Mated in the shadow of my sister by lady gwen

Chapter 0109

(Lily POV)

Brady let go of my hand and ran his hands through his hair.

“Look, Lily, please remember that I am a different person now. I cannot justify any of the things that happened back then, and I do not want to even try. I was a jerk, and I know it.”

I shook my head. “Brady, you have told me all of this already.”

know. I just wanted to repeat it so that you remember it. I also want to be sure that you know I know

how wrong I was.”

“Brady, relax. I understand that you are not perfect. And what happened must have occurred a long time

ago, from what little I know.”

Brady did not say anything. He just kept running his hands through his hair.

“Brady, are you going to tell me?” I asked gently. I would like to know, but you do not have to tell me

you do not want to.”

“No, I want to tell you. It’s just…..”

it

Brady got up and started pacing. Then he sat down again, only to get up a couple of minutes later and resume pacing. Finally, he sat down, leaned his head back on the seat, and closed his eyes.

“I started dating Evelyn when we were both 15 years old. My dad, not surprisingly, was against it. He said. that I should not have a serious relationship until I met my fated mate, and that I should save myself for her. I ignored his advice. Evelyn was funny, kind, and absolutely gorgeous. I felt drawn to her. And I was

a h orny ba&t ard.

We lost our virginity to one another at age 16. Evelyn became my world. We saw each other almost every day, and I fell head over heels completely in love with her. We continued to date all through high.

school and after we graduated.

My male friends-especially my alpha ones- would often talk about the girls that they dated and brag

about their sexual exploits. I was the only one who had a serious girlfriend. My father repeatedly tried to

convince me that having a serious girlfriend was a risk. He did not want me to be like my friends and

have a new female every week, but he warned me that having such a serious girlfriend could also lead to

unnecessary complications when I eventually met my mate.

I was stubborn, and I continued to ignore his advice. Nevertheless, the closer that Evelyn and I got to our

20th birthdays, the more we began to seriously think about what we would do and what would happen to

not be so hard on us when we found our mates, but neither of us wanted to do that.

For whatever reason, it never occurred to Evelyn or I that we might be fated to each other. Looking back.

on it, I do not understand why it never occurred to us; all the signs were there. The only thing I can think

of to explain it is that we were young and st upid.

Anyway, we watched as our friends began to turn 20 and meet their mates. The conversations with my

\male friends shifted from discussions about their sexual exploits to conversations about how different

sex was with their mates than with other girls that they had f&&ked. Meanwhile, Evelyn’s friends would

regularly talk about how exciting it was to fall in love at first sight, with the power of the mate bond.

Between Evelyn and I, I turned 20 first. I was incredibly excited to find my mate. Even though Evelyn and

I were still together, I would go to parties and events eager to find out who the Moon Goddess had

selected for me. I wondered whether the Moon Goddess would mate me with a blond with big breasts, a

brunette with a tiny waist, a red-head with a perfect butt, or someone with a combination of those

features.

I also fantasized about how much better sex would be with the mate bond versus the sex that I had been

having with Evelyn. That is not to say that sex with Evelyn was bad. To the contrary, I enjoyed it very

much. I just did not have anything to compare it to, because I had never been with anyone else.

Before you say anything, yes I know that the mate bond is about much more than just sex. But I did not

necessarily realize that then. I was an immature, walking mess of hormones, and I could barely go three

minutes without thinking about sex. So when I thought of my future mate, most of my thoughts naturally

were about sex too.

At the same time, the idea of Evelyn having sex with another wolf drove me nuts. I decided that I had to

be the one to find my mate first. That way, it would hopefully bother me less when she found hers. The

closer to Evelyn’s birthday we got, the more desperate that I became to find my mate.

Unfortunately, Kalen fought me on the idea of checking out other females. All he wanted to do was hang

out with Evelyn and her wolf. In hindsight, that alone should have been the biggest clue that Evelyn was

my fated mate. But, of course, I did not think of it that way. I just thought that we had spent far too much

time with Evelyn and her wolf the last few years, and that Kalen had gotten attached to them.

The three nights leading up to Evelyn’s birthday were the absolute hardest for me. I did not sleep at all. In

retrospect, the lack of sleep probably contributed to the horrible decision that I made. I just kept thinking about the possibility of Evelyn meeting her mate and that other b&&tard touching her intimately, in ways

only I had. The idea made me crazy.

Finally, the morning of Evelyn’s birthday arrived. I went over to her parents’ house. They had prepared a big birthday breakfast for her, and they had invited me to join them. The moment that I walked into

began prancing in the back of my head shouting “mate” over and over again.

Just then, Evelyn came down the stairs. I could tell her wolf was telling her the same thing. Evelyn had a

huge smile on her face and ran down the stairs to greet me.

Unfortunately, instead of feeling happy, I…. I panicked.”

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