My Luna Mate

The droplets of rain clinging on for dear life at the window, made me trace my finger on the glass in an effort to comfort them, wondering if they were there to help me instead.

The sky in the background was tar-black, reflecting the pain in my heart. Tears strolled down my cheek, for the tenth time today. The tapping on the window intensified, as an aggressive shower coated over the area.

"You alright?" Alexander murmured, wrapping his arms around me from behind, pulling me close against his chest. "Need anything?"

I shook my head, blinking away the tears and leaned back in to his shoulder.

It had already been a week since he told me about the loss of our pup. A week since I felt like my whole world came colliding, a week since I had abandoned every aspect of my life and kept myself locked in the house.

Alexander hardly left my side during that entire week. I knew he was just as heartbroken, but he didn't show it and focused on helping me instead.

"The pack are worried about you," Alexander said, softly, his nose stroking my cheek soothingly. "A couple of the younger pups brought you gifts. They are all thinking of you."

Closing my eyes tightly, I nodded to let him know I was listening and I appreciated every kind gesture that the pack had showed.

It was unfair to them for me to appear so weak, but losing my pup, before I had even had a chance to let it know how excited I was to have him or her, that made me feel guilty.

When I had found out that I was expecting a pup, I had been so immersed in the issues with that she-wolf from Alexander's past that I hadn't even given my own pup any love.

I couldn't help but feel guilty and wonder if that was the karma for not paying more attention to my pup, and to my body. I whimpered lowly and turned around to embrace my mate, as I sobbed in to his chest.

Alexander held me firmly, stroking my back soothingly like he had for the past week. "Baby, come on," he cooed in to my hair, his voice pained and low. "You need to be strong for yourself and for me."

Wiping at my tears with my sleeves, I heaved a loud sigh before pulling back to glance at him. "I'm sorry," I mumbled, swallowing the lump of pain in my throat. "I promised I would pick myself up, but I can't help every time I think of the pup, I just..."

Alexander pulled me flush against his chest again, holding me tightly. He was pecking my head gently, inhaling my scent in the process.

"I've got you," he reassured, his voice low. "I will always be here. We will move past this together, alright?"

I clung on to him for dear life, wrapping my arms around him. Losing our pup had driven my wolf completely insane, because she had formed a bond with the little one. Alexander had ensured that I remained sane by comforting me as much as he could.

After spending the afternoon together, with Alexander cooking and feeding me, we ended up fishing through the gifts that the pack had sent in condolence.

There were a variety of teddy bears, chocolates, flowers and cards. I cried all over again at how considerate the pack were, treating me with so much kindness even though I felt like I hadn't done much for them, especially in the past two weeks.

The various cute gifts brought life to the darkness in my life, and I smiled in awe at the words written in the different cards that were displayed.

Just as we were putting the gifts away, Ava, Matteo, Jaxon and Evan strutted through the doors. They had visited at least once a day together, to check up on me.

"Hey," Ava said, rushing to embrace me. "How are you holding up today?"

I smiled at her when I pulled back. "I'm better."

"I'm glad you're okay," Matteo said, sternly. "Ava, here, hasn't slept a wink because she is so worried about you."

I glanced at Matteo apologetically, pursing my lips as my eyes travelled to the girl in question.

"I'm sorry for worrying you," I apologised, squeezing her hand slightly, before I pulled away. "Thank you all for coming by today as well, you really didn't have to."

Evan smiled weakly, Ava nodded and Matteo pressed his lips together.

I glanced over at Jaxon, who was narrowing his eyes at me. "I heard you haven't been out for a couple of days. How about a race against my wolf?" he proposed, a devilish look in his eyes.

"Jaxon," Alexander said, warningly, his muscles tensing as he came to stand by my side and wrapped an arm around my waist. "Maybe next time."

"Next time? Hell, no. My best friend isn't a bore," the boy exclaimed, glancing at me daringly. "Lyr, it would give your wolf the opportunity to attack me to relieve some frustration."

My brows furrowed at his words, as if I would hurt him ever. I sighed, and turned in my mate's arms to glance up at him.

"Jaxon is right," I told Alexander, heaving a loud sigh. "My wolf has been in hiding for a week, it's probably a good idea to get her back out there."

Alexander's piercing gaze was on me, eyes filled with concern and his brows knitted together. "Baby, I do not want you out of my sight."

Swallowing hard, I whispered, "I know, but I really need a break from this house."

My mate tightened his arms around me and brought me flush against his chest. His head dipped down until his lips were by my temple.

"Let me take you for a run," he murmured, lowly, his eyes only a couple of inches from mine. "My wolf misses you."

I wanted to, I really did.

But seeing his wolf right now, it made me feel almost ashamed. I was the reason for the loss of our pup, and I couldn't face him yet. I needed to let my wolf run her course before I could have her face him.

"Maybe later, hmm? I will make this quick," I promised Alexander, knowing he would understand.

My mate, as expected, nodded once. He placed a lingering kiss on my cheek, before he pulled back.

"Whatever my Luna wants, she gets," he finally agreed. "It will give me time to handle some pack business in the meantime."

I squeezed at his hand to let him know that I appreciated this, despite how tough it was for him to have me out of his sight ever since the incident. Alexander glanced at me and gave me a quick wink before he turned his head towards Jaxon.

"Jaxon," he said, his voice stern. "Take care of my girl. If anything out of the ordinary happens, you will inform me right away."

Jaxon nodded quickly, before he turned to me and grinned. I narrowed my eyes at him, but eventually cracked a smile at his light mood. He always knew how to cheer me up.

"Come on, my little weakling," he taunted, holding his arm out for me.

Alexander growled lowly by my side. "Watch your words," he warned Jaxon, before he turned to embrace me tightly. 'I love you.'

I wrapped my arms around my mate's neck, inhaling his scent. 'I love you too, and thank you.'

Alexander pecked at my lips before he unwired his arms from around me. He then turned his gaze back on Jaxon.

"Be mindful of my mate, especially if she wants to take a break," Alexander warned the boy, making me glance at my best friend apologetically.

But Jaxon only rolled his eyes, and didn't respond back to my mate.

Before releasing me, Alexander pecked at my forehead. After lightly squeezing my hand, he vanished through the front door, leaving me alone with my friends.

My wolf whimpered after him, longing for his touch, but I knew the distance would do us both good right now.

He would attend to the pack and get to do what he had abandoned all week because of me, and I would give my wolf the time she needed to relieve of the sadness she felt.

Biting my bottom lip, I turned my focus on Jaxon. The boy wiggled his brows.

"I will give you a head start since you're a bit rusty," he teased.

I rolled my eyes. "Don't cry when I beat you," I retorted, making my way towards the front door.

I briefly caught Jaxon embrace Evan, giving him a light peck before he trailed behind me. I couldn't help but grin as we headed towards the woods.

Though, my heart was torn in every direction possible, I was grateful for the people in my life. And one of them being Jaxon.

Jaxon had been there for me in all of my darkest moments, always trying to cheer me up. He was the brother figure that I never had, and with that thought, I shifted in to my wolf and began sprinting.

I could feel Jaxon behind me, and not a second later, he shifted and sprinted forward to keep up with me. A brief moment later, he entered my mind, of course, taunting me.

'Is that all you got, little Luna?'