Chasing Us: Chapter 31
Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind but now I see
My dearest Adriana,
I walk away from this earth into the light with God’s guidance, which has given me the strength I need to allow myself the peace my body deserves.
My love will forever live in our beautiful baby boy, Andy. He is eternally blessed, and I promise to watch over both of you and keep harm and nightmares away.
Love never dies, Adriana. It may move onto a place that you can’t see but believe me when I promise you that it’s all around you. It will never stop, and when you feel alone, I want you to know that my love will forever embrace you.
My life may have not been long in years, but it was fulfilled in more ways than I ever thought possible. The moment I laid my eyes upon you at the football field on that hot summer night when you were just seventeen years old, I knew you were my soul mate, the woman to complete me and make my dreams come true.
In so many ways, Adriana, you made me feel alive, and the biggest gift you have given me was bringing our son into this world.
I may have only held Andy for a few days, but he is my son, and his beating heart, his first breaths were the reason that I could die an incredibly happy and content man.
Adriana, my love, promise me that you will continue life with our son. Give him every opportunity that he deserves. Let him grow into a fine, honorable man. Let him find his own path and understand the unity of a family.
I know you will never stop loving me, but know that you have my blessing to find someone who will love you and take care of you. I can’t say he’ll love you as much as I do, as I doubt there is anyone who has the ability to love you like I do and have done for so long. But please, find someone that will be the father Andy deserves. Don’t deny him this because you are scared, Adriana.
Anytime you miss me, just look into Andy’s eyes. I am there staring right back at you.
Forever with you,
Elijah