A Girl’s Diary

"Get off me, Kayla." He moved their connected mouths. I couldn't move. I couldn't look. "What do you think you're doing?" He asked.

And here I thought, I would hurt him!

I never imagined he would...

"Ron, baby," she started. "Stop playing hard to get. We're already engaged." What. The. Fuck. "Stop trying to use this girl to get me. Here I am!" I laughed bitterly.

I was definitely going crazy here.

I had to get out of here. I willed my legs to move and then... they did. My eyes brimmed with tears making everything go blurry.

This was a nightmare!

It just couldn't be real... right?

"Shana, wait!" I heard him say but I wouldn't. I couldn't handle looking at him. I felt so betrayed. So deceived.

"I think I heard more than enough," I whispered more to myself.

I ran... faster and faster making everything even more blurry. The sounds were muffled... but yet, I couldn't escape this moment. It would be forever stuck in my memory.

My legs started getting weak, I couldn't run anymore.

How long was I even running?!

My knees buckled making me crash onto the ground. I wouldn't cry anymore. He didn't deserve my tears! I caged them in my eyes, they wouldn't dare fall anymore. I needed someone to help me with this mess! I had no idea where I was...

"Hey, Tommy! I think I may be lost... you have time to gimme a ride?" I said into the phone once he picked up.

"Are you okay?" He said in a panicked voice.

"Yeah! I'll send you my location." I answered noticing how hoarse my voice was.

"I'm close and stay on the phone until I get here." He said, I sniffed. "You know what? I'll tell you a story... that one about my rabbit which I thought was just a puppy with long ears..." He started telling me a random story for eight minutes straight. I could feel my lips spread into a warm smile.

But then, something breaks inside me all over again. I try... very very hard to breath against these emotions to no avail. But when I saw Tommy, I suddenly didn't feel anything at all, I became so numb. Maybe that was called getting better?

Maybe everything would be alright?

I hugged him... so very hard. Trying to get a grasp on any feeling.

I breathed into his chest. "That... that... jerk" I sniffed into his shirt. I didn't trust my voice any longer.

"Who? Louis?" I didn't reply. "No, you always call him an asshole, not a jerk... maybe Ron?"

"Yeah..." I could feel my throat closing and my tears coming back to life.

"Let it all out, Eli. It'll be alright. I promise." Something in his voice made me believe him. And just like that, I let it all out!

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I buried my head more into his chest till I couldn't cry anymore. My chest felt like someone snapped my rib cage in half and poured salt on everything. The pain felt so real, so gripping... maybe I did love him, but what was the point anymore?

"We can go home now!" I said once I really had no tears left to shed.

"No, not yet. We have a place to go to." Tom said winking at me.

Once we were in his car, I asked the obvious. "I look hideous, don't I?"

"Well..." I didn't like that tone! "Your eyes are puffy, your nose is red... probably full of snot too, your hair is-"

"I get it! Stop now!" I literally put both hands on his mouth. "Why do you have to be so honest?" I rolled my eyes.

He glanced at me for a second before we were both giggling like two big kids.

The rest of the ride was spent with me singing while Tommy made fun of my voice making me sing even louder.

"We've reached our destination, Twinkle," Tom said enthusiastically. I looked out the window.

We were at an amusement park!!☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐