn't know what she meant by all that and before I can question her further a howl sounds in the distance attracting both of our attention.

She immediately stops and begins to mumble a curse and then looks at me from head to toe.

“I hope she is fit to fight Alpha, her pack is under attack.

She informs me and with her words my world slowly began to crumble.